NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS HEAVEN S1/S2

Chapters 16. I Must Be Strong

A woman can lose her mind because of the person she loves. Therefore he needed a slap a thousand times for him to be conscious and know himself. God let the slap be in the form of heartache from the person he loves so that his logic runs and no longer uses feelings.

From today I have to use logic. Thank you for the slap you gave me, Mom. Until I realized my position.

An hour has Rachel taking a shower under the shower. Just as his consciousness was about to disappear, the woman rubbed her face violently.

"Aware of Rachel, why are you being so weak. Wasn't Farhan not the first man to insult you. For two years working at the club, more profanity you've received from other striped men. Rise up! Don't cry. This isn't you" Rachel muttered to herself.

Farhan who was still sitting on the edge of the bed seemed to have started to fidget. She was afraid that Rachel would do something unwanted.

Farhan stood up from his seat, and walked over to the bathroom door. The man pushed the door hard enough.

When Farhan wanted to break into it, the door opened. The man wanted to hug Rachel, but he immediately retreated.

"Sorry, Mas. I've taken wudu, " said Rachel.

"Some scholars do not prohibit husband and wife from touching after ablution," said Farhan.

"Sorry Mas, I only rely on the opinion of Imam Shafi'i, husband and wife if touched will cause absolute abortment of ablution," said Rachel.

Rachel walked to the closet and picked up her pajamas and her face. Farhan approached his wife.

"Where are you going?" ask Farhan. He wanted to apologize for his slightly harsh words.

"Mas sure you know someone who wears mukena usually wants to do something?" Rachel asked back.

Farhan realized that Rachel must be currently still angry and disappointed at his words earlier. So choose to sleep and not follow it.

After the evening prayer, Rachel prayed while shedding tears. As hard and strong as she tried to toughen up, but she was still a fragile woman. Her heart still hurt at her husband's words.

"I don't know why God chose me as one of these hard-faced humans. I don't know from which side God saw my toughness and ability to get through all this. I used to cry every night out of self-pity. Every day I have to pretend I look okay. In front of everyone must endure complaining, brokenness, anger, all I hold alone," said Rachel sobbing as she held back tears.

"It was only then that I felt happiness, and wanted to forget all the sadness I felt, that God again tested me with the love of a man.How could God give such a heavy test to me who is weak? How can God believe that I am capable, while I doubt myself? I have really reached the point of surrender, nor do I ask the Lord much, if this is my way, strengthen me in what has become my destiny."

Finally Rachel's cry broke. His shoulders seemed to tremble withstanding the cries. The presence of her mother-in-law was not noticed by the woman.

Without Rachel and Farhan knowing, it turns out that mom and dad heard their quarrel. Mother who saw Rachel out of the room, followed her to this musala.

Nur's mother hugged Rachel and brought her into her arms. Realizing that, Rachel's cries broke again.

"Mother ...." That was all she could say in between her sobs.

"Mother apologizes on behalf of Farhan, son. Forgive her. I feel like I have failed to educate her" said Ibu Nur. The middle-aged woman was also crying.

"Mother is innocent" said Rachel.

"Mother please forgive Farhan, don't leave him. I trust Farhan with you, son. Be patient with all the tests in your household. Rainbows will not appear if the rain does not come down to wet the earth" said Ibu Nur.

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