90 Days Pursuing My Husband's Love

Meet & Applicable (Chapter 44)

Out of the hospital, I decided to go to the beach.

The beach is the land border with the sea. On the beach it all comes down to, including feelings. The beach has always been the best place to take off all my burdens.

I sat on the solid blue dock, looking at the blue sea, the waves that seemed to wave calling to just let go of the patter, throwing the yearning that raged.

The waves that came crashing at my feet. But it doesn't make me flinch. The bone-chilling coastal wind could not make me turn my eyes to the vast ocean.

Today the sky was cloudless, I kept looking at the blue sea until the horizon began to return to its clash. I saw the fishermen who were pulled over carrying quite a lot of fish catches. In my mind is implied the memory of the figure of Papa.

The fishermen looked so happy with their catch. Maybe because they are so happy. Today got quite a catch and certainly can please the wife and of course their children as well.

No matter how hard I try, if I remember the figure of Mama and Papa, I will be a very crybaby girl.

The thunder that always shakes the chest and the waves that are always furious hit the world as if mute my crying sound that sounds soft.

Thousands of words could not express the suffering I experienced, millions would not be able to describe the heart that I felt, hundreds of full moon would not be able to replace the days that have gone by, he said, where happiness came when I was with my parents.

I repeatedly said and convinced myself that I was sincere and I was strong in facing everything. But, again and again I feel hurt.

Ever since I met Arnold Setyawan and married him, my life has changed. Every day there are tears and sorrow. Now, even after being separated from him, the man seemed unwilling to let my life calm down.

If only Mom and Dad were still there. Maybe my way of life won't be this dark.

I took a long breath. Trying to regulate my breath that has been up and down since sobbing. I looked back at the vast sea. I believe the grace of God is far greater than this ocean that is before me.

As I closed my eyes, Andreas' shadow seemed to be smiling before me. I think I miss that guy.

Ah, nevermind. I have to be able to move on and get rid of all this.

I got up from my seat and walked back home. I took off the sandals I was wearing, and walked along the beach. I don't know what fate God gave me again. My steps came to a halt because before my eyes stood a man I had just imagined.

'Andreas!'

Somehow the story until the two of us can now sit side by side on the sand by the beach. I seem to have forgotten what happened just now.

What did I say, or what did he say? I forgot everything. Until we could finally sit together.

"How are you?" Ask Andreas.

"I'm good." My answer. "You alone?"

"I'm not good." Answer Andreas.

My lips were closed when I asked further.

"I went crazy these few days. I'm sorry." Andreas said again.

"You are innocent. I'm the one who's wrong." My reply.

"I'll give up on your happiness." It was her words that confused me. "I'm sorry, I accidentally saw that day when you were with Arnold." Andreas' speech stopped.

He seemed to take his breath deep.

"That day I picked you up with flowers and chocolates just like you like. I saw a car that I knew was Arnold's. I hesitated to enter because I didn't want any more commotion. But I can't help myself. I walked through the porch of your house and found Arnold in the middle.... Oh, you deserve to be together." Andreas said that made my heart so hurt.

"So you really saw that? You were there and you weren't trying to help me? Do you think I enjoy it? Do you think I'm happy to do it? Did I get that off the hook, until I wanted to do that relationship without thinking of a place?"

Andreas' eyes looked shocked.

"Do I sound like I'm feeling pleasure?" I asked with tears. "Can't you tell me which one enjoys and which one doesn't?" Saying again. "I'm disappointed in you. You've really misjudged me." I sobbed.

"Pardon me. I thought...."

"That's it. It's over, we don't deserve to be together anymore. I'm not a woman worthy of you." My speech.

"No, don't talk like that. I was wrong. I misunderstood. I thought you loved Arnold. After all you have been together for 3 years. While I just came into your life. So, I was thinking that you just thought of me as a runaway because...."

"That's enough. I don't want to hear anymore. You better go." My words are full of disappointment.

"No, don't be like this. Give me one chance. I'll fix my mistake. I admit I was wrong..." Andreas tried to hold me in his arms. However, I revolted.

I feel dirty, I don't deserve him.

"There is no future in our relationship. First I'm your ex-sister-in-law. You know very well what an ex is. I was once worn by your sister."

"But I care, because secondly you don't believe me."

"I believe in you, I just don't believe in myself. Please forgive me. If you really love me, give me a chance because I really love you." Andreas Said.

"No, let me go. I don't deserve you. I'm...."

The cup!!!

I couldn't continue my words because Andreas suddenly kissed me, it felt so warm. Andreas' lips trembled, he did not move. I felt his body tremble. He then let go of his kiss and made our foreheads collide.

"I've never done it. This is my first time." Andreas said to me, which surprised me.

It was only fitting that when he kissed me, he didn't move at all. Even his body was trembling. I lost my voice, didn't know what to say.

Andreas held both of my cheeks to look at him. Our eyes clashed, I could see Andreas's eyes looked teary.

"I never lied to you little girl. I've never kissed any girl before. Because I always hoped that you were the first woman I would kiss. Ever since I first met you who was 14, I've wanted to do it. But I held myself back, waiting for you to mature. And, as you know. I'm late, you belong to someone else. But, I could never love anyone else, until finally today I got my first kiss from the little girl I've always wanted." Andreas Said.

Andreas' words really made me speechless. I don't know what to say. From the look in his eyes, I can confirm that everything Andreas says is honesty.

"Little girl, marry me." Andreas said back to surprise me.

"W-what?" My words suddenly became stuttering.

"I don't care what your past is. All I know is, I just love you and my life will be perfect with you."

Andreas changed his sitting position to kneel on one leg. He then pulled out a necklace that he was wearing around his neck. I could clearly see, the pendant of the necklace was a diamond ring.

"You don't know how long I've waited. I've wanted to marry you since I first met you. I was 22, and you were 14. I can't possibly marry a minor girl. So, because now you're all grown up and single. Then I get that chance again."

Andreas looked down and took a deep breath.

"Velicia Arista, will you marry me and make me the happiest man in the world?"

My tears are shed, I don't know what to answer. I'm afraid this is too soon. But....

"Oh little girl, my feet can tingle." Said Andreas who broke my daydream.

I hold back a smile.

"Think about it, if you marry me your relationship with Arnold..."

"I don't care." Andreas interrupted my speech.

"1 most important thing, I will not be able to give you offspring..."

"We can adopt a child." Andreas's reply was quick.

"Hurry up, I can't wait to pin this ring on your ring finger."

"I haven't said yes."

"I'll force you." Said Andreas who made me laugh with tears coming along.

I then nodded which made Andreas cheer.

"I promise to protect you. I promise to trust you, I promise...."

"Pronounce it on the wedding vows later." My speech.

Andreas smiled, then pinned the ring on my finger. He kissed my forehead and hugged me tightly.

"I want to kiss, but I'm afraid you're laughing at me for not getting used to it. Can you teach me?" Andreas said as he hugged me.

I pinched her waist. She complained of pain, then quickly grabbed my cheeks and started kissing my lips. It felt strange, because this guy didn't seem to know how to kiss. I also took the initiative to return the kiss. Slowly he got used to it and started to let go of his kiss.

"Stop it right now. Or I won't be able to control myself." He then hugged me tightly.

"Come, I'll drive you home." He said because the day was already dark.

Seriate....