Not Same Again

There's no choice

...'Nothing is eternal in this world including your troubles'....

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In the corner of the room is a little dim, minimal lighting like the atmosphere of the room mostly because the study lights are turned on.

Someone with a flat look, thin or thinner than usual was sitting in a thick book containing a human skeleton with Latin there.

It is natural that he looks thinner, too much time is spent just focusing on reading, practice, the laboratory and other mind loads. With round anti-radiation glasses that are still perched in both ears, he is like not focusing on his reading again but the mind that drifts far away somewhere.

A lot of time he has spent alone, away from the many frenzied persolan past can make him become more understanding about the real life.

He is well aware. To be at his point now, there was so much he left behind. Family, friends, friends and much more.

With the mind raging even wrestling in his mind he muttered, "That I know, some of the journey in the process of life must be passed alone. No family, friends or friends, just alone. Perhaps, at a point like this I should have come to understand, that even in the loneliest phase of life there will be no loneliest loneliness." he murmured to himself with a straight look at the front wall of his study table filled with colored card paste with various writings there.

"Yeah!! It's been too far and a little too long to say hello. Do you still remember or do you think of a few things about me in their minds?" He said in a daydream.

With a hint of hesitation he grabbed his phone next to the tome and watched his phone screen for a moment.

No matter where he pushed, he dialed a number that had long been stored on his new phone, he deliberately kept the number. Not sure if the number is still active.

Until the ringing of the mobile phone is connected then he knows that the owner is still using his old number.

Until finally he muttered involuntarily from his daydream, "Jeno_ya,,. I'm afraid of being left behind and forgotten. I'm afraid something I believe is finally breaking. I am afraid of the fact that some people leave or are left behind, whether or not there is coercion. That's why I'm this hard. That's why I shut myself up too much." His words when the ringing of the mobile phone was picked up by the person in the direction, who believed his words must have been heard clearly across there.

"I'm afraid I don't have a chance. I'm afraid I can't come back when my time is up. Am I too naive with life to this extent distancing myself?" He said again with still no answer from across.

A few minutes without a conversation, until.....

"Senaa! Am I dreaming now? If so, then stay a little longer! I've long missed this voice!!" Jeno's speech was almost in a shaky tone, perhaps with a cry.

"Hmm," Sena felt a warm sigh as the long inaudible voice.

"You played too long until I felt far away. Did you come in the dream well?" Said Jeno who still could not believe if he received the call.

"Heheh, you're still annoying. I am good and you are not dreaming yak!!" Sena chuckled.

"Come! Y-you really? Ma-I mean it's you??" Jeno who was focusing on the file sheet on her desk jumped in shock with the reality.

"Sena!! Answer me this is not a dream!!" Jeno is hysterical with eyes that sparkle like life again after a long time.

"Hm." Sena smiled at Jeno's enthusiasm there. "It's been a long time!"

"old. Long time. Why did you never call me? I've been looking everywhere for you. I can't even eat, sleep and live well after knowing you're gone. Hiikkss, hiiiks.." yeah she cried in the end.

"Jeno! Don't be like this. Aren't you ashamed of the people who see you now?"

"Yeah! No one saw me. I'm in the office and there's nobody here."

"But I can hear you from here!"

"Stop taunting me! You've made me like this. Don't you know I spent a lot of nights with regret over everything?"

"Sorry!"

"Ga. I'm the one who's sorry. Sorry me. I was wrong. I hope you're better now."

"Jeno!!"

"Hm?"

"A lot of rest. Don't push yourself too much. You have to pause for a lot of things. I can still give you plenty of opportunities to rest before picking you up home!" Jeno smiled after the smile had been gone all this time.

"Who asked to be picked up? I don't want to go back! It's good you said."

"I'll pick you up if I can't control myself again later!"

They just had a little fight and an argument. They finished like that from the beginning until now still has not changed. Until a few minutes later..

"Jeno!" Call Sena seriously.

"Hm? Whywhy?" Ask Jeno gently.

"I. Ak-ah, can't you take your time?" Sena's nervous.

"I always have time for you! What's the matter hm?"

"Come! I need you there for me for a while now!"

"YOU'RE NOT KIDDING! YOU'RE SERIOUS! I'M BOOKING TICKETS NOW! YES, RIGHT NOW!" Jeno enthusiastic.

"Hm, I'm waiting for you!" Sena is sure. He was ultimately defeated by a long-buried longing. "Don't tell anyone if you're here! I just want you!" Sure talk.

"I'm leaving now! By ourselves. Wait for me!!" Jeno ends her phone call and picks up her suit and runs out of the office to the parking lot without caring about all her employees who are confused by their boss.

In his mind, it was just Sena for now. He had booked the ticket when Sena sent his address via chat all had been taken care of by his secretary just stay at the airport because his secretary would meet him at the airport.

In the end, to whatever extent we heal from many things that befall and that make us sick. We need a shoulder that can hold and a place to lean. We may move against destiny but one thing is that the right people will come when we are no longer able to think and do some things. That's where we become aware there are people who still expect us to go back and make peace with the past.

"Thank God. For many things you bring. For many of the problems you end with the path you give. I don't know what my destiny will be like. But, as a human let me be a little selfish this time. I'm really scared of losing him. If this is my chance to improve and start over, let him stay in his arms and I can still see his every smile and his anger to be the reason why I can work and survive. So far I don't even have a purpose. I feel like I'm not alive after everything happens. And this time I'll get him in better shape. I love her." Jeno's mind when the plane he was on took off.

...20.03.2022...

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**Annyeong 👋👋👋

Sorry new up again🙏

I've run out of ideas lately. I need the actual refreshing but too busy with work plus Omicron more ferocious yes now. So everything is limited.

But, seriously the reason I'm slow to update is because you're running out of ideas to write 🥺

Again forgive me😌

May you be well, yes,,

Don't stay up too often.

Eat on time.

Drink coffee not too often. I was yesterday until your bad stomach because often drink coffee is the same as eating late.

🤗🌹**