Not Same Again

Filthy mind

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Susana was suddenly silent.

Natasya was fixated with a straight look fixed on one person. Nana.

He stared in disbelief at who was in front of him at this moment.

'' mama's voice broke the silence.

Natasya's gaze turned to the boy who was docked to Nana .

'' my grandson ? '' Natasha looked at him.

Dion, who was feeling uncomfortable, was seen shifting his body and hiding behind Nana.

'' Dion ... '' Nana slightly pulled the hand of Dion who was holding the edge of her shirt.

Dion. He turned his face and shook .

Natasya's face instantly changed pias. Be aware if you just got a rejection.

" come in, '' said Natasya look awkward .

- -

Because Dion was afraid, Nana was forced to leave him with Susan and Mr. Tole outside.

Dion refused . She did not want to be left by her mother.

But when Nana says she's going in with the woman who scared her, Dion complies and lets Nana in.

'' mama promised it wouldn't take long Nana said before

finally step following Natasha .

Only after passing through the living room, the in-laws and the daughter-in-law arrived at Natasya's work room.

The room was divided into two . The main part is Natasya's workplace where there is only a desk. The above is folded laptop and stack of paper, and two chairs facing each other . There was also a fan standing in the corner of the room.

While the other room is the place where Natasya lay down her body to rest.

'' sit down Natasha.

Both of them sat at the same time.

Quiet a few seconds .

The atmosphere in the room is covered by awkwardness. It doesn't feel comfortable. Perhaps because of the memories of the past that are shadowing their minds.

Don't talk. Both of them even seemed to avoid the stares.

'' ap - '' both in unison and also stopped instantly.

Nana and Natasya both ventured to look at each other.

Nervous. Over and over again they look like they have trouble swallowing and breathing.

'' ma-mami speak first Nana said with trembling lips.

Natasha widened her eyes. Can't believe what he just heard. What does Nana call him ? Mami ?

'' ma-sorry that I sassy to call you - I haven't had the time to finish the sentence yet, Natasya quickly refuted it.

'' no. It's okay . I don't mind you calling me that "

Nana nodded. He was relieved Natasya did not mind him calling the name used by Cecilia and Bian.

The atmosphere was back silent.

'' emm... How are you doing ? ''

Natasya carved a smile. The smile that used to be always cynical now looks soft and friendly.

'' as you can see .

I'm kind. I even feel much better ''

Nana nodded.

'' sorry, if my good news makes you disappointed, Natasya's voice sounds soft.

'' no. Not at all. I'm just grateful if you live well ''

'' ... ''

Nana view . The tail of his eyes met with both Natasya eyeballs who were also looking at him.

'' you yourself how are you and... ''

'' Dion. His name is Dion ''

'' Dion ? Oh, so his name is Dion.

She looked like Bian as a child Natasya smiled faintly. For a moment his mind was comparing the appearance of his son and grandson.

So worrisome.

'' ... ''

'' Nana-ak-I min- ''

This time it was Nana who cut in before Natasha finished what she wanted to say.

'' let's forget everything Nana stared with confidence.

Natasha looked at him then looked down .

He seemed to wipe his tears.

'' but still... ''' Natasha held her head up .

I hope he continues his words again.

'' I should have apologized .

My attitude was too outrageous to you.

I almost got you and Bian apart. Even you had to leave Bian pregnant ''

Nana grabbed the hand lying on the table and wrapped it with both palms.

'' enough.

Don't talk about it anymore.

I don't want to hear and remember those days anymore.

And I think you're the same ''

Natasya's tears flowed nonstop.

What Nana said was true. None of them want to remember what happened five years ago .

'' we are all aware of our own mistakes.

So, it would be better if we forgive ourselves and make peace with the situation .

I think that's what we should do .

Sorry if I was impressed to arrange .

But I hope we can start all over again.

Without bringing up any more bitter memories that once occurred between us ''

Natasha is crying. He thought, if Nana came home later, Nana would certainly not want to meet him. He is always haunted by fears what if Nana asks Bian farewell.

But he was wrong, all was nothing more than his worries. Nana's back with Bian and wants to see him. And Natasha was so grateful for that.

'' I-I promise, Nana. I'll make up for all the mistakes I've done before.

And from now onward, I will definitely be kind to you, one hand of Natasha fell on the back of Nana's hand and formed a mound.

After a while, Nana and Natasya ended their haru-filled conversation.

On the porch, Dion is seen sitting on Susan's lap . They were waiting for Nana .

But seeing the woman come with the mother, made Dion reluctant to come down from Susan's lap.

'' Dion. Here baby call Nana.

Dion shook his head.

Natasya looked at Nana while smiling stiffly.

'' it's fine. If indeed he does not want to be forced, said Natasya felt uncomfortable if he had to force the grandson to approach him.

'' don't you want to see it up close ? ''

'' ... '' Natasya was seen sighing then started to take steps slowly .

Dion yang melihatnya mendekat, seketika membenamkan wajahnya dan meringsuk dalam dekapan Susan.

Natasha sat down beside Susan. Dion who realized that then peeked . He saw Nana was also there and stood right beside the woman with a puffed up body .

'' Dion Natasha said the name of the grandchild so gently.

Susan was heard persuading Dion to turn around .

After being persuaded here and there, Dion finally wanted to withdraw and turn around. He pulled his face up, looking at Nana with an elusive look in his eyes.

Nana then approached and bent both knees .

'' Dion do not be afraid. This is Oma, papa's mother. Same rich granny said Nana trying to convince.

'' Oma ? ''

Natasha smiled happily. He then grabbed Dion's body and hugged her.

Visible tears that flow slowly and wet the surface of the face that has been decorated with wrinkles.

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'' after entering the gate, mister continued to enter the ampe inside. Next to the right corner there are three white tombs. Oma's grave is one of them.

Well, later mister pastin aja from the writing on the tombstone''

Nana nodded in understanding.

He then turned the body back where Dion lay with both eyes tightly closed.

After meeting Natasya, they stopped for lunch.

After that, Nana asked to be escorted to the funeral.

'' you guys just wait here. I take care of Dion for a while, yes said Nana who after that got out of the car .

" drizzle "Nana clenched her palm as she felt the water droplets touch her senses.

Nurtured his face, staring at the once clear sky was now suddenly shrouded in a cloud of ash.

Why is it that every time he sets foot into a cemetery, the weather is always like this ?

Nana then continued the steps according to what Mr. Tole explained earlier.

Both of his legs stopped parallel right in front of a whitewashed tomb .

In addition to the name, date of birth and death, there is also a round-shaped photo in the middle.

It's not wrong anymore. Nana stands before Elisabeth's grave.

'' sorry to be late to visit you, Oma Nana stared at the nano while putting the bouquet of flowers that she had bought on the trip earlier.

Suddenly his heart felt stinging. Imagine Bian standing on his feet at this moment.

I don't know what her helpless feeling of seeing the so beloved Oma is embedded in there.

'' sorry, Oma . Sorry just visiting you now.sorry Nana's cry broke out along with repeatedly saying an apology.

He recalled that the woman who has now been titled the deceased had expressed her desire to see Bian have children several times.

Elisabeth wanted to see her great-granddaughter.

And Nana regretted making that wish untoward.

He even deliberately left after saying that he was pregnant .

Nana was down with a shaky shoulder.

He hugged himself, with both palms rubbing his arms.

'' Oma also apologized to you the voice that made her hold her head up and turn her head for a moment.

'' dear ? '' Nana found her husband standing behind her .

He looked in wonder, for he did not realize when Bian had come.

Apparently, after lunch. Bian sent a message to Mr. Tole. Asking his wife's questions. Mr. Tole also retorted if there was nothing to worry about. Plus he also told them that they didn't go home because Nana asked to be delivered to the funeral .

Bian who suspected that what was meant was to visit the tomb of Elisabeth also canceled all her work and rushed after Nana.

He did not want Nana to enjoy her own grief .

And as expected.

He who until a moment ago, found such a heartbreaking sight.

Nana stands in front of Elisabeth's grave. His head bowed, his body trembling with both hands clutching itself.

Nana must have been overwhelmed with so much sadness and guilt.

Despite the bad treatment Elisabeth had done to him, Nana realized that she had done something wrong.

With his selfishness and the hardness of his head, he could leave Bian and separate him from their son.

Bian clutched Nana's body that began to get wet because it was touched by thousands of rain water that fell increasingly heavy.

'' I apologized to your mother.

But I didn't get a chance to do it to Oma said Nana sounding so bitter.

Bian rubbed Nana's back gently and tightened his embrace to channel the calmness.

'' Ithlasin everything, baby. All uda passed. There's nothing to be sorry about anymore ''

Nana is more reluctant when Bian says that before she dies Elisabeth asks Bian to apologize to Nana.

The noisy afternoon. The rain that fell more and more rapidly accompanied the sobs of Nana's tears that became more and more so.

Because the rain was falling more and more, Bian then took Nana home.

Drenched Nana is forced to separate herself by getting into the car that Bian drives himself.

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The sound of the car horn was heard several times, a sign that the employer had gone home.

While holding an umbrella, Bi Gani hunts down a step to open the fence .

Two cars enter in sequence in the yard.

After closing the fence, bi Gani again rushed to the front car.

'' just there, Bi . There's Dion. I don't need to. Uda was already wet refused Nana when Bi Gani intended to paddle her .

Bi Gani was only able to comply and immediately switched to the car behind.

Nana and Bian enter first and stop for a moment as they cross paths with Siti who is welcoming at the mouth of the door.

'' mom, leave Dion for a second.

Later tell Susan to go upstairs get a change of clothes . All told me Susan would take a shower on Dion .

I'm the same Bian wet, want to take a quick shower ''

Siti nodded while assuring.

Seen husband and wife who walked higher and higher until it disappeared when the room door was closed.

Before long, the center of attention landed her feet on the porch after Susan dropped her off the sling.

'' which mama ? '' Dion dyed. Since then until along the way home he fell asleep and did not know if Nana moved to Bian's car .

Dion turned his neck, seeing the car that the papa was driving . But he knew it didn't seem like anyone was in it or it might have come out.

'' papa cuda puang ? ''

Siti nodded as she gently stroked Dion's head and explained that her parents were raining and were now taking a bath.

'' so, Dion kat' grandma used to ye said Siti who after that told Susan to go upstairs to take Dion's change of clothes according to Nana's message.

Susan did as her boss ordered.

It goes upstairs.

Meanwhile in the upper room.

" you take a shower first, aja. I'm waiting for Susan to come in for a change of clothes for Dion "

" you take a shower first. Ready for the shirt later if Susan comes let me make it "

" dear, you'll take a shower for a while. If I take a bath for long. Uda don't have to debate. Sana shower "pushed Bian's body with all her might. But in vain even though he has put all his energy.

Because not a single bit of Bian shifted .

'' if we take a shower together, what ? '' smiling grinned.

" i'm still a hitch, baby.

Lagian Mami said she wanted to come to dinner with us.

Someone has to go down first.

Continues later Dion also certainly nyariin if one of us does not go down and down ''

With a disappointed face, Bian also complied to take a shower first.

' tok. tok '

'' excuse me, madam mister ''

' the clutch ' Nana appeared and let her in.

Nana was wearing a white suit camera. And faintly heard the sound of water from inside the bathroom.

'' this is her change of clothes.

Please take care of Dion in the shower, yes, said Nana while handing over a change of clothes for her son.

'' yes, nyah ''

' clamps' bathroom door open. Bian came out of it just wrapped in a towel wrapped around his waist.

The uncomfortable Susan looked down and came out of her master's room.

" why mister ama mister mister not shower together, anyway ? That's that exclamation. After the rain, soak the warm water together. Moreover, no one bothered "

Susan held back a laugh because of the dirty thoughts that were approaching her.