Not Same Again

This is the beginning not the end

🌺 hem... 🌺

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Nana stared at the reflection of the whole self in the standing mirror placed on the side of the closet .

He is strengthening the heart .

Convince yourself if what is done is right. Because he had no other choice.

Nana came out of the dressing room and walked to the bed where the suitcase lay open.

Last night, he checked the luggage that only contained the things he needed the most.

The rest is neatly placed in the closet. Because it is impossible also he can bring everything considering his condition is two-bodied.

It should not be excessive in carrying especially to lift something heavy.

After making sure everything was there, the black suitcase was closed.

Nana then switched on her backpack.

'' ticket, certificate from doctor, passport, hem.. Ok Nana looks relieved . Because it's all in it.

Nana gets up when she gets a call from a taxi she ordered to take her to the airport.

It is still two hours before the scheduled departure. But in order to avoid traffic jams, he had to leave early . If not, he could have missed the flight.

In a short conversation, the driver was already in the housing complex and asked the location and characteristics of his house.

Nana rushed out of the room while pushing her suitcase. Then slowly go down the stairs and lift the luggage storage area carefully.

"luckily not so heavy "

' tep ' sound of feet stepping on the floor of the house after going down the last stairs.

" haaa~~ahhh "Nana relieved after the suitcase landed without experiencing obstacles while descending the stairs earlier.

His feet are ready to step. Likewise with his hand that has been in the handle of the suitcase to pull it.

But he didn't do it.

Nana's eyes widened looking at Natasya who was sitting on the living room sofa looking at her.

It seems like it was already awaited.

Natasha noticed him so closely. Nana was sure, the in-laws could definitely shoot if looking from her looks like someone preparing to leave. More precisely, it will go.

" where are you going early in the morning uda neat ?

Exit ? Was not satisfied all day yesterday mengeluur ?! " natasha's tone rose as she stood up.

Nana held firmly onto the handle of her suitcase, and pulled it back.

Natasha squinted her eyes, watching him once more from top to bottom.

" where are you going to get all the suitcases ? " Natasya walked over but stopped because Nana's phone suddenly rang.

'' yes, sir .It's arrived, huh ?

emm... I'm sorry, sir but can you wait a minute ? "

" ... "

" em, yes.iya.mkasih, yes sir "Nana to the taxi driver who turned out to have arrived and is now in front of the house .

Nana took a deep breath and looked at Natasha . He could read the meaning of the strokes on that face.

Natasha must be curious and waiting for her mouth to open to explain.

'' I-I want to go aunt Nana stuttered not out of fear. But because of the weeping turmoil he endured .

Natasya's forehead slowly shriveled. He looked at Nana almost unblinking.

'' what other drama are you playing, huh ? "

" aunty.. "

" o..so the story goes ?

Let what ? Let's find Bian later ?

Then after that you can meet the requirements back from Bian want to obey your will to separate the house and stay away from us. Yeah, is that it ? ''

Nana shakes.

He took off his suitcase to stand on his own, then walked towards Natasya who was near the table.

' no'tak'tak' Nana put three objects with a rough beat.

ATM cards, credit cards, and circular objects that have been circled in the sweet. The ring that Bian put on the day they got married.

For a moment he was silent with a gaze toward the object that had been a symbol of marriage that had only lasted three months.

Nana tried not to cry. But I can't.

Her tears escaped. Slowly he began to sob.

It turned out to be heard and invited the others popped up .

Elisabeth was pushed out of the room and stopped not far from Nana and Natasya who stood facing each other.

Bi Gani was in the corner of the room. He who was cleaning the house, stopped for a moment when he heard the voice of the master.

Their eyes were all fixed and paying attention to what was going on .

Nana was seen sighing long while wiping away the tears that would not stop flowing. Makes his face red and the surface of his skin feel moist.

'' isn't this what you want ?

You guys keep on trying to fill me in. Staring at me cynically. As if disgusted by me.

You must hate me so much, right ? ''

'' ... ''

'' I can't take it anymore. Hix.. ''

'' ... ''

BI Gani who saw it was seen squeezing a lap that he had used to wipe the furniture. His heart seemed to be able to feel how Nana had been holding back the pain all this time.

'' you don't have to worry. Because I'm not messing around. I'm goin. Really go.

And I assure you, you will never see me again ''

Nana looks up. Holding back her tears that were unstoppable.

He tried to shake off his heartache when he remembered all their treatment .

Is that one thing where they're about what he almost did ?

Until they could willingly treat him like someone who had lost his pride ?

'' you-you said what ? Wanna go ? What about Bian ? ''

'' aren't there you guys ? ''

The facial sharpness that had been emitting arrogance that was ready to oppress, now turned pias.

Worry began to envelop.

Afraid that the son-in-law would actually do as he said.

Nana's leaving Bian ? Does that mean his son will be dumped by his wife ?

Natasya's lips twitched.

Fear now binds his heart and brain.

He looked at Nana again and tried to judge from the look on the face of the daughter-in-law.

He's siding.

Nana seemed to mean it.

'' did you forget you were his wife ?

Have you also forgotten his sacrifice ?!

On all the things he's given and all this time he's done for you ?!

How dare you leave him .

You think your marriage is a joke, HUH ?! " natasha's voice shrieked until it filled the entire room.

'' of course not, aunt.

But it was my aunt who forced me to make this decision.

Since the beginning of our meeting, Aunt never really saw me.

Asking me to change calls like a daughter-in-law to her in-laws, no.

Is it that hard for aunt to accept me ? But why ?

Even to the end, I never looked good in your eyes ? ''

'' until the end ? What do you mean ?

Do you want to end your marriage ?

So that's why you want to go ?

Do you think it's enough for that reason to end a marriage, HUH ?! "

Natasya's voice shrieked again with both eyes glaring at Nana.

Bi Gani who saw him again could only squeeze his washcloth, stronger than before.

The same thing Susan felt. He even jerked and creeped .

'' do you know what your aunt knows about marriage ? Marry aunty, right ? ''

'' y-you dare... ''

'' aunty is not married. But auntie must know what it's like to live with the people we love.

But what aunt did was different from marriage.

Marriage is two people united in a sacred bond.

In it there is not only love, but also a commitment to respect and prioritize each other.

And in our marriage, it wasn't all there was.

There was never a word of love.

This marriage happened because we needed each other.

We thought it wasn't a problem.

Because we have known and know very well how each person.

And we are committed to living this marriage in earnest.

But apparently, living it is not as easy as we imagine.

Besides never having a word of love between us, I will never be his priority either.

That I realized after meeting and dealing with you guys .

Until any time , if I and Bian still live and co-exist with you guys, then I will always be the party who is sidelined ''

'' ... ''

'' why ? Do you not believe ?

But that's exactly what happened.

Bian has always stood up for me and tried to protect me in front of you.

But in reality, I am the one who is always asked to give in and understand you .

He wanted me to survive without considering whether I could or not.

I don't even know what kind of role I've been in all this time.

And I gave up. I uda can't take it anymore.

I'll let Bian go and it's up to you.

You may be able to find someone who matches your expectations. Which not only can make her happy, but it can also make you satisfied "

" Nana "Elisabeth advanced by pushing her own two wheels.

" Nana, don't be like this . You must not leave her Elisabeth who has arrived, immediately grabbed the palm of her ex-grandson.

But Nana didn't want to look at him and turned her face away.

Just like Natasha. Elisabeth was filled with fear .

For he is the only one who knows, how deep and how serious Bian feels about his wife.

Elisabeth looked up.

He nodded faintly.

Acknowledging if his actions have indeed been very late. Think of Nana as a stranger who does not deserve to be seen and appreciated her role in this house . He regretted.

'' Bian loves you, Nana.. '' Elisabeth spoke with trembling lips.

Nana turned her head, looking at him with eyes of disbelief.

" didn't Bian say it ? ''

'' ... ''

'' how is it possible, after all his treatment of you, you still don't realize it as well ? "

Nana nodded firmly.

Because Bian never said it.

He did hope and thought maybe Bian had a taste for him when the man showed his care and jealousy several times.

But he was always hesitant and afraid to believe it. He was afraid of disappointment.

" maybe he hasn't had time to say it because he thinks you still like Adit "

Nana turned her face again, pulling her hand from Elisabeth's grasp.

'' there is not the slightest bit of love in your heart for her, Nana Elisabeth with a heartfelt look.

Nana bergeming's. It turns out that they have misunderstood each other because no one wants to express their feelings first.

Knowing that Bian also loved her, of course, he felt very happy. Because it turns out his love does not clap one hand .

But it was not enough to change his final decision.

Nana is still going.

'' it was precisely because I loved her so much that I endured all this time.

I love him too, Oma.

Love him dearly.

But now there's something more important than him.

There are responsibilities I have to take care of.

And as long as you're among us, I'm not sure .

Whether I can keep it or not.

I don't want to lose him.

So instead, I chose to leave Bian ''

Elisabeth and Natasha looked at each other for a moment, then both looked back at Nana.

'' does Bian know ? '' Elisabeth stared with teary eyes. He never thought about how Nana could do this. His heart ached to think about what Bian would feel like if he found out.

'' do you think if he knew, would you be surprised like this ? ''

Natasha stammer. Legs squealed. It felt unable to support his body weight any longer.

'' aren't you the one who advised her not to have children ? ''

Natasha glanced at me and then bowed. Guilt and regret not only filled him.

But it's also no longer fit.

'' Bian followed what you wanted.

He said to postpone it first.

He did it for you.

He even noticed me.

So, is there any reason for me to tell him about this ? ''

Nana took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

He then took a step towards the suitcase and prepared to pull it.

But before that.

'' wait, Nana... '' Natasha walked over.

'' you can't leave.

How could you possibly get this long ??

Until the heart separates the son and his father..Not even telling him ''

Natasya blocks Nana's arm strong.

He and Nana are fighting each other.

'' then. Give me a reason why I should tell her, if I'm pregnant with her child ?

After he finds out, the situation will change ? ''

'' ... ''

'' no. Nothing will change.

Let me keep asking me to hold on.

Then do I have to obey him ?

Do I have to stay here while there are still you among us ?

If I were to separate and stay away from you, would you agree to it ?

Can I have Bian completely ?

No. gabe. It's not you guys I should be asking. But Bian.

Can he separate himself from you ? ''

Nana shakes.

'' no. He will not be able to obey me because it is not the most important thing in his life ! But you guys ! ''

'' ... ''

'' after all the words you said.

The way you judge and look at me.

And for all the treatment I've received from you.. Do you think I will survive even if I love her ?

No. gabe. I'm not the kind of person who puts feelings before logic.

If I forced myself to stay here, I might lose the fetus I was carrying .

So, for the last time. For our common good. I really should go.

It's been quite sick you gave me. I don't want to feel it anymore. Because it's really very painful ''

Nana releases Natasha's grip until she is released. Feel numbness and pain .

'' you know. I've often thought about retaliating for everything you've done to me.

But I don't know how.

So, I hope that with what I'm doing, you'll understand and feel as much pain as I've felt all along.

If what Oma said is true, if she really loves me . Then see how Bian reacts to you later when he finds out I'm gone .

And if you have the guts, tell her if I go pregnant.

I hope you guys will explain to him too .

If what makes me unable to survive anymore is because of all your treatment.

And also because he always puts you ahead rather than me ''

...

'' Susan. '' call Elisabeth to her personal nurse who immediately rushed to her.

'' yes, Oma ''

'' My HP.take my HP in the room now.

Quick.. ''

'' Bian is in important work, Oma.

If Oma calls him and tells him it's free.

Because when he gets to 'em, I'm definitely not here anymore ''

Susan saw her old master who no longer intended to continue his orders.

'' last night he called. He said he'd be home as soon as his job was done.

Don't make him rush home.

Because anything can happen on the way .

Oma doesn't want anything to happen to her, does she ?

Let him calm down on the way. Only after arriving home can you tell what happened ''

Nana's done. He has shed everything he has ever tasted.

While pulling the suitcase, he stepped away from the house.

Moments after his departure, the atmosphere of the house was still quiet.

Natasha and Elisabeth were speechless.

Not even a little bit.

Likewise with susan Dan Bi Gani who became a witness and heard everything.

They remembered and began to compare with the events that had happened in this house.

In the past, some of the previous employers were women who had the status of a mistress or a hidden wife.

Some of them ended up being caught by the legitimate wife who was then expelled with contempt. Everything that was ever given was taken away. They were kicked without bringing anything.

And some are left alone until the rental period runs out and fared more or less the same. Other than being dumped, there were also no valuables they could carry along with them.

However, things were different from what they had just witnessed.

The woman went away by herself. Without bringing anything because they do not want to take it.

In other words, Nana went to protect her pride. To no longer be insulted and trampled by people who do not like it.

* * *

In the taxi, Nana, who was on her way to the airport, was seen trying to contact someone.

'' where are you ? '' a male voice was heard welcoming his phone.

'' I'm on the street. If not so stuck maybe 15 minutes until ''

'' em, okay. Then I wait at the departure gate ''

Call ended.

Nana put her phone in the bag.

A few seconds later, his phone rang. Sign up if there is a call.

Nana pulls out her phone to see who's calling her.

His hands hung, his eyes fixed on the screen of the phone showing the contact of the caller.

Nana seems to have no intention of lifting him up and he just leaves it until the call ends on its own.

Not long after, his phone rang again.

Nana then changes her settings to silent mode and she re-inserts them in the bag.

" it's over.. " Nana is sitting. Her eyes are red. He looked down, looking at the fingers that were interlocked.

It may be impossible to forget everything.

But he tried to convince himself that he could live it . Just like the difficulties he had faced and he passed .

This is not the end .

This is the beginning.

Early to rearrange his life and prepare to welcome the arrival of the new spiritist.