Not Same Again

Dia

"Woahh, today is dramatic.

Many things happened not in line with expectations. Just want to give up. Angry, protesting, but to whom?

Neither they nor I know what to do.

Some tried to correct and and help others as if the cause of much drama itself.

Just to say, I'm tired, I'm tired, I need time, I need a break and I need a break.

In fact. Everything will go without having to be fun.

Their word that happened yesterday and today is to make me stronger again.

I cried a lot today, heheh.

I'm just gonna scream. If you choose to surrender to those who have fought for me.

Hope it will be both tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. When I complain, even the kasians are wasting their time just for me.

How else?

The process is like that, always like. Hit me hard in the end.

And it's just me like it was made.

At this corner table while enjoying a warm capuccino tonight with the roar of the waves on the beach that accompany.

Makes me realize there's gonna be something better waiting for in the future that I don't know when?

Process is like this.

Pain, pain, tightness and distressing.

Thank you for making this moment now.

I can still survive. If you said when I first got to know how to live the real life that 'the process is not just about taste and struggle, he is there to be together no matter what hurt, ' he said, because our path is far away we do not need a feeling, we just need a hug.

Those who are some on my side keep pushing to say, don't just keep quiet.

Maybe I deserve to speak even

scream as loud as possible. But

not in this kind of atmosphere, in conditions that seem to know only yourself. Care, understand, other people are just listeners

that story is good enough.

There is no need to add to the impression of suffering so that they care. So, do not aspire to be the most understandable, because they are humans who have many problems living just a different way when telling the world".

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In-house....

"Hello," he said flatly when he managed to pick up the phone on the third ring.

"How are you?"

"For what?" tanyanya cold.

"sorry. Papa has no choice!"

"Efface it. If it doesn't matter!" answer's flat.

"Papa just want to know how you are? Hm!"

"alright. Studying hard, you'll be fine,"

"Nobody knows more about me than myself!" he held back his anger a little.

"Hm, you're right. Sometimes stubbornness in some conditions is also necessary!"

"End it. I want to be alone, please don't bother me" he said, ending the call unilaterally.

Tut !

"Son doesn't have to be like that" Ivan calmed him down.

"Why does everyone act like they understand best? Haiss!!" Sena grumbled slowly.

"Sorry brother. I may not know much about my sister's problems. But at least big brother should be able to control his emotions in order to be calmer, "Ivan patted his shoulder slowly.

However, Sena's attitude had just been disrespectful towards the father. Ivan knew very well how they were and their respective characters, although not all of the family conflicts he knew.

"Please give me some time to myself" said Sena flatly.

"alright. Don't forget to eat!" ivan exclaimed as he turned towards the tray containing food on the table beside the balcony.

"Hm," he answered flatly.

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At Los Angeles's....

A middle-aged man was sitting pensively in the corner of the room while looking away at the night view from the top floor.

A lot is raging in his mind now, the company, his family and some of the many things he is dealing with. But the dominant one in her mind was her only daughter.

He didn't want to hurt her, didn't want to disappoint her, didn't want to burden her but it all happened at the same time.

"Sorry Papa Nak!

There will come a time when you will come to your senses and feel that you will be fine. You will feel all your burdens as if they are gone.

One day you will feel more excited to live your days. You must have a lot of hope," he murmured with a flat look.

"Papa had no choice but to choose not to return even though I missed the atmosphere of the house. With what papa experienced now makes papa feel as if he does not have a home anymore to go home. Sorry Papa!" he cried with both his hands in his pants pocket.

"Papa knows very well you need papa at the moment and your condition is deteriorating at this time. Papa understands and knows everything that happened to you a few days ago. But, what can I do, in fact papa just entrust others to take care of all the problems that you are facing. Be well! What happened to you in those few days, there will be some responsible for everything. I made sure of that! Papa won't let them live and be happy after what you have!" he said it must be because he already knew all that was being experienced by the princess only wayangnya.

"Sorry sir, the meeting will start in a few minutes!" his personal assistant broke his daydream.

"alright. Set up everything you need!" he said and stepped away from the room that witnessed how he was in the last few years.

That is every problem of life. Sometimes we have to be in the phase of not being able to choose but we have to be forced to choose. Also sometimes some choices can hurt some parties but that is the best thing to do.

It's okay, everything will recover even if it has to be trained. It's okay if today is sad, because slowly the pain will disappear by itself.

The important thing is not about forgetting but how we make pain a learning experience in life.

If in the end, we can not go back at least there are some moments that we have toered and can still imprint on the person who feels most hurt at that time.

Although in fact, there will be some parties who will feel the most hurt, most are at the lowest position. However, slowly one day he will be in the conscious phase that there is still more pain than what he feels.

That is where he is conscious and sorry. And regret always comes at the end. Life has cycles like that. Anyone can't escape from that.

So, be happy if you are still given the opportunity to be happy:)

_Act. 2021