One Night's Mistakes (Love's Wrong)

Tortured with This Guilt

"Wear this."

Jeany felt something touch her shoulder. Apparently Kevin draped his jacket over the girl's shoulder, leaving her stunned. The young man was very considerate of her, but she was just lying.

Kevin ... Am I being selfish if I wish you could go on like this?

"Why not dipake? Smell huh?" asked Kevin grimacing. He only realized the jacket had not been washed for a long time, just stooped in the middle seat of his car. I don't know why he always forgot to take her to the laundry. However, there was also a benefit he forgot, because he could lend the jacket to the girl in front of him.

Jeany automatically sharpens his sense of smell. But he found a familiar smell. He did not really remember the incident that night, whether what medicine Rika gave him. He only remembers when Kevin kissed him, and remembers the pleasant fresh fragrance that made him put his body on the young man. Jeany's face immediately warmed up.

"Then are your faces red? You're not feeling well? Do you want to go home now?" ask Kevin to worry. The girl in front of him from earlier did not answer his question, instead now her face was red. He feels careless to bring Jeany to eat by the sea and make him exposed to the night wind. What if the girl gets sick?

"So, gapapa. Oya, that was the time you went to Stevi's toilet on the phone" Jeany said, wearing Kevin's jacket.

"Stevi called?"

Kevin's face immediately changed. He immediately opened his phone, but hesitated for a moment when he saw Jeany's face.

"You really are gapapa? If you want to go home, let's go home now."

"Gapapa. Really."

"It's like I called Stevi first, yes" Kevin said with a happy smile. Jeany noticed the young man she liked talking on the phone with her lover.

"Hello, Stev? Sorry when you called me back in the toilet."

"Not sleeping this. Still eating at Pluit."

"Jeany's name."

"Yes both."

"Son, I'm the one who's upset. I also bought Enzo's gift."

"Oh iya oke met tidur ya mimpi indah."

Kevin ended his call with a confused face. He looked towards Jeany. "Kok Stevi's a little different, huh?"

"How different?"

"He usually talks a lot. But his voice was like that. Is she sick?" kevin said while scratching his head.

Why are all the girls sick today?

"It hurts time, Vin."

"Huh? How can?"

"Yes, you said you went out to eat together with me. He must not be happy," Jeany said, suddenly feeling sympathy for Stevi. She is also a woman.

Kevin laughs. "Prince. Stevi is not jealous of his people. I always say that we are in office. So he must have understood."

"Oh .... Stevi's your first girlfriend, right?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"What makes you like him?"

Jeany asked with a thumping feeling. He knew his heart would hurt whenever he heard Kevin talking about his lover, but he could not help his curiosity.

"Hm .... What yes? Maybe because she's pretty?" kevin answered while thinking hard.

"Huhuh?"

Admittedly, Jeany was a little disappointed to hear Kevin's reply. He thought he would hear super romantic answers from men who finally found a mooring after previously refusing to date. But what he got was a typical male stray nose answer that only cares about the outer appearance of a woman.

"You good other girls are also a lot of good ones. I mean, why Stevi?" Jeany was still not satisfied with Kevin's answer.

"Eitherway. Love comes suddenly. I'm also confused when asked why he could love her."

Love him .... Those words sounded so hurtful to Jeany.

"Then ... Why didn't you go out?"

"There's a fear of dating."

"Oh. The secret you want to tell, can you tell me now?"

Kevin nodded. "But don't tell anyone. I just told you this story."

"Stevi doesn't know either?"

Kevin answered by shaking his head.

"Oh. I won't tell anyone" promised Jeany. His feelings flowered because the young man he loved entrusted secrets to him.

"My father had one caliph in his life" Kevin said.

"Eh?"

"One day he went out drinking with his business colleagues. Till drunk. Her business colleagues offer the services of comfort women. Because of drunkenness, my papa is breeding."

Jeany's face turned pale. A bit of papa Kevin's story bears a resemblance to his and Kevin's. The difference is, she is not a comfort woman.

"Because of feeling guilty, my father confessed everything to my mother. I was in sixth grade at the time if I was not wrong. My mom is under a lot of stress. She was disgusted by my papa and didn't want to sleep in the room for long enough. There is also a fear of getting sick. Every day I look at my mom and cry. Honestly, it makes me afraid of relationships with women. I thought s*ks were disgusting."

Jeany was surprised to hear Kevin's story. The young man clearly explained his past.

"But I made the same mistake with my father. I can't stay with you at the same time. I really feel guilty .... You have no idea how tortured I am with this guilt!"

Finally Kevin let out his heart to Jeany. The guilt that always haunted him was truly excruciating. He couldn't hold it much longer.

"What do I do, Jean? Every time I see you I remember that night .... I know I'm an asshole for irresponsibility ...."

Jeany looked left and right for fear of anyone hearing their conversation. Thankfully, no one else was near them. Most of the cafe visitors have gone home because the day has been so late. The girl did not until the heart saw Kevin who was so devastated.

"Nothing to regret. It's all happening. I'm even grateful it's you, not that perverted om-om."

Kevin rubbed his face full of regret. "I've ruined you."

"Vin, now I'm asking you. If Stevi wasn't a virgin, would you mind and kill her?"

Jeany asked while looking directly into Kevin's eyes. I don't know since when the conversation between the two of them became so open without any more embarrassment. He saw Kevin thinking for a moment before replying, "Engga. I still accept him for who he is."

Jeany gave a sincere smile. "So you don't have to feel guilty anymore. I'm sure there will be men out there who will accept my situation." He wants to get rid of Kevin's feelings of guilt, even though knowing calling another man might make him more distant from the young man he loves.

"No one is there?" ask Kevin to doubt.

"No, I'll find you to be responsible."

Jeany's answer made Kevin laugh. Either he should feel relieved or not hear it.

"Thank you very much, Jean. I'll still do what's best for you." Kevin made his promise solemnly.

"Yes." Yeah."

They were the last visitors to leave the cafe. In the car, Jeany recalls Kevin's unfinished story.

"Trus, Vin, how did you finally get better at papa amama?"