NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS HEAVEN S1/S2

Chapter 60. Contrition

After the dawn prayer, Rachel chose to sit in the courtyard of the house. Remember when she and mom were talking under a tree.

Rachel brought a glass of warm tea and sipped it slowly to warm her stomach.

Farhan, who had finished his bath, did not see his wife in the room, and went out to look for her. From the window he saw Rachel sitting pensively under the shady tree.

Walking into the kitchen, Farhan asked for coffee and brought food under the tree. Then the man walked up to his wife. Farhan took the jacket first.

From behind Farhan put the jacket on Rachel's body, leaving the woman in shock. Looking at her husband's face with a smile.

"Cold up early in the morning sitting here. I put this jacket on, huh?" farhan. Patently put it on Rachel's body. Then he sat down next to his wife.

Farhan saw a puddle in Rachel's eyes. The man gently removed it.

"Don't be too late in grief. Everything has become God's destiny. Here I feel the most loss and the most guilt, because until the end of my meeting with my father and mother still arguing. If I knew they'd leave me forever, I would have followed them all. Whatever makes me happy, I will. For the past two years, my relationship with my father and mother has been bad. I'm sorry" said Farhan in a soft voice.

Farhan brought Rachel's head to lean on her shoulder, and hugged the woman's waist. Since reading his mother's diary, Farhan began to realize that marriage is not a toy. He has promised before God and must take responsibility.

Farhan also begins to realize Rachel's meaning ever since the woman disappeared. Not a week since Rachel left, she has felt so lost. The man began to realize that the presence of his wife was very meaningful.

Rachel raised her face which was on the man's shoulder so that it collided with her husband's cheek. Farhan then kissed his wife's lips briefly.

"I'm sorry. I am a human being who has thousands of mistakes. My fault for you and for myself. Regret is useless. But that's all I can do right now.Unaware this mouth has spoken like a knife that cuts your heart, Unaware this body has hurt your body, Conscious to always apologize to you, not knowing how to, with this heartfelt love and weakness, also a promise to try better than ever and keep this speech and body from hurting you again" Farhan said slowly, but it can still be heard by Rachel's ears.

Rachel straightened her head, no longer leaning on the man's shoulder. Staring at her husband's face intensely. Seeking the truth of the man's words.

Rachel kept looking at her husband's face. Especially the man's eyes, looking for honesty there. It all seems sincere and honest. However, his heart was hard to forgive just like that. The man has been saying sorry too often so it is hard to believe.

"Mas, I'm not a grudge for all your attitude. I've forgiven you for your mistakes, but I still want you to give me time to trust you again. Too often the words you say sorry, make yourself a little doubtful," said Rachel.

Farhan took a deep breath in hearing his wife's words. It was too much pain and pain that the wound he had inflicted on Rachel's heart, that she was so hard to trust herself again.

"My mistake with you is too big to forgive" said Farhan Lirih.

"It's not all your fault, Mom. I'm guilty too. I'm too high to put this heart. I'm too high to expect you. I love you too much, I'm too confident to be loved by a man like you. So that getting reality is not what I imagined, this heart is very hurt. Again give me time to be able to re-occupy all according to the portion. Something excessive is not good. I want to learn how to be a woman" Rachel said with a smile.

"I only realized that if what Imam Shafi'I said was very true, that when you are over-expecting someone, then Allah will inflict on you the pain of empty hopes. Allah does not like when anyone wishes on other than His Thing, Allah blocks his ideals so that he returns to hope only to Allah SWT," said Rachel again.

Farhan could say nothing more. Perhaps the right attitude was to give Rachel time to treat her heartache.

Maybe, sorry from your wife will never erase the mistakes you have made. But, at least sorry for her being able to repair your relationship. Therefore, fight to get forgiveness from him.

Prove that you will not repeat mistakes.Trust me, a woman will be easy to forgive if you sincerely apologize. But, do not just apologize, improve your attitude and do not repeat the same mistakes.

That way, your wife will give you another chance and your relationship will improve.

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