MY IMAM

Chapter 68

Thunder looked at his eldest son sharply, himself as if asking what he would ask the mother. And also he was very surprised by Aleta's reaction which was immediately dazed.

"Luthfi beg you not to be hidden anymore, whatever it is when it comes to Luthfi and Shauqi relations. If you don't care about Luthfi, then please do it for Ghifa." His speech was full of assertiveness, not that he did not appreciate the mother but this must be clarified immediately, right ?

Aleta was still silent with a vision that changed softly, Thunder who had known everything was just silent by embracing his wife in his arms. Maybe it's time for everything to be clear.

Seeing no response from the mother or the papa, Luthfi continued. "Luthfi initially thought it was all Luthfi feelings, when Ghifa said Sao was similar to a beautiful mommy.  Why Luthfi didn't realize it early when Mama accidentally said Shena's name. Same name as Luthfi's lover. And at that moment my mother immediately stared blankly, did not continue my words and just passed away leaving us with a question mark. Papa just said never ask mama anything and Luthfi kept quiet until today...."

Lutfi stopped talking, suddenly his heart ached. Grumbling right in his chest.

He is afraid that the truth will keep him away from the heart. What is the mother really hiding ? Maybe my mom would never approve of it.

Aleta began to sob, her chest sore to see her downcast son. Guilt was in his heart. Just now the son rose from the solitude of the mother of his son and now his past makes the son he continued to be haunted by fear.

"Luthfi knows why mama was surprised to find out that Syauqi was indeed the daughter of Shena's mother. Mom's past, right ?? Mama also tried to behave as if she was fine as long as there was Syauqi but actually not right ?? " Exactly sasaaran, Luthfi check matt on his own mama.

Even Thunder was stunned to hear his son's words. Aleta was flooded with tears, she was silenced by what Luthfi said.

"Fiii... Ma.m.mom..." Aleta. Himself weakens.

"What ? What do you want to give me an explanation ?? Mama wants to say if you don't approve Luthfi with Syauqi ?? Yeaha ??" It was not the intention to hurt the heart of the mother, but Luthfi could not have been able to remain silent. 

He bowed deeper and deeper, his anger was already in the crown. What is wrong is that the sincere Syauqi loves his son and accepts him for who he is. What does Syauqi have to do with his mother's past ?? What !!!!!

Thunder chose silence, it was a matter of his wife and his eldest son. Let them solve the problem.

"Sorry son, mama dragged you into my mama's past." Aleta took a breath and then exhaled it slowly.

Her chest tightened will say this.

"Mama has a bad past with Syauqi's father, all wrong mama. Mama used to make Syauqi's father live in adversity and trauma." Finally Aleta told me everything.

Luthfi immediately speechless hear it, is that as bad as his mama used to be ??

Thunder stroked the wife's shoulders. Giving strength.

"Mama Takanya does not approve of you son, mama also craves son-in-law like Syauqi. Which mother doesn't want her perfect daughter-in-law. But son, your mama's past will keep getting in the way of your relationship. Maybe mama will accept but what about Juan, Syauqi's father ??" Aleta continued speaking with a sobbing accompaniment.

He was actually unable to convey this to his son.

"Juan's father accepted both of us as they were, they were good people. Luthfi has their blessing." Luthfi denied that he was trying to doctrine his thoughts that Juan would be wise and not drag massalu to ruin the happiness of his beloved daughter.

"That was before he knew you were a son, continued my mother son." Again and again, every sentence that came out of his lips was punctuated by the roar of tears.

Lutfi's innocent of anything, he's a good boy. But because of him and his bad past, Luthfi felt pain and disappointment.

"I'm sorry, mama."

Luthfi massaged her forehead, it felt like her head wanted to explode right then and there.

"Lutfi shouldn't be in your mama's past stories, right ?? Didn't this happen before papa knew mama ?" Luthfi said softly.

He was afraid if later what his mother said was right ?? After Juan found out he was Aleta's son and then changed his mind.

"Sorry son."

"You won't hate mama, will you ?? Whatever your decision papa will always support it but please don't ignore us after this incident." Said Thunder after being silent for quite a long time. The middle-aged man was afraid that Luthfi would hate him and his wife.

Lutfi closed his eyes, he really did not know what he would do. He is angry at the moment, very.

What's wrong with having to be dragged into someone else's past ??

How will it relate to Syauqi, the girl who has awakened her life purpose back ?

What about Ghifa if Juan asked Syauqi to stay away from him ?m

"Luthfi and Ghifa are back." Pamphit Luthfi without answering papa's question.

After Luthfi's death, Aleta cried sobbing and sobbing. She felt very guilty for Luthfi, for her husband and for Almarhumah Luthfi's birth mother. She can't be a good mother to Luthfi, the past she brought destroyed the happiness of her son and even her grandchildren.

The thunder that saw his wife like that was only able to calm through the warm strokes and strokes of his hands. Nor did he know what to do, but he did not know Juan more than his wife had said.

Courage from where will he help his son later ?? In what way ??

"I failed to be a good mother to Luthfi Pa." Aleta said to her stuffing.

"He was wounded because of me, the happiness he had just regained must be destroyed forcibly by the past I brought." Aleta went back hysterically, even though her son had gone with his granddaughter without looking.

Too many disappointments he saw in the eyes of his son.

"Did mom approve of their relationship ??" Thunder asked suddenly, his gaze was also blank.

Aleta was confused, the stuffing stopped.

"Jawab ma'am.".

"Honestly at first you wanted to say no condolences, but seeing Luthfi and Ghifa being happy, you undo it. Mama thinks if Syauqi isn't Juan and Shena's son, they just happen to look alike." A heavy sigh rang out, Aleta felt tight in her chest due to fear.

"But the fact made mom shock pa, it turns out that it's true what you think. And it's too late, Luthfi is happy with Syauqi, mama can see that. And also Shauqi looks very sincere to accept Luthfi as well as Ghifa."

"Mama was only afraid if this fact was known to all and Juan did not approve. Do you know how Juan was with Mama ? Mama's blessing their relationship pa, but mama's scared."

Thunder rubbed his face roughly, why was his son's life always being tested like this. He lost his wife and now when his son has begun to rise there is also a test of his weight.

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Upon arrival at home Luthfi immediately put himself in bed. His body was no longer able to support all the burdens he could today.

Ghifa who saw the strange gurgle of the papa just kept silent. But over time also could not bear and finally he ventured to ask.

"But, is there a problem ??" He hesitates.

Luthfi opened her eyes, looking at the child with a sad look.

"Sorry baby, can you promise me one thing ??"

"Yes papi, I want. What should Ghi promise ??".

"Please promise to fight with papi to get mommy sao."

"I am ready papi. Whatever Ghi's gonna help to get mommy. Whatever it is." Ghifa promised with great anticipation. Seeing that doesn't feel like Luthfi's eyes are glassy.

He could not bear to see the disappointment in Ghifa if one day Syauqi failed to reach.

In his heart he also promised to always be ready to face anything for the love and life of Ghifa and Syauqi.

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Other than the house, the atmosphere is still fairly relaxed. Everybody gather there. Doubtfully, Syauqi looked up at his two parents.

His hands were sweating coldly, the tip of his shirt was already tangled as he squeezed tightly.

He is afraid of offending his father or his mother, but he also needs clarity so that his relationship with Luthfi is not hindered by something hidden and unknown.

"Dad, Mother." Call Syauqi. He tried his best not to be nervous.

"So why ?." Shena replied with a gentle smile. Even Juan also turned his eyes towards him.

"Don't want anything ??"

"May please." Juan invited Syauqi, for him all his children have the right to voice the contents of his mind and heart.

"Does Mom and Dad know Aunt Aleta ??"