90 Days Pursuing My Husband's Love

Crying (Chapter 21)

Seeing Arnold standing in front of me made me reflex to turn my body around. I then stood facing the students who were silent to see me standing.

"Everyone, we're going to class today. See you next week." My speech.

The students came out leaving me and Arnold both in the room. As I was feeling, I walked to the table and took my bag. Before turning around, I held onto my chest and felt my irregular heartbeat.

This crack ... is still the same as usual, while still with her, I muttered inwardly.

Both of my hands rested on the table, I exhaled heavily.

Until when will this feeling continue to be buried in the heart? How long can I let her go with someone else?

I tried to smile, but my eyes immediately heated up when I remembered who I was dealing with.

Remembering what Dara said in the office that day when I told her about my divorce with Arnold.

"What is missed and missed, means that it is not our sustenance. Busy yourself with positive activities, later also forget."

I nodded with my head down because the tears were unstoppable.

I exhaled a heavy sigh again when I remembered first bearing the status of a widow from Arnold. Where, every night my cries always break suddenly for no reason.

Not wanting to drag on in sadness, I went back to tidying up my bag and carrying it.

"It's over?" Arnold said again.

I ignored him and walked out of the room.

"Come Velicia. I want to talk to you." Arnold just kept following me.

Along the way to the parking lot, all the students on campus saw the two of us walking in a hurry.

Until I got to the parking lot, Arnold pulled my hand which made my heart beat faster.

Come on heart, let's work together to forget him.

"Take me off, I'm going home." I snapped while throwing Arnold's hand and then got into the car and left Arnold who remained standing.

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At night, I sat in the dining room. Enjoying the cooked meal of a housekeeper I hired. Lately my body is getting weaker, making me have to hire the services of an ART just to help me at home.

"Meeting and parting is the secret of Lord Miss. No one can guess what our way of life will be like in the future. Our job as human beings is to do our best, the rest let God finish" Sumi said shortly before I entered the room.

Yes, Sumi's name is. That middle-aged woman I hired as ART accompanied me at home. He's been working for me since my parents were alive. However, after marriage I decided to stay with Arnold at Villa and no longer need the services of Ms. Sumi.

This time I went back to living in my old house, and tried to get Ms. Sumi back to work, because I was used to her. Unexpectedly, she accepted the job offer from me after three years she just rested at her house, enjoying all the salary and facilities I gave her.

I stared at the ceiling of the room with mixed feelings. The memories of the past swirled back in my mind, of how they were I began a relationship with Arnold and promised to stay together on the wedding day in front of everyone present. In fact, it was all just a falsehood that Arnold made until finally we separated.

I who have loved and wished Arnold more, now have to force myself to let go and let Arnold belong to someone else.

Whether I lie or not, my heart will still be broken. Glass tubs that have been destroyed, it is very impossible to reassemble them.

I'm trying to replace the old sheet with something new, even if I have to be limped. Carefully heals wounds, though they must coexist with tears.

I took a long breath. Although not completely forgotten, but I can already let go.

My eyes can't be closed. I flipped, enjoying the silence of the night alone.

"It's hard to sleep. What time is it?" my spoken.

And, sure enough, it turns out the clock has shown at two in the morning and I still do not feel drowsiness.

Arnold's arrival on campus raised a lot of questions in my heart.

What exactly is going on? What's wrong with her? Why did he come to college to see me? Did Arnold love me? However, news of her marriage and Viona has spread.

Argh!

"Come, Velicia. Arnold is in the past, and he also has a more important job to think about than you. Come on, come on, come on, think normally and healthily. Forget, forget, forget. You can." I said encouraging myself.

I try to catch my breath and calm myself down.

"Okay, now go to sleep and forget Arnold. He's a man who doesn't deserve to be grieved."

I kept comforting myself to keep thinking positively and calmly.

I then dropped my body on the bed, took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. He closed his eyes and tried to sleep.

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Morning's...

I busy myself with work in the office. Before the end of the office and all my assets I gave Arnold. Until the day finally started to feel hot, I never went out of my room.

Dara, my secretary came into my room carrying a food box. He gave it to me.

"Lunch first, don't force yourself. Better rest to recover your energy." Said Dara but I didn't bully her.

"Are you still thinking about Arnold?" Ask Dara again.

I glanced at Dara at a glance, then shook my head with a faint smile. In my heart, I said yes.

I'm afraid I'm still clutching the rest of the past and can't accept the future completely.

"Try to follow your heart, Velicia," said Dara again.

A liver?

"Miss Velicia, the heart is a creation of God, can be turned back and forth according to His will. As much as possible if you love something do not keep it in your heart, but keep it in prayer. If it's good for us he will settle down, if it's not good he will leave" said Ms Sumi who at that time found me crying while holding a divorce certificate.

And my heart .. is no longer okay after that farewell.

All this time I fought desperately to forget Arnold. I did not expect to be forced to let go with something that had made him comfortable, even though it was all just a falsehood. But I enjoyed it all because I loved Arnold so much.

And now I have to arrange a broken heart and try to put it together. Even if I knew it wouldn't be the same anymore.

In the end I realized, every meeting must be a farewell. Not because I don't want to defend, but this is the destiny that is greeting me.

Dara stepped up to my side and held my shoulder.

"There are two things that will happen when we are separated from someone, meet a new figure as a substitute or reunited with the same person but with a better person," Dara said again, this time he stroked my head slowly.

His attitude that tried to calm me made me comfortable. However, my tears suddenly shed. I hugged Dara's waist like she was the big sister I poured out my heart for.

My tears spilled uncontrollably, while Dara's hand stroked my head gently. I knew Dara's heart was hurting when she saw me hurt like this. But I have no choice but to cry at this moment.

"Cry if it makes you calmer. But don't drag on. Especially to make your eyes swollen like bitten wasps." Dara's trying to cheer me up.

"Eat first, yuk. I've brought you your favorite sushi." Dara tried to persuade me.

But I shook my head again.

"Drink first, huh? Not tired of crying?"

Again I shook my head, with tears flowing.

After a while, my crying finally stopped by itself.I then left Dara towards the restroom in my room.

I stood for a moment in front of the mirror in the restroom, making sure it didn't look like I was crying. But my eyes are swollen. Then I washed my face hoping it would be fresher.

Hey, Velicia! You are strong, you are great, you can definitely heal your wounds. The spirit!

Seriate....