Not Same Again

Maaf

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Neighbors. Malaysia.

It's been a week since Nana arrived.

The atmosphere in the simple residence located not far from the hospital felt so quiet.

The person who had been hired to accompany and treat Siti had been dismissed .

The day after setting foot in this country that was thick with the culture of serving her, Nana had unhesitatingly told her everything.

About wedding. The problem with mom and Oma Bian. Why did he come alone.

Hearing all that, Siti was certainly sad. He was disappointed and also felt guilty.

Because it all happened because Nana wanted her to heal.

Nana who can already estimate Siti's response, can only be silent .

But Siti's different reaction showed when she told him about her that had offered the body to get the cost of surgery.

Angry siti.

Until repeatedly asked why he could think of doing such a thing.

He looked at Nana who was down .

Siti shook her head with tears.

He is inexhaustible and hard to believe .

For the first time, Nana sees and must face the anger that is not only shown from the look of her face.

But also from the language and tone of speech Siti.

During this time, Siti who she knows is personally speaking soft language even with mixed language.

Siti could not help herself anymore by showing how angry and disappointed she was with Nana.

Be sure to hit the child's back or arm. But I can't bear to remember that Nana is pregnant.

Don't know how to vent it, anyone can only sneak by squeezing the collar firmly while cursing themselves .

Siti calls herself the main cause of Nana's life is now a mess.

If not for her sake, Nana could not be reckless to auction her honor. Although this did not happen, because Bian was in time to save him.

But it's already a part of Nana's past . Which is somehow known by the mother and Oma Bian and makes it difficult for them to accept a Nana to end up treating her with a very heartless.

Siti also felt more guilty, when she found out Nana was pregnant.

He told Nana to go home. But Nana firmly rejected it.

" good. If you don't want to accept me here.

I'm h-home.

But I won't go back to Bian.

I'm gonna live my own life.

And Mak will never see or hear from me again" Nana said threateningly.

The helpless Siti finally gave up and chose to let Nana by her decision.

Feeling successful in breaking it, Nana then weld .

" let me here, mother..

We live as we used to, again .

Accompany and look after each other, em ? " Nana persuaded him.

After that day, Siti was silent and did not want to talk.

Not even looking at Nana. He still harbors resentment as well as tremendous sadness.

Not just Nana and herself. But to a fate that's been so unfair to them. Especially with Nana.

Not enough to be born as an orphan, Nana who at that time was just born already has no right to choose.

He had to enter into a family that took him as a child, just to be used.

As if it had no end. Now Nana must prepare to face what is now in sight.

Pregnant without a husband . And I don't know what else the difficulties of life will be like later.

Siti stared incensed whenever her gaze was directed at Nana.

A beautiful appearance does not guarantee that it will make his life as beautiful as the face he has.

Days change. Although now back living together and even sleeping in the same place, Siti still does not want to talk and care about Nana.

But as time went on, slowly his annoyance began to erode.

Misting in the morning.

A day that feels the same for those who do not have activities different from other days.

Just like Nana and Siti who have no meaningful activities . They barely even left the house .

Nana is seen sitting while staring at the screen. Siti was busy in the kitchen.

The condition of Siti has improved.

In addition to the recovery process and a series of mandatory treatments that run smoothly and routinely he does, it is also supported by his awareness to take extra care of health. Especially his eating.

As a result, now he can do activities normally, although still limited.

" Na "call Siti after putting her cooking on a square meal .

Nana looked over while carving a smile.

He was happy because finally Siti wanted to make a sound.

He moved and went straight to Siti .

The two sat face to face and began to eat mustard stir-fries and soy sauce made by hand.

" mak "Nana glanced at the woman who now looked fresher than before.

Siti flinched by continuing to chew her food.

Nana, who had intended to start the conversation, continued.

He thought the atmosphere between them had melted.

But it seems like it's just his feelings.

Siti called him just to take him out to eat.

A few moments later.

The food that had been on the plate had moved into their stomachs.

Siti and Nana were seen putting their food utensils together.

" last ni , Nana kene heard ape mak capak '' Siti looked at Nana with an expression that was difficult to interpret.

Nana nodded. He does not argue.

After that, Siti asked him to promise.

Whatever they will do later, Nana cannot make her own decisions.

Once again Nana nodded. He also convinced

Siti that she will obey and will not be stubborn anymore.

The next day, Nana and Siti appear to be packing.

They are preparing to move.

After earlier this morning Siti went to the residence of her sister and his wife.

Siti purposely met them under the pretext of collecting the money that was then used to pay their debts to the loan sharks .

Siti who knew if they could not have the money to pay, also gave a choice .

The couple had a discussion. Siti asked to stay with them. Along with Nana too.

Twenty minutes in front of Siti, they finally let her and Nana live in their small apartment that only has one room.

Luckily there is still empty space commonly used for storage of goods or commonly called warehouses .

It's okay even though it's narrow and at the very back. The room then and on became a place for him and Nana shared to rest.

Next day.

Siti and Nana begin their life plan which will definitely not be easy to live .

The day changed again until a few days later, the first luck came. Nana got her first job.

That morning, Nana went down to the ground floor to take out the trash.

At the same time a person who claimed to have seen him say hello several times.

They are neighbors .

The woman of Chinese descent then asked and finally they were involved in a fairly long chat.

There the woman who is often called Ta'chik Hong said that she was looking for someone to help her .

He has a home business selling cakes.

But because of his advanced age, he can no longer do it alone.

Especially to sell it.

Nana offered quickly.

After returning home he immediately told Siti.

He is afraid something happens to the content of Nana if too excessive in the activity.

But after Nana reassured and weighed if there will be many needs that they have to prepare, Siti with a heavy heart also allows.

On condition, he will join Nana working to help her. It doesn't matter if it's not paid. He just wants to make sure Nana and her future grandchildren are okay.

Days pass again, go on and on .

Every day, not only pushing a cart full of handmade cake snacks to a traditional market. Nana also has to peddle and serve the buyers of her merchandise.

Lucky not until noon , he must have returned with a cart that feels lighter than before.

It did not take much time, but it was in accordance with the price he received every week.

Although not much but still to be grateful.So Siti always reminds him to avoid dissatisfaction.

No sense of time running without ever counting how long it has been.

The content of Nana also looks increasingly enlarged and heavier he feels.

When night comes, often he feels sore and sore around the groin area .

He was grateful that there was Siti who always massage her two swollen legs.

Not felt, Nana's gestational age has now entered the third trimester.

Waiting time is waiting for the day. Ta'chik Hong asked him to pause.

He was worried if too forced himself, Nana would experience obstacles in her delivery later.

And the day that awaited arrived.

Nana, who began to feel heartburn due to contractions, was taken by Siti and assisted by Ta'chik Hong to a maternity clinic not far from the apartment they occupied.

" mom don't worry.

I'm gonna be okay "

nana said soothingly when she saw Siti who had been nervous since .

Siti clasped Nana's fingers tightly and did not leave Nana's side for a second.

Nana stared at Haru.

He's really grateful. Life is difficult, but it feels comparable because he has someone like Siti .

'' mak '' Nana stared while smiling even with a frown that was wrinkled because it was holding back the contractions that were being struck.

Siti was seen repeatedly wiping away her falling tears.

He could not bear to see Nana in pain .

* * *

At the same time, on the other side of the Earth.

The light began to fade. Although still leaving the heat because all day the sun is so hot.

Two humans were seen sitting on a bench in the front yard of the house.

This is the first time a mother and child sit quietly without argument.

It's been thirty minutes since Mr. Tole called and said they were on their way home .

In the phone call earlier Mr. Tole also said that Bian was busy all day .

In addition to the meeting, Bian also had to meet a colleague at a restaurant .

After that, Bian languished with two of his confidants in his study.

Mr. Tole did not know what job seemed so urgent and impressed hunted by the Mister. But one thing astonished him.

If usually people who are busy with their work will forget to fill the energy. Bian is the opposite.

I don't know how many times Mr. Tole got orders to go out and buy him a meal.

And strangely enough, the desired food is somewhat difficult to find. He had to stay long in the streets to find it.

So, it is not just Bian who is busy with his work. Mr. Tole is the same. He was busy serving the request of the employer who was like someone was cravings.

Hem. Mr. Tole has not been clear what happened.

He was only briefly told by Elisabeth. When her employer asked her to pay attention to everything Bian did and to report the smallest amount of material.

'' did you tell Bian everything ? ''

natasha asked the mother who was sitting next to her.

Elisabeth nodded slowly.

Their eyes were equally straight ahead. I don't know what to see because what's in front of them is home.

'' you know if his wife left because we just reacted like this.. What if he finds out his wife is pregnant ? '' elisabeth's voice sounded bitter.

Indeed, every time he remembered it, regret and guilt immediately squeezed his feelings. It was as if squeezing the heart and all the organs in his body. It hurts.

'' mr. Tole said, 'Bian likes to look for food that is rarely available during the day. Evening so.

Once at midnight, he built a pack of Tole and asked to be escorted to look for meatballs ''

Natasya. Feeling funny because Nana is pregnant, but it is Bian who has his cravings.

'' back then, when I was pregnant with you, I was too.

I always wanted to eat certain foods to the point of overwhelming your late father, Elisabeth recalled her good times as a mother.

Even though her home life did not run smoothly like hope. But there is still the best moment he has ever spent with his husband . And it was always embedded and neatly stored in his memory. Which in the end was damaged due to treason and the death of the husband due to an accident when he was about to run away with his mistress.

'' when I was pregnant with Bian I was too.

I always wanted Indonesian food and overwhelmed Bian's father.. ''

Just like the mother, Natasya also re-proved her beautiful memory while waiting for her second child with the man she loved.

It is not just an attitude . Some things in their lives have similarities too. Although not really the same perspective.

' tit' horn sound is heard.

The two simultaneously turned their heads towards the fence that was being opened by Bi Gani.

The car came in. And the awaited figure came out from within it.

Bian just walked away without caring about bi Gani who told him that his mother and Omanya were waiting for him.

Bian's step had stopped for a few seconds and looked at the sitting of two people there. After that he continued his path again .

This is what Bian is like now.

Ever since the wife left him, his attitude changed . No more greetings, kisses and warm hugs that he used to do every time he came home or met his mother and her oma.

Even Bian never again visited the room and accompanied Elisabeth to eat.

Bian was completely indifferent to the two women who could only give up while looking at him then.

' cklek' the door to the room opened and he stepped in .

The bathroom was the goal.

Refreshing his body and mind that is tired due to his work activities all day.

After bathing and wearing clothes, Bian was seen walking towards the balcony.

This is what he does every day.

Standing with both hands leaning against the balcony restrictions, as Nana often does.

'' if she really intends to leave me, why not file for divorce ? '' muttered with a look somewhere.

'' do you realize that what you're doing is torturing me, Nana ?

If you really want to end this marriage, shouldn't we talk first ? ''

That was the question that always came up whenever he remembered the reason Nana left.

He still does not understand and has difficulty accepting it.

They often refuse to believe everything.

Bian reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone.

He tried to dial Nana's number which since that day has never been active again. Just like this time.

Call not connected because the intended number is out of range.Said the operator.

He looks at the screen with his thumb moving up.

He found the Siti contact he remembered he had kept.

But now there is no more.

He thinks it must be Nana who unbeknownst to him has deleted the number.

'' I miss you, Nana Bian sighed heavily.

' ting' the voice of the incoming message notification.

The name of the mother as the sender.

" mommy knows sorry alone won't be enough to make up for everything.

But mom wants you to know that mommy's really sorry and apologized "

Bain turned his face away but returned to his original position when the noise was heard again .

" sorry to make you wait a long time.

Because it's not an easy thing to find.

Sorry, Bian. Mom tried but this is all I can do.

This is the number and address of Nana's best friend who lives outside the city.

You can ask him and maybe you'll find something about Nana.

Mami wishes you could find and return with your wife again "