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Chapter 60

Syauqi is still faithfully sheltered on the side of the road. His hands compartmentalize his mobile phone, notah scroll online shop account or create story alay on instagram.

While Luthfi still set foot without awareness, he seemed to forget the direction of the way home.

"Brother !! Hiks hyks." Syauqi cried while facing straight towards the phone he was holding.

"Well buset you nangis nangis there kak ?" Ask someone on the phone.

"Gue's sad, need help."

"Oath my brother, you look like a rape victim" you know." Said Kahfi who participated.

"Amit-amit, your mouth I'm torn to want ?" Tanya Bizar cynical.

Yes the three are doing a video call, Syauqi is dead-end so need the help of the two brothers.

"Lu tell me why is that ?" Kahfis are getting serious.

Syauqi as he pleased, his snot was still non-stop. "Gue met Pasha on deck, keep going..."

"Sialann, what's the bastard again. I want to break her neck now. Don't block my deck don't....". Bizar ignited emotions, he moved irregularly. It felt like he was eager to destroy Pasha this second as well.

"Who ngehalangin elo who bang ? I'm quiet about my brother." Said Kahfi astonished to see Bizar. He is emotional but not crazy.

"Oh."

"He apologized to me bang, he didn't repeat everything from the beginning. I'm touched, I'm devastated.." Syauqi told me everything but every sentence was always hanging making Kahfi and Bizar burned by the fire of soul emotions that blazed.

"Keep you want ? Do you equal him ?? Don't be crazy, brother. I don't agree." Now Kahfi who shouted voiced his non-acceptance.

"Gue will make the same calculation as him." Bizar has started to grow angry, his emotions are not able to hold him.

"The problem isn't that the hyx."  Syauqi is growing sobbing.

Kahfi breathed heavily. "Keep what makes you kayak gini brother ? Why are you crying on the side of the road ? Are you the same bastard ?"

"He hugged me earlier, we were just as crying. I can't miss it, I miss it too. But at that time, Mas... Mr. mas...".

"Lo hugged ?? Keep lo diapain again ha ? Lo ga's been harassed, right, sister ?" Bizar snarl. He was afraid that Pasha would be determined to do nothing for the sake of being able to return to having Syauqi. He didn't accept that.

"Stupid. Diem bang, brother said what was sister ? Who is brother ?" Kahfi hits Bizar's shoulder, catching one strange thing from her brother.

"Mas Luthfi deck, he saw brother hugged Pasha. I'm afraid he misunderstood and didn't want to see my sister. He went that deck." Clearly Syauqi with increasingly irregular breaths.

Bizar and Kahfi looked at each other and heaved a sigh of relief.

But a second later, the two stiffened up imagining the fate of the horn-tipped sister.

"O Allah what is deck ?" Bizar asked with glaring eyes.

"Help brother deck, give advice dong. What should my brother do ?."

"It's me, it's still a leak." Kahfi was suddenly confused.

"Well I know how to help what deck, you know I'm chasing a girl just ask her help am you." Bizar replied with a narrowed gaze, it could be that he who is just learning to establish a relationship is asked for advice.

"Dek please brother kudu how ?"

"Lo kan pinter dek, hunted gih kasian brother noh."

"Yes yes ah well. Gini yes sis, if mas Luthfi left emang no initiative lo pursue it ?" Ask Kahfi.

Syauqi. "There is, but not an abomination."

"Well, you're at his house ?" It was Bizar's turn to ask and be called Kahfi.

"He's straight don't turn home, this is me near the house he's two houses away." Syauqi replied while displaying his surroundings.

"Gue's tired." Connect again.

"He forgot the way home." Saut Bizar's.

"So how's that ? I think he's avoiding it on purpose." Syauqi squeezed, it felt like his energy had evaporated to where.

"Lu just wait there if you want, if he's looking forward to going home with samperin. Ready it lo clearin without anything you cover and lo engineering. Don't wait for him, you have to clear the initiative." Kahfi's advice is long. Hearing his sister chattering like an experienced romance teacher, Bizar smiled proudly.

Syauqi nodded in understanding. "But if he doesn't want to hear me how ?"

"Lo begok very sak, lo dong business what that is. Usually a bar, right ? Lu hugs the cake, you hold it in front of him cake, you hold his hand cake." Answer Kahfi.

"Lu iket hanged Kak if he did not want to. Don't bother, cook the crybaby." Said Bizar who also gave a solution.

"Inget, the relationship must be based on trust, mutual acceptance, understanding and open to each other. If there is a problem solve well, do not wait to be asked just explained. If the kayak is not completed, there is a fistfight the same as bacott." Kahfi said again to give advice. Both of her sisters simply nagged obediently without refuting.

"It's true for both of you. Yes, even a bastard who nasehatin." Kahfi continued to be upset.

Indeed, among the three, Kahfi is the most reliable figure. His wise brain and his just attitude made him a place to ask for help.

Although not moral and all advice is a little immoral but quite satisfying. Eventually Syauqi felt a sense of obtaining a second life.

After finishing the video call, Syauqi lamented his fate. Looking down the road to the white gate where the two princes lived.

The wind blew flying Syauqi's hair which was only bound haphazardly with rubber bands on the street.

His eyes narrowed, occasionally blinking.

Until the moment of his daydream greeting, not realizing there is a sturdy figure passing right in front of him. But the two of them are not aware of each other's existence.

"Huhhh" The breath felt rough.

"Hhhh wait just now like someone passed ?" He murmured while looking to the right.

And true, the figure he was waiting for was in a decent distance from him.

Without the cue of one two three, Syauqi immediately stood up and ran. Her tears were dripping back, her chest was rumbling. Advice from the brother fluttered in his head.

"Gue should be clear, I should be finished. It's up to me to say chase him or what, obviously that's the truth." He murmured in his heart.

His steps accelerated and...

Grebbbb !!!

The warm embrace it is grounded and the more it moans. The second step stopped right in front of the towering white gate.

Luthfi fell silent, she did not expect that there would be this incident. It turned out that his thinning consciousness and forgetting the location of his home brought blessings.

"I'm sorry, I want to clear everything up." Said Shauqi who was still drowning her face on Luthfi's back.

His shame and awkwardness he threw away. What is clear now is to hold Luthfi to listen.

"Not here." Lutfi said coldly.

Syauqi let out a heavy sigh, although he first met being treated coldly but for now he was unable to.

Slowly he followed Luthfi into the world. And after the gate was closed again, he embraced Luthfi again, but this time from the front.

"Why ?" Luthfi asked without looking at him. Makes it worse in the heart.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to play Luthfi." Syauqi began to explain it.

"I'm self-conscious Qi, I'm not pantes for you. I know my position." Luthfi replied, he is much more mature, he is no longer a teenager.

"Mas, I was wrong. I should have appreciated you not even like that."

Syauqi as he pleased, occasionally pulling his snot that was about to come out . "I realize I've fallen in love with you, even though I still have a taste for him. And we met by accident, he apologized and asked me to come back. At first I was devastated with all of his sincerity, but there was one place that I felt the deepest I could deny."

"Especially when I realized there was Mas Luthfi across the street and saw me hugged him, I was afraid of hurting the Luthfi mas. I was afraid there would be misunderstandings and Mas Luthfi left me. I can't afford to lose it a second time. I'm sorry, don't go."

Deg !

Lutfi froze, he had not had the courage to express his heart. And what now ? The girl that he expected and had time for he would willingly cry in his arms with a confession of his feelings ?

'Gue coward' Inner Luthfi.

"I won't be able to go back with him, the wound he made was too deep. And the wound is slowly recovering because of the presence of Ghifa and you." Syauqi put aside his ego, he no longer wants to waste the love that is there for him. He may have flaws, but this time he will fix them. Together with the figure he is holding now.

Luthfi closed her eyes. His heart warmed, he was relieved. But....

"Do I deserve a great girl like you mom ?" Ask Luthfi who's still closed.

Syauqi raised his head, a special call from Luthfi awakened him to the real world.

"What are you afraid of ?"

"I'm a widower, I have children. Even I'm just a lecturer who might be much inferior to your ex when talking about materials."

Syauqi.

"Do I deserve to be by your side ? Couldn't you have gotten a better fit ?"

"I also don't want to force your feelings, if you still love her, fight together. For Ghifa and my feelings, I can handle it." Her tears are dripping.

This is how the sacrifice of love, when he fought for Humaira, he never absorbed this.

Syauqi's hand stretched out, wiping away the tears that had fallen on the man's cheek. From the eyes that are still closed, the water slowly decays.

"I'm sorry." That was all that came out of Syauqi's lips. Even at this moment his hands were shaking violently.

"I should be the one apologizing, I've dragged you into our lives."

Both of them were as silent, Syauqi still hugged that sturdy body. Luthfi still closed her eyes. Unable to see the face leaning on his chest.

The afternoon wind was getting windier and it started to feel cold.

'The relationship must be based on trust, mutual acceptance, understanding and open to each other no one is covered.’

Kahfi's words recalled, Syauqi returned to real-world consciousness. His hand moved swiftly cupping the face of the man standing before him.

"Maybe I'm not perfect, and it's impressed that I'm chasing you too much. But..."

Syauqi took a breath and exhaled slowly. Then back to talking. "I'm frankly expecting you. I still have a taste in the past but not as much as I wish for you. You know ? I don't want anything to cover between us including my feelings right now. What you saw earlier was the thing that made me realize that my heart was already filled with you and Ghifa. I've decided to be with you and I've also told her that she's been replaced by you."

"What else should we be afraid of ? You deserve me enough. You're a great man, you're an amazing father. What more can I get from another man if everything you have is perfect for me ?"

Syauqi revealed everything firmly. Her sobs turned into confidence.

"But....." Luthfi still denies everything that Shauqi says.

"Nothing but, let's alike learn to trust each other and be open, understand each other and accept each other." Syauqi still cupped that handsome face. The two look together.

Only sincerity was reflected in their eyes. And they realize that.

"I'm sorry, I've only approached you in Ghifa's name. I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to be frank with you. Sorry." Luthfi finally admitted it. A sense of relief after confessing to each other made him again have real courage.

"We are just as hopeful in silence, and now we know each other. What else do we have to hide, right ?"

"Thank you, thank you." Luthfi embraced Syauqi, and Syauqi responded gently. Funneling affection and sincerity.

"Where ?" Ask Syauqi.

"Look." Luthfi replied with a smile that began to rise.

"What about you ?" Further.

"Such plong, second life pitcher. The best advice of king of the lumber." Syauqi replied as he chuckled lightly.

"King cebong ?."

"Si Kahfi, it was fitting to pursue mas Luthfi continue not to meet. Sempet confides in Bizar and Kahfi." Syauqi.

"What is their advice ?"

"The point is to fight, and obviously without needing to be asked. Must trust each other, accept each other and understand no one should be closed to each other. Well if the Luthfi mas did not want to be horrified me yaa saran bang bizar iket aja gerbang that. Kahfi really hugged me."

"Emang Bener, I should think that's not even run and hide. I feel like I lost my grown-up."

"The important thing is clear now. So forget Ghifa's anther for a haircut."

"Tomorrow, papa kalik ya, now want to relax at home."

The sky was slowly darkening, adzan magrib would soon reverberate.

Luthfi invited Syauqi into his house, because Ghifa was alone there.

The smiles of the two did not fade, hands joined. The eyes are increasingly narrowed because of the smile that is growing.