Not Same Again

Han merana

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One of the realities in life that I have experienced, I understand and I accept is that almost all events or events never go according to plan and it’s okay.

People often say, no matter what the sun will still rise tomorrow morning. So, live by doing what we want to do and continue to believe and realize that everything we pass is extraordinary with our achievements in the past days.

About the future, we all still have many pages in the story or writing it. Where we as the main character should not assume as if the end of the story we already know and written earlier.

One thing is that no one can guess tomorrow.

“Then, in the end I want to tell you,” Sena said with a warm look to her sister.

“How come I am so tired, and want to just give up,” he continued with Ivan who kept looking at him meaningfully and understandingly.

“Gue is actually planning something and I will make sure, that I will be an irrevocable memory for the future in the lives of some people!” he smiled with a pushy look that he had now.

“It turns out true, life will be more comfortable and quiet if we do not know about many things that we do not need to know. Later, I will probably remember it as what I want to forget the most, and they will remember it as well as what they ever did and want back,” said Sena with a still smile.

“Kak!” ivan in the end.

“Gue knows physical and inner brother again tired! There must be a lot of quiet and piled up brother for too long, you know not if now who is buried is overflowing all because it is too full and does not even have space anymore! Stop and rest for a moment. Brother needs time to be alone and contemplate. Brother's health is more important than many things if you forget!” ivan smiled warmly by patting and embracing the shoulder of his brother.

“Gue has stopped long ago deck! Even contemplating too long. Isn't this a good time to take off and leave everything behind?” sena asked, looking at her sister.

“Sometimes we must be at the most painful and low point in life. Angry in silence, crying in silence is all about endless silence. Smiling lets people know we are the happiest.

I realize, there are some questions that might make us down in life. Sometimes we are tired of what we are doing or dealing with. We cannot attract everyone to understand us.

It hurts, doesn't it? Hence, now brother wants to stop. Brother wants to give up, but not want to forget just want to get through this more on time or just rush time because it does not want to drag on,” said Ivan explained the situation now.

“Sometimes I like to think, life wants to give me a surprise like what the hell? This is how I made it!” exclaim Sena.

“To be more mature then, it should be like this. Where, we can be angry or want to be angry but we choose to be silent. About like that is the situation,” said Ivan smiled.

“Then what is sister's plan?” ivan asked understanding of the direction of their conversation earlier.

“Go!” answer's sure.

“This fast?” ivan asked in disbelief.

“Hm, didn't you just tell me that you could hunt down time?” Sena asked back.

“Yes, but this is too big brother! Ivan hasn't even finished college try,” grumbled Ivan.

“My decision is round, how dong?” sneered Sena.

“Kak! If this is the best according to brother, go! Ivan always supported and believed. Ivan will try even more after this,” he said smiling meaningfully.

“Hm,” muttered Sena replied with the state she was still faithfully leaning on her sister's back.

From here I understand there are some things that we can not control, one of which is the view of someone against us. All of our virtues or attitudes will not be a definite benchmark for making someone like us, because people sometimes like or hate us with their own point of view.

The tomorrow....

Where they often unwind when busy working is a cafe owned by the company Bayu, with a comfortable atmosphere, the view from the top level of the building is the most beautiful scenery at night.

This is where the three of them release fatigue by just drinking and relaxing the brain.

“Woahhh! Exhausting too this weekend, Leo” stretches his arms and breathes his coarse breath.

“Afterhand. Until I don't want to do anything else but sit and be quiet,” continued Jeno.

“We need this like,” exclaimed Bayu raised some bottles of alcoholic beverages it.

“Hahh, you're right. We have to spend this night with a little different,” exclaimed Leo who had raised his glass to be ready to receive alcohol from Bayu.

“Gue won't get drunk. Tomorrow there's an important client!” exclamation Jeno.

And they drink quietly while telling stories and spending their time well.

“Stay like this, while thinking about how to get us back well,” he replied.

“But, we have to make a decision as soon as possible, before it's too late. It's been over a year if you forget!” exclaim Leo.

“Lo actually Bang. Sena even this year the cave does not know, whether he lives well,” between Jeno.

“We have to quickly fix it, we have to look for evidence of the accident at that time and prove that the Sena family is not wrong in that. while we reveal the events experienced by Sena last year whose mastermind is Mira herself. That way, he couldn't go any further if he first knew about Sena's status.

“We've tried harder bang. And it looks like my people will find the bright spot," Jeno.

“I've also collected evidence of many cases masterminded by the Mira family, and some evidence of terror that Sena received at that time.!” exclaim Leo.

“Everything seems to be almost clear. Then what if in the end some of you choose to stop and give up?” sela Bayu with her own thoughts.

“I hope it's not Sena who gives up. Because I'm sure he's the strongest and able to survive and that probably won't happen!” firmly Jeno.

“But people can change Jen! Do not forget that,” said Bayu justifying his speech.

“People might change in time. And Sena is one of them, but I am the same as lo Jen, I hope we have not wasted doing many things so far!” added Leo.

“Alright, if you are still as confident as you are now,” said Bayu relented.

“We must be on our principles and plans, not to be rash in acting. I went back first yes,” said Leo and left the place.

After the departure of Leo..

“Jeno! I just remember you, do not let you miss some important things just because you are too busy making plans!” yukar Bayu hesitated a little at his best friend.

“Gue will always be awake Bro. Calm down,” said Jeno more confident.

“One thing you need to know, women are more excited than men. When they part and leave, they will take away all the love they will and already have. And that's when we just regained consciousness and tried to give half of the remaining love we had. Freely kneel down and beg them not to leave if that happens.

And this you must remember well, even though it looks soft, the woman is cold and firm more than us.

So, if according to you he's the one, come back and keep him there and still be able to reach and clingy so that you don't miesel, you can,” said Bayu at length and pat Jeno on the shoulder before leaving to leave him alone.

“What will you choose to stop and give up? I hope you still survive a little more, I will never be able to if in the end I will lose when I try again to keep you there and look, a little more we are like now, I hope,” muttered Jeno and went away from the cafe and stepped slowly down the streets at night because it was not too late. There are still a lot of people on the streets.

On the same street....

A person was walking while breathing the slightly cold and comfortable night air. According to him, this would be the last time he walked and felt the atmosphere of the city at night. It will take a very long time to come back here at a time when he does not know. He just wanted to keep his memories in this town.

Too busy to enjoy the night, he had not realized that a man of his age had stood up and stared at him for so long a few meters away from where he was standing while continuing to look at him with a meaningful gaze.

He who felt like he was stared at also turned and met his eyes, and he also said “Jeno!” in his heart only because so far they have no longer greet each other and even look at each other like now.

There was no speech, until in the end the figure of Jeno stepped with a view that was opposite and passed it without saying hello again.

He could only stare and smile a little while in his heart saying “God is so good, it still gives me a chance to see you now and it might be the last time. But life is so cruel, turning the relationship between us to this day is still with the same feeling if I really do not understand. If indeed in the end we will separate and not meet again, why the circumstances bring us together again? I'm even confused what feeling this is!” he said in silence while accompanying a few steps Jeno in front of him until in the end he chose to give up again the last time.

“Jeno!” call her and it was able to make Jeno's steps stop with their distance maybe five meters only.

There was no response or movement from the person he was calling. Even he was still just standing without looking at his collar.

“Thanks!” he said with a slight smile in his straight, unfocused gaze.

Seeing Jeno's movements slightly standing sideways in front of her, she continued her words to answer Jeno's questions perhaps, why she should thank him and for what.

“Thanks for everything. If you ask me why I am grateful. Both distance, presence, attitude, past and even this pretense. Even the plan that I have compiled and assembled with difficulty until mature will still sink and erased one by one in the end.

I didn't understand until this moment. But, I can still succumb to that for the last time now. I just want to say, now I don't even understand my own feelings after I didn't understand some people yesterday,” said Sena smiled.

“It’s okay. In the end we will also choose,” he added again and move away with a little quick and sure step.

Jeno who was standing sideways earlier also turned his head and looked at the girl he thought was currently stepping far away as if carrying half of him away, he felt like something had changed a little until he tried to call him “See,!” and even his voice only sounded softly accompanied the ledge of Sena who was getting away.

“Sorry. I chose to stop and give up. I realize I love Rey and I also love lo Jeno. Great right? I realized when I was left and I was leaving. At the same time I can't even choose and it ends me who will go and choose to leave.

Woahh, goodbye complicated first love. See you in different destinies in different ways and meetings or maybe with different people later!” sena went far and never came back.

^^^_04 Oct. 2021^^