NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS HEAVEN S1/S2

Chapters 15. I'm Self-Aware

Killing a woman is easy sir, just say if you love another woman, then the world is falling apart. No need for the body you hurt, because women are not that weak, you hurt enough with your words, then you will see her crying bitterly.

Farhan continued to look at his wife with a deadly look. Ever since she knew the man, Rachel had never seen her husband as angry as he was today. Does that woman mean a lot to him? Ask Rachel in my heart.

"Don't you ever say his name with your dirty mouth!" farhan.

Obviously Farhan's words were very piercing to the head of his heart. It felt that if he was slapped and hit it might not be as painful as he currently felt.

"What's my fault? Why are you angry? I was just asking who Andin is?" ask Rachel.

"I told you, don't you ever say his name. You don't deserve it!" farhan said with a slight cry.

"If you want to know who Andin is, listen carefully! I purposely hid all this so you wouldn't get hurt. However, it seems you want to yearalso. Andin is the woman I love first, now and possibly forever. He's a lot different than you. She's a good woman!" farhan said firmly.

Rachel took a deep breath, enduring the tightness in the chest that was now felt. She did not want to look fragile in front of her husband.

"If you compare me to another woman, from any side I will still lose. I realize Mas, I'm just a dirty woman you've raised her degree to" Rachel said.

Farhan rubbed his face rough. It seems like he just realized his words. The man then stood up and walked towards the bathroom. After Farhan disappeared, Rachel finally broke into tears.

"If you don't love me, why did you marry me. Oh my God .. what other trials are these. Just now that I felt the happiness of living with the person I love, I was slapped with the fact that the man never loved me. Why are you marrying me? You have given me happiness but you have also incised the wound again" Rachel muttered to herself.

Half an hour later, Farhan came out of the bathroom. The man had been wearing his pajamas back. He's getting into bed.

As Farhan's hand wanted to grab her hand, Rachel brushed it aside. The woman walked slowly into the bathroom. Farhan saw his wife's departure without a blink.

"I'm sorry, Rachel. For now, I still can't love another woman" he said.

Rachel turned on the shower in the bathroom and let the water wet her entire body. He was sitting on the cold bathroom floor.

"Mas, why did you marry me. On that day, I felt like I was the luckiest woman in the world. I'm the comfort woman married by a nice guy. And happiness increases when I feel all the attention from you. Am I being too high-minded? So that when I get reality is not as beautiful as I imagine, this heart feels sore. Why would you take me from the mud if you also threw me into the deepest abyss. The pain I can't say, Mom. Sick as my heart pierced a dagger ...."

Rachel's tears spilled down her cheeks. He ignored his cold body. His heart felt painful, like it was pierced with a hammer.

"It hurts, disappointment is what I get, but I'm the one who chooses to love you. Lord, if I had to be patient and endure, would there be a wonderful ending for me and her? I may still be able to wait for your love's presence, but if I'm tired, maybe it's time I'll try to let go and forget you for good" Rachel murmured in her heart.

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