NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS HEAVEN S1/S2

Chapter 38. I Want to Separate

Two hours after Rachel was moved to the hospital room, her husband Farhan faithfully accompanied her to sit by the bed while holding his wife's hand.

Farhan was very worried about his wife. Until noon, there's no sign Rachel's gonna wake up. It seemed like he was too comfortable with his sleep at the moment.

Hunger and thirst were no longer felt by Farhan. He repeatedly called or saw the doctor asking about his wife's condition, and the doctor's answer would always be the same, if Rachel would soon come to her senses.

When Farhan's eyes would be closed due to drowsiness, he felt Rachel's hand in her hand move. The man was shocked and happy. In the face of Rachel made sure his wife was aware.

"Rachel, have you come to your senses?" farhan asked in a happy voice.

Rachel who had just come to her senses, opened her eyes. When he looked at Farhan, the woman turned her face.

"Chel, how do you feel. Is anyone sick?" ask Farhan.

Rachel just shut up and turned her face away. Aware of Rachel being angry, Farhan only took a breath at his wife's attitude.

"What are Your plans, Lord. I gave up on your exam. My mind is completely drained, my soul is not fine. All this time I kept it as if no one knew about my situation. They were fooled by my sweet smile, with this cheerful face of mine. My head was about to break, I was really tired, I wanted to stop for a moment to breathe with relief. Less powerful what else I am God, You test me with various trials. About parents, friendship and romance, even until economic problems have been felt. May, I say, I am tired of God. I'm tired, God," said Rachel in her heart.

Rachel could not hold back her tears anymore. Farhan who heard his wife's sobs felt very guilty. Rachel's hand was reached, but the woman brushed it off.

"Rachel, this time I've gone too far. But I hope you will forgive my mistakes. Tell me what I have to do so you can forgive my mistakes" Farhan said.

"Is that saying right? If Mas would do anything to get my forgiveness?" rachel asked in a soft voice.

Farhan grabbed Rachel's hand and grabbed it. This time his wife refused.

"Yes, Chel. I promise I'll do what you want!" farhan said firmly.

Rachel took a deep breath. Recall the events of this morning when the person he considered a hero for having lifted him from the mud pit, snapped and insulted him. Like the man raised his degree high and when Rachel was happy and soared, the man dropped to the bottom of the deepest abyss. You can imagine how much pain he felt at that moment.

Rachel will still remember all the goodness of Farhan because she has good intentions to marry him and wants to restore her honor as a woman, but she is not an angel who only obeys and always serves God. He's just human, he's got a nap. Rachel can't just obey and follow all Farhan wants. He has a limit of patience.

"Mas, I'm so grateful that you lifted me up from the black valley and introduced me to the religion that I belong to now. I hope that God will continue to lead me in His way" Rachel said in a soft voice. He paused his speech because of his throat that felt blocked.

"I'm just a human being, who has pain and anger. "I AM ONLY THE WOMAN OF THE END TIMES ". I'm not a patient woman Siti Sarah. Who is not as smart and as careful as Aisyah's mother. Who is not as patient and gentle as Fatimah's mother. Or as beautiful as Zulaikha. I'm not the perfect woman. I'm Just a Simple Woman. I'm not the angel who came down from heaven for you to marry. I have many shortcomings. That's why I want you to let me go, Mom. Look for the perfect woman who is more worthy to accompany you" said Rachel slowly.

Although Rachel said all that slowly, but can be captured perfectly by Farhan's eardrum. The man was shocked as if he heard the sound of lightning in broad daylight.

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