Not Same Again

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“All the good ones will disappear first. There is never an exception. In the end, there is nothing that can be done to keep them there and survive.  And then you'll understand why it happened to you”.

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No one could guess the life scenario that was waiting ahead. Sometimes there are many things that just happen in life, whether we will be able to be strong in accepting and surviving or we fall back like the days after.

That's how life is, lately I have experienced many things that are quite disturbing to me, but how can I avoid it? Shouldn't our lives go on without going back?.

Yesterday, today and tomorrow will not stop coming into my life. What I experienced yesterday did not happen by chance, many things happened like a sign that it would indeed happen. Neither Rey nor Jeno I blame them. They are so good for every side of my life with different versions, how could I have guessed that all would happen without me knowing.

I am too late in life when some people try to understand me and some even love me. Without me knowing all that I got was quite hurt for some of those who feel hopeless for my presence on the side of the lives of those they care about.

Hahhh, how can I blame life. If in fact that is the norm of socializing in the environment. There are some of them who do not like us but they still monitor how the liking and twists of our lives because it is also part of social life.

I just hope more, that tomorrow I will be back well and recover from the previous situation.

A missed week really makes me less good.

“Wahh, it turned out to be quite tiring as well!” said Sena as she continued her steps towards the campus parking lot.

“How was your day? ” asked Jeno who was already standing next to me.

“Pretty good!” answer's short.

“I hope you are always okay!” jeno said while looking at me worriedly.

“Yeaahh !” my answer is a little self-relief.

“How about your routine?” ask Jeno again.

“Running as usual,” I replied with a slight smile.

“Sorry !” jeno looked down.

“Hmm...lo not wrong in this!” answer me slowly.

“You angry?” jeno asked, looking at me warmly.

“No!” my words are accompanied by a trouser.

“Sorry. I didn't know I was finally going to be here!” jeno said slowly. Because he already knows what is experienced by sena related to their closeness. There are some who don't like that.

“It's okay. I-i understand. But, how should I?” I asked as I looked at Jeno expectantly.

“If you want to get angry, just clear it up. I'm ready to hear it! But one thing you should know See, you're not alone. If you can be more honest than before,” said Jeno sincerely.

“Tak what !. I quite understand your situation. In the future I will be more open again,” I replied.

“There's something you want to say?” tanya Jeno was careful in speaking.

“Many. But, stop!” answer me by breathing out gently.

“Good.  I wish you could be more open to me! We've known See for so long! I know you're not okay. Trust me!” jeno is weakening.

“Hmm... Thanks Jeno is still there for me,” I said.

“Just relax, you don't come here, I'll be awkward now!” jeno said with her signature grin.

“Jeno!!” call slowly.

“Hm?” Jeno looked at me.

“Gue is pretty tired lately. I want to feel like I'm apart from a lot of things, I even cry every time I think about it!” I said a little open.

“Gue hope you stay like this, stay fine as I see lo now,” said Jeno.

“Entahlah. Hopefully I can pass it well,” said I stepped back from the wall back when we talked earlier.

“Gue know you are strong. You just need to rest. I'll find out who the real core of this is!” jeno said as I was about to get into the car to get back home.

"All right, see you again!" I said end the conversation.

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Everything is going as usual. However, there was one thing that seemed to be lacking in the days I went through.

"Yes, Rey never showed up after that incident. What the hell is going on with him?" I murmured slowly while enjoying the warm chocolate in the living room.

"Is he sick?"

"Ah, I don't know maybe he has a lot of business especially he's final semester will certainly be a lot of busy!" I said in the end.

Geck, tok, tok!

"Who the hell?" I walked towards the main door.

Clekk

"Iwana.... Oh, my God, I miss it!" My scream that had grabbed my junior's hand then pulled him strong to enter the house.

"Heheh-I think you've forgotten this handsome man!" aveng Ivan laughed lightly.

"Where the hell is that?" I was sitting comfortably on the sofa.

"Not anywhere is just as busy as college!" Replied Ivan who had drawn some snacks on the table.

"So, this week I keep watching, I know that I'm not going to college!" asked Ivan wonder.

"Well, I don't know how Lo ain't played here in the last week! Where are you going?" my question is full of search.

"That's, I have family business that I can't stay. My parents require me to come!" ivan replied with a look at the television.

"Oh, does that mean you're not going to campus for a few days?" ask again.

"Hm, uh brother! Do you know the latest news from the department?" asked Ivan enthusiastically.

"What news? Big business company news that's hot?" my many.

"Open up, I'm the only one who didn't enter the campus update tuh. Don't-don't be the most famous sister I think is!" ivan mocked.

"Once again my mojokin. I guarantee you'll have a name back!" threaten her with a sharp look.

"So. Becanda. But seriously, it's about Rey tau!" ivan was relaxed.

"wait. Meanin?" my question does not understand.

"According to what I heard. He never appeared on campus, kept his lecturers also on his nyariin. I don't know, what the question is. He was clearly considered out of college. His friends don't know everything either. He's a cake that disappeared without a trace. And that leaves a lot of people confused!" ivan said at length.

"Disappeared what do you mean?" many wonder.

"Just disappear, yeah, that is it! Is big brother not in the news is it the same brother Rey? Brother is quite close to Rey" said Ivan.

"So I never saw him again after that. To this day I have not been told anything. And now you also just found out from lo if he disappeared!" answer's sure.

"Yes, yes, yes. After all, we also do not know how people live in their own way, right? As long as it is still natural and does not bother ya it should be. Better my brother play games now, we haven't been playing games for a long time!" said Ivan, who got up and grabbed my hand to sit on the floor where we used to play games.

We laughed and occasionally sipped warm chocolate beside me while thinking for a moment where Rey was traveling for a long time.

But, seeing and remembering as far as I knew about him, he always gave me news if he didn't have time to see me. Not feeling like the most important person, but so far we've been pretty close as friends and in fact he's always been there for me.

But I don't know, maybe he has a business that can't be left and is in a busy that can't be ignored until he doesn't have time to tell.

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On campus...

"Haii, did morning really come?" greet Selly who has walked beside me.

"Again me. I rarely play at home now. I'm kesel ya!" sulking me.

"Sorry anyway. I've been a serious home kid lately since being lectured for coming home last morning!" selly pressed her lips.

"Where is the story you can go home in the morning? Where are you going?" ask me with the oddity of not believing what he said just now.

"Gue played to the top with my cousin. But on the way home we got lost. Ah, I'm lazy to remember that story!" selly was frustrated.

"Lo's Habit!" I said that preceded his steps.

On the way to the lecture hall...

"Haii!" greet the Senior who is already standing in front of us.

"Hello brother!" My answer.

"Lo Sena, right, who had come with Rey at the top cafeteria?" ask the senior.

"Yes brother. Why ya?" I relax.

"Oh, you know me, my friend Rey remembers?" tanya Bagas assured.

"Remember brother!" Answer smiled.

"Can I just have a minute deck, no more hurry, right?" Tanya Bagas who came accompanied by a guy next to her who also seemed to be Rey's friend.

"Can brother. Not a clock yet!" My answer.

"We're talking in the cafeteria so how comfortable?" Ask Bagas.

"By brother, come on! Afraid to be late too!" Said me who had walked to the cafeteria with Selly who had gone to the lecture room first because he had not finished his task.

The canteen...

"What do you want to order deck?" Ask Bagas kindly.

"Ah, don't take it. Straight away, a little more want to go to college about it!" Answer friendly.

"OK deh. So gini, we're here for nanya about Rey. You know where he's been all this time?" bagas to the point.

"If that's what I don't know, brother. I just heard from adek level yesterday talking that brother Rey again sought it. The last time I saw Rey was in the hospital. After that, I never saw you again!" Say sure.

"Yeah. We think you know where he is. He suddenly lost the news, none of us know where he is!." Said Bagas' Friend beside him.

"Gini yes brother lately is my brother Rey is quite close because it is also a neighbor. But for this I really don't know. Not even Rey's sister ever called me after that incident, which my sister herself also knew at that time!" Reminds me of what happened a few weeks ago.

"La. Gini aja deck, later if Rey contact lo after this, do not forget to tell us also yes!" said Bagas final.

"Okay, brother!" answer's sure.

"Yes, we're back. You also want to go to college! Thanks deck for the time!" said Bagas who had risen and left with his friend.

"Where is Rey? I didn't realize that he hasn't come and called me lately!

Wherever and however you are, I hope you stay well! I realize that everything that has happened is not entirely because of you alone.

And I also know very well that not everyone likes what we have the same, what we reach and maybe even some people beside us are also many who do not agree for them to exist for us.

I hope you just might be busy with some business, I'm not sure if you disappear because something bad happened. Because I know very well you might not be in such a phase!" inner Sena while stepping away towards her goal.