Not Same Again

I'm going home

🌺 hem... 🌺

* * *

" helo "a distinctive sound welcomes the international connection that Natasya does.

Natasha took a deep breath.

Just by hearing his voice alone, his heart was already racing incoherently.

Because there is still love in him.

It's been a few months since he decided to leave.

And all that time, Natasha missed him in silence.

But Natasya can no longer buy time.

Ready not to be ready, now he has to talk to the man who has accompanied more than half of his life.

He took a breath back while remembering himself,

if the purpose of calling is to solve everything.

'' Hi, Conor . It's me Natasya bowed with a cell phone that she tightly held and stuck to her right ear.

'' ... ''

'' I'm sorry I just called you ''

'' ... ''

'' how are Cecilia and your family there ?

And . and also your news ''

'' ... '' who was there was still in disbelief. After a long wait, finally the woman who is still enthroned in his heart called.

But from the way of speaking and the style of language that Natasha uses, Conor concluded that Natasha called not to make up with him.

Natasha never mentioned their daughter by name. Because usually, he always uses the word 'our daughter' to call their firstborn.

Some moments are filled with silence.

'' Natasya, dear.I miss you Conor's voice sounded bitter.

Natasya bowed, moved the phone and attached it to her left ear.

He missed too. Especially when hearing the word 'honey' which is usually only thrown by Conor when they make love.

'' sorry, Conor. But I can't go back''

'' Na-Natasya. ak-I know, I was wrong.

You have every right to be angry because my words in our last fight have gone too far.

But trust me, I didn't mean to talk to you like that.. I-I'm really sorry.

Please give me one more chance to fix everything. Um ? ''

''I'm really sorry, Conor.

But I've decided not to come back to you.

I. I want to forget you.

But I will still appreciate what happened between us. Especially the kids ''

'' then what about me, Natasya ? Don't you love me anymore ?

Is it that easy that you end our thirty-year partnership ? ''

'' once again sorry, Conor.

But we never had any ties that required me to come back to you.

There was never any status connected to us ''

'' .. ''

'' maybe I've never told you.

And now I want you to know what I've been wanting all along.

There's something I've been holding for a long time.

Which I could never ask of you.

I really want to feel her name married and married .

Not just living together without the status that we have been living ''

'' ... ''

'' I-I'm going to start my new life here.

And if God gave me a soul mate I would gladly accept it.

That's why I called you.

Let's end it all by praying for each other's kindness.

And I hope we can still be on good terms for Cicilia and Bian ''

Without waiting for the next response, Natasya immediately ended the call.

He looked at the mound of land where the mother lay inside.

" i know it's too late.

But from now on, I will always be here to accompany you, mah.

I'm not going anywhere anymore ''

Natasha turned her eyes to the tomb next door. The father's grave. As Elisabeth wanted.

No matter what their relationship was in life, Elisabeth wanted to be buried by her husband.

" i will accompany Bian waiting for his wife and son to come home.

Until that time comes, I will definitely make up for all my mistakes "

* * *

Neighbor, Malaysia.

Two days after giving birth, Nana was allowed to go home.

Siti went home first .Intending to prepare a room for Nana and her granddaughter in order to get some rest.

While Nana and her son will follow home with Ta'chik Hong .

The employer she works for has said it will help her.

Nana can't refuse . Besides Ta'chik Hong insisted, he also felt that what Ta'chik Hong did was sincere .

The woman who had been single throughout her life also continued bright if she felt compassion for Nana who had been struggling through pregnancy until giving birth without being accompanied by her husband.

'' Nana ni ni tak de husband 'to ?'' tanya Ta'chik Hong who helped Nana carry a bag containing necessities during her stay at the clinic .

'' ade 'cik '' Nana spoke a language that he adapted like the Malay accent.

Nana smiled faintly with her head slightly bowed. He knew, it was not only Ta'chik Hong who was curious about him.

Several times Rosmah also asked similar questions from her friends.

And that makes Nana uncomfortable.

Lucky Rosmah is a person who is not so familiar with people who live in the surrounding environment.

Or rather he did not like the apartment residents.

It was not without reason that they were indifferent to Rosmah.

Because they do not want to deal with women who have made trouble several times and fight over debt.

So, the neighbors also chose to stay away and did not dare to gossip whether it was about Rosmah or her family.

And Nana was a little grateful for that.

Although he did not get a reprimand and a friendly gaze when he left the house, at least he had never heard anyone ridicule his condition.

--

'' ape this thing... '' Siti seemed surprised to see a pile of items being removed from the apartment that had been joined by her and Nana occupied.

Two men who claimed to be subordinate to the apartment owner said that the residence had not paid the rent for six months.

That is why they were forced to expel their inhabitants.

Siti stared in disbelief at her sister-in-law.

At one time, his sister who now works outside the city always routinely sends money every month. Including to pay the apartment rent.

Siti shaking. This must be due to Rosmah's habit of playing mahjong .

Rosmah, who saw her sister-in-law, approached Siti, persuading her husband's sister to help her.

Rosmah has no shame . He asked Siti for money by force.

Even Siti's stuff and Nana's belongings she's screwed up . Hopefully there will be money stored that he can take.

But not a ringgit he found. Rosmah inflamed, then forcibly snatched the wallet Siti held.

Rosmah is attractive, while Siti tries to defend.

The commotion was ignored by the two men who remained busy pulling things out of the house.

Likewise with the neighbors who only peek through the gap of the door of their house that was opened a little.

No one wants to help Siti who is defending her wallet that Rosmah wants to take away.

Rosmah succeeded.

He then rushed down to the ATM machine that was across the street . Siti did not stay silent, and followed him.

A few moments passed. Siti and Rosmah are seen returning to their dwelling with chaotic looks.

Rosmah frustrates.

'' Nana Siti was surprised to see Nana had come and was standing while holding her baby .

Ta'chik Hong beside Nana.

Siti hastened the pace to approach Nana. He briefly tells her what is going on and intends to take Nana away.

Nana let out a breath. Fortunately, he anticipated this. If not, maybe his savings have been taken out of Rosmah.

Ta'chik Hong who heard that spoke up.

He said that they could not suddenly find a place to stay.

He offers help to Nana.

Rosmah who stole the hearing, immediately interjected and agreed when Ta'chik Hong said he would lend money .

The house rental issue is over.

They are not being expelled.

Nana, who feels she owes a lot to the old woman, promises to pay her back by returning to work after her puerperium is over.

40 Days have passed.

Siti is forced to let Nana work alone, while she is at home taking care of the little one.

Because it is impossible for Siti to work, given the conditions that do not allow.

Yes, they do have to do a variety of tasks.

In addition to having to meet their needs, especially her son, Nana also has to set aside every wage she earns to make up for the drugs that still have to be routinely consumed post-operatively.

Not to mention thinking about the cost of passport stamp that must be done every month if he still wants to stay in the country.

In addition, Rosmah asked them to help pay the rent for the apartment.

Therefore, Nana also did two jobs at once. Although heavy because they have to leave their children all day, but Nana has no choice.

A year, two years passed with his hard work in order to meet the various needs of their lives. Nana also had to rack her brain and also drain her sweat extra to find extra money.

Nana still faithfully works for Ta'chik Hong. He did the job in the morning.

Later in the day he will help Ta'chik Hong make a cake.

Of course the kind-hearted Ta'chik Hong added to his wages.

But Nana can't just rely on those two jobs alone.

He needs an extra.

And once again Ta'chik Hong seems to be an angel who is always there when he needs to.

Nana was introduced to her relatives who have a fast food home business. Which happens to be in need of additional power in the back as a dishwasher.

Nana took the job.

It's okay even if it means he barely has time with the baby .

There was also Siti who was so good at taking care of her son whom she named Dion.

Nana calmed down, because Dion never fussed and acted . But still, there are times when he feels worried if the child will make Siti overwhelmed.

But Nana was grateful, it never happened. Dion is a silent child .

Even though it was also his mind.

When he was two years old, Dion was almost inaudible .

At that time, Nana, who was overwhelmed with anxiety, decided to take Dion to a specialist center for child development.

Dion had a speech delay and needed simulations to stimulate his brain to work more actively .

One reason is because Dion rarely interacts .

Nana didn't reject him either.

He who had to go to work when Dion did not wake up and go home when Dion was asleep, did not have time to chat with the child.

Siti accompanies Dion every day.

Because all the household chores Rosmah left to Siti, Siti was not so able to pay attention to Dion.

Especially if Rosmah invites her mahjong friends to play at home.

Usually Siti will tell Dion to come in and play alone in the room.

That's the life Nana has been through with Siti, and her son Dion. It doesn't feel like four more years have passed.

For several months now, Nana and Siti have often debated to return to Indonesia.

It's not that Nana won't. It is also time for him to return because his passport will soon expire and needs to be extended.

'' anyway, mom's coming ! " sternly Nana on mommy continued .

Nana is desperate. The validity of his passport is only a week away.

He had to go home but he did not want to leave Siti .

Because Rosmah is unlikely to want to treat let alone spend money for Siti.

" don't suck think mom "Siti tried to persuade.

Meanwhile, Dion who had seen the debate since then could only remain silent with his head turning left and right.

" Dion wants to jump papa, doesn't he ? "Siti approached the granddaughter, then stroked her puffer cheek.

Dion nodded as he looked at the woman he called the grandmother with her innocent eyes.

Siti took a breath. Smiling then looked at Nana .

" if that's the case, then come along . But.. " Siti deliberately hung up her sentence

" what ? Don't make weird conditions, huh ? " Nana shone a suspicious look.

Siti smiled again. His smile is soft and friendly.

" Kite kene to know Bian.

Look at Dion jumpe papanye "

Nana's speechless. He saw Dion's face always flat .

Maybe because it is always confined at home, the child becomes so minimal expression.

" okay. We home. But we can not go straight to Bian meeting" said Nana who was immediately greeted with a smile sumringah by Siti.

He could not force the stubborn Nana.

But at the very least, he had already managed to persuade Nana to go home.

The rest he left to the ones there.

In Siti's heart soared in excitement .

Actually, in the past few months, she and Han often exchanged messages and called each other without Nana's knowledge.

That's what he did when Nana was working.

But in fact, the one who communicates more often remotely with him is Bian.

That is the reason why Siti often told Nana to return to Indonesia.

Siti, Han and Bian .The thing they always discuss when they are talking is what if Nana comes home later.

--

'' Han said Nana when her phone was connected.

'' eng, the voice that greeted him sounded heavy.

'' still sleeping ? '' Nana looked at the clock on the wall of her room . The short needle leads to the number six while the long needle is between the numbers six and seven.

At 6:30 in the morning.

'' Han Nana raised the volume of her voice slightly as faint snoring sounds rang out.

Han seemed to be back to sleep.

'' yes. What the hell is it, Na ? disturb people to sleep''

'' it's afternoon, you know ! ''

" ck..if uda noon is indeed an acquaintance? ''Han clucked in annoyance.

Be quiet for a while.

" Han, I want to go home "

" ... "

" Han !"

'' eng, yes. You-you want to go home ?''

'' yes ''

'' when ? ''

'' promptly. So send me my money, yeah ''

'' hem.. '' Han nodded in understanding. What Nana meant was the money that was then deposited on her .

' tut' call ended and Nana went to Ta'chik Hong's residence .

He intends to meet the person who has helped him a lot to say goodbye.

Although Han.

He who is still lying on his comfortable mattress, looks to pull the blanket while carving a smile.

" ultimately." the breath of relief is a sign of relief as his eyes are again closed.

Han sleeps again.