Not Same Again

Do it my way

'After a long time living on earth, I finally realized that the most cause of a lot of fatigue is hope in humans'_sajaktanpaanjad.

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And my biggest mistake is to think everyone is good. If only from the beginning nothing had changed from all that I planned and the hope might be the day I could still be in a state of having some that had been lost. You're. Her. They're. You guys and everything.

There is a bit of regret that I feel to this day. Still with the same question why it became like this in such a short time for the move so far. If going and leaving is a hobby of some humans, then what about some other humans who have a hobby of survival and acceptance?

Will they stay in the same position?

Could it be that they were created so great that they could endure and accept without limits?

Some things in life happen for a few times. However, there are also some things that can happen repeatedly.

If going and leaving or disappearing is the best option so that the living are happy and live well according to them, then, what in staying will live according to their thoughts?

Apparently, that's how they think I am right now. Yeah, it's very shallow.

They're so selfish in my opinion!

Right now, I'm getting to the point where, I don't want anything else, I don't mind a lot of things going away from me, I wouldn't feel lost if I stayed again. The cave will not object to many hurtful attitudes.

I am tired and want to stop being honest. I want to pretend I don't know a lot and I won't find out. I'll live with what makes me okay.

I just need to make peace with the situation and get used to some things.

I won't be angry! Again, I'm tired and don't want to do anything!

I was pretty devastated by the reality that happened.

My condition now, may be a mess so much that I do not know where to start cleaning it from! And I don't even want to do anything else.

I want to be honest now. I don't want any more of this. I have the right to make a sound and even shout as loud as possible, right?

But, in a solitary atmosphere like this alone, in conditions that seem to know only yourself.

Funny right?

Oh, by yourself!!!

Why do we have to be like this?

'Whatever else knows how painful it is in this position!'.

I wish I could, I want others to always say clearly what they want and want so I don't have to make the filing.

What I am most afraid of is 'losing due to misunderstanding'

Therefore, I have struggled so hard, trying to better understand survival without asking myself if I am still okay?

'From me to this weird me'

Losing will always be there, not everything you have to defend. You deserve to be a little selfish once in a while.

In fact, you will still lose. Because no matter how much you keep and defend firmly. You will be left behind because you do not want to.

Yourself that sucked you!

And now I also know an incredible stubborn person who is never again confident for now. And it's you yourself!

Now, you begin to learn not to rush to conclusions in many ways.

And also to those who come. Someone will want to know and pretend.

Even for now, those who are almost tired and discouraged will try stubbornly again later to solve some problems that require clarity. Keep talking without pause and now just try to stop for a moment without knowing when it will come back good. It's a pain, isn't it?

Yesterday ran with hopes that are still the same, but do not know where the next direction will be. Because everything is just pseudo.

In the end, accepting yourself and getting used to it is the right choice. We'll be fine tomorrow, tomorrow or later.

"Hufhh... It was afternoon! Flip ah," he stood up and grabbed his little bag on the long bench of the park.

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In the same place...

"Are you sure you're meeting people here?" asked Bayu, the article they have almost half an hour but have not seen the figure waiting.

"Remain tired. Wait a minute again!" Jeno focused on her phone to get back to the person she was referring to.

"It's 5 minutes ahead don't show up either, I went back first. There's still business in my office. Can be hacked the same daft bokap," complained Bayu.

"So busy you. I'm also an office employee!" Ejek Jeno's.

"Eh, that boy over there is no ordinary employee but an employee who trains himself to lead remember the company!" Strictly Bayu was a little upset because he felt like he was wasting his time.

"Yes know me. Hopefully Om will really kill you after this," said Jeno laughed with satisfaction.

"Friends of Dajjal are cake in front of me now!" Said Bayu sipping rough drinks in his hands.

"Sister Leo where the hell is it? Are you busy or forgotten?" ask Jeno at last.

"Where do I know, I'm Bayu!" Sayu malas

"Gue call me back this time? But it's not good!" Jeno was a little confused between going to the phone and not.

"So brother Leo mah who we are waiting for why not talk from earlier Samsul. I've been grumbling indistinctly since!" said Bayu was a little surprised because what they were waiting for was their seniors on campus while in college.

"Let me guess. The purpose of our meeting this time is not about work, is it?" Bayu raised his next eyebrow with a smirk.

"Hm" Deheman Jeno answered his best friend's question.

"Eh, BTW brother Leo is now a success! The company has many branches in big cities, so I want to promote cooperation if I am appointed later." Sayu seriously.

"Yes. If you are appointed, if it is not good anymore you move to be an employee brother Leo aja pas tuh!" Jeno exclaimed at her best friend.

"Jeno! You don't want if we with style kek gini to hit here?" pissed Bayu. They've always been like that when they're together but never once have they been serious and hit each other. They have been very familiar from the past.

"When else to challenge that cake!" Jeno laughed lightly.

"Hi! Sorry for a long time, it's still an important meeting!" Sapa Leo who has taken a seat next to Bayu by facing Jeno.

"Oh! Hi brother! How are you, haven't seen you in a long time!" Sapa Bayu.

"Eh, Bayu! Well me. How's it going, too, in the company now?" ask Leo about this other junior. If Jeno he already knew that he was leading his father's company and they happened to work together on several projects as well. After graduating between Jeno and Leo they did not break up the contract, they are even considered familiar now. A lot of things they discussed if Kana met.

"Start from under my brother! I've always said that Leo knows himself!" Complaint Bayu.

"Hehehe Om is a little strict anyway! Eh Jen, how was yesterday's show going? Sorry not to miss the date!" Leo asked considering yesterday his company's birthday.

"Surfer brother! Gapapa times, after all the show is not too long too. Brother, how's it going now?" ask Jeno because he does not like pleasantries and immediately focus on the goal.

"Oh, yes. We don't have much time to forget!. So gini we stick to the situation and we are now. Yesterday there was also a report of Om Reza company there was a little problem with their company. And you know they're cunning as usual fortunately they don't know if Sena is the daughter of Om Reza so Sena's position is a little safe. Only the problem is now my company and you are part of the shareholders who are a little influential also the same company Om Reza so the Mira now again eyeing the closest person of us to make in disintegration. In order to avenge himself with the Om Reza family," said Leo at length.

***You still remember their senior Mira at the same college class as Rey and Leo back then, right?

if not wrong in part 22 equals 23.

A little story author!

Mira's revenge on Reza's family that nothing else is missing is not Sena's father. But luckily Mira doesn't know yet if her junior Sena is Reza's daughter. Wh why? Because Sena's father covered all access for those who find out about his family. Many people only know if he has a daughter but no one knows him.

Starting from the accident that befell the mother of Sena that caused him to lose his life. At that time, the car driven by the Mother of Sena had a fatal accident which also at that time occurred the same accident in the same place the father of the Mira died on the spot as well. Because of this, Mira concluded that the cause of her father's death was the fault of Reza's wife Sena's father.

Drai's where Mira and her mother hold a great grudge against Andin's exit.

At first while still in college Mira slightly suspected that Sena who was his junior was the son of the family that caused the death of his father. That's why, Mira used to terrorize Sena by sending objects and mysterious events while searching for the truth of who Sena really is. Even in the past, Mira did not hesitate to do Bulian to sena.

As he kept telling people to find out Sena's history, that's where Reza Sena's father acted. It blocks all data related to its exit in the media and in all government data. Reza is one of the most influential people in the business world and works well with the government. So he easily hid all Sena's statuses. So the search for Mira gave up because the year of the data he got Sena was an orphan at that time.

Doesn't stop here. He still hates Sena because the person he loves Rey chose Sena instead of choosing him.

Mira feels unfair. Everything he liked was as if Sena snatched from him. He decided to hurt Sena. By way of making it up a little depressed with a lot of terror that time. When they were in college. Slowly destroying Sena by keeping everyone who loves her away.

Mira is also a child of a distinguished family so whatever she wants she will do no matter what forbids her because for her there will be no one capable of rivaling her. And that's the truth.

Because of the many events and threats Sena received to make it completely down at that time. So some of the people who became closest to him, Rey, Jeno, Leo and Selly his best friend chose to slowly go and leave.

All that they do is not out of fear of the threat Mira poses to them but because they want Sena to live happily and well without them around her.

And after they left in a different way they left it. Sena recovers and Mira also stops bothering her because she has no one left. Even Rey who was blatantly fond of him disappeared without a trace of his sight. So did Leo and Jeno they stayed away from him.

And now maybe Mira keeps trying to avenge her against the Reza family, even though all she knows is only one Reza she saw alive.

So, between Rey, Leo, Jeno and Selly are they wrong?***

This question can only be answered by readers who know very well how to start.

Already know the reason for the disappearance of Rey, the distance of Leo and Jeno and the departure of Selly with the reason to move. Then not the return of the father?

All because they don't want Sena to experience her destruction at her age, I don't know.

Back to the story...

"So that senior Mira thing isn't over yet?" ask Bayu.

"Who said this was too bad?" ask Jeno cynically.

"Eh, kid. You didn't tell me my cake so I felt the same bego story!" annoyed.

"This is not a story, but a reality!" firmly Jeno.

"Udah, no! So we stay in our position until we find the solution!" said Leo mediate the fight bacot the two friends.

"So we can't go back to Sena yet if the problem is still like that!" Jeno.

"Back to Sena? Since when have you lived with children? So you're talking about that cake?" search Bayu.

"Y-yeah I mean back so the friend again!" Stuttering Jeno because she felt caught.

"Udahlah. You still love Sena?" ask Leo to the point.

"Questions that don't need answers!" Upset Leo.

"OKAY. We also know how you are! So, don't show up in Sena's life just so she's okay!" Firm Leo.

"But I watched him bang. He hurts a lot as much as my attitude," Jeno said weakened.

"You love him, keep him well. One day you'll be back with him and all of us!" said Leo for sure.

"Yes I also saw and know how Sena is now. So far, we can't be reckless. One wrong move maybe Sena will be more ruined than this!" added Bayu.

"Lo has to be good at limiting himself. You also have to be able to hold your feelings to him. I know you miss his existence. Same, we are too! So, let's work well together for Sena!" leo said in the end.

"sorry. Because to love you I have to pretend to stay away. I really miss the same you. I haven't even received the same lo, it's been away again now. I will prove that everything about you will continue to exist and always in my life. Not to remember but to strengthen your existence and absence into a life and the assumption that you are always beside me!" Jeno's mind with her distant vision.

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^^^_27 Sept. 2021^^