Not Same Again

Worrying about the same thing

"It takes a long time to come back to terms with taste".

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Time is like that. When we want things to go faster, it seems

stay still not moving. But, when he wanted things to go slower, he seemed to run after us non-stop.

"Woahh, understanding that woman is indeed an absolute challenge for men" said Jeno exhaled roughly.

"When you grow up again, you can understand their way of thinking!" his father smiled lightly.

"Unthinkable, still want to live this all. Let this flow by itself like water" Jeno said, sipping his coffee slowly.

"You should know. Not always the water flows to a good place and

calm as a lake. It could be, the water flowed and ended up in a place that was not good and dangerous for him like a ravine. In life, you have to determine your future from now on. Do not follow the course of life's destiny. Although destiny cannot be changed, but we as much as possible try to change that destiny for the good.

"Eitherway. Everything that seems to me now seems too difficult to achieve" said Jeno weakened.

"Maybe the one you hug the most right now is the one that crushes you the most

later. Loosen up, for what is released by force, the pain never

simplistic.

Then fall in love accordingly. Don't go overboard. Everything that

overdoing it is not good. Love it properly and hate it properly. Do not be too love until finally hate, and do not also too hate until finally become love. Maybe you think you fall in love properly, but many people don't understand the definition of being driven by love. Use your heart and brain when you fall in love. So you don't get hurt!" said his father surely while sipping a drink this afternoon.

"Ahh,,, things are getting harder for me to understand!" jeno said frustratedly while ruffling her hair violently.

"Other times more selective in giving the heart, so you don't get hurt anyway.

There is no such thing as friendship in a relationship. When you let your guard down a little, there is

it's likely the person closest to you will stab you in the back first. As such

people you know" his father said again.

"This relationship has been complicated from the beginning. I don't really believe in love myself, I don't want to love someone and end up feeling the pain of being left behind!" jeno at the end.

"Then why did you let him wander around you and do whatever he wanted? Not because of you

just want to prove that love is just a cliche word that has no meaning, right?" ask his father to chuckle.

"Eitherway. I think two people who are bound by relationships are only based on sheer interest, only a sense of mutual need," replied Jeno innocently.

"Yes and that's all you think and you shouldn't feel pain when he's leaving or you're leaving!" said his father must have.

"Indeed he shouldn't feel lost like this right now!" exclaimed his mother who was walking through the room where they were chatting right now.

"Heheh-" his father laughed lightly.

"Never feel important in someone's life. Feel irreplaceable. Feeling that going through a relationship first as a friend will be his last choice. The human heart is easy to change, son!" said his mother again with a little scream from a distance.

"Well!!! Jeno went to the room first Well," said Jeno then went from the place, he seemed to feel very stuck with the words of his mother just now and everything was true.

"Gue is actually good at waiting. I can wait for years to come again. But the thing I was most afraid of had happened, I couldn't wait for you anymore. I used to be the most scared one day when I woke up. You have come a long way and will never come back. Every moment of life is repetitive and predictable.

But, for you who found me in the rubble of the past. Thank you, kindness and all about you changing my description of love.

It is true, the hardest fight is to stay afloat.

Only certain people are able to do that, and in fact I am not able to do that. Sorry I'm See, who can only fight limited now.

I realize when we are not chosen by those we care about to be a part of

her life. I am sure we will feel tremendous pain.

Gapapa, you have sacrificed a lot for me. I just hope more someday so you don't feel the pain of being rejected.

But Lo must also know it will be more painful if you have to survive with someone who actually does not love us the same, right?

Isn't it sometimes honesty will always hurt!

Even so, it is the best for us.

I'm grateful, maybe we'll feel lost, it has to happen. There will be a more precise figure that will be present in life which of course later!" jeno said when he saw the portrait of Sena that became his current wall display.

"You shouldn't think about leaving then, if you're going to be like this," said Bayu, who was unaware of Jeno's presence when he heard everything Jeno said just now.

"When have you been a demon everywhere? And what are you doing on my balcony anyjay?" jeno said astonished by the throw of the pillow that continues to be aimed at Bayu at this time

"Gue has been here a long time. Nyokap Lo ga say what, if I come to Lo!" said Bayu annoyed with the throw of his best friend.

"I didn't say anything!" said Jeno who had taken a place to sit on the sofa on the corner of his balcony.

"Hold on, because no relationship is okay!" say Bayu calm with a distant view.

"There's no more chance. It's all over, bro!" jeno replied smiling meaninglessly.

"Why don't you think about starting over?" asked Bayu with his eyebrows raised.

"I keep fighting if reality doesn't match expectations!" jeno said for sure.

"Can't the human heart change?" say Bayu reassuringly.

"Even until the second I decided to stop even then his heart was still for others!" jeno said slowly.

"I'm sorry bro! I keep telling you to fix it when in fact I do not participate in the race of what you feel. I've tried to understand everything but until this moment I don't understand. You're right, love can't be stretched. If he makes you, he'll come back by himself someday in a different way I'm sure of it!" said Bayu patted Jeno's shoulder gently.

"Lo is not wrong. Maybe it's not time yet.

How was our game delayed yesterday?" jeno said defiantly.

"Get yok!" said Bayu who had entered Jeno's room to prepare for their fight this time.

"Lo ain't changed njer!" jeno chuckled.

"At the end of the day, you will stay and settle down but not as a hope to be the only one. Sometimes life has to be about me too, right? I need time for myself. I realized that for now it might also be in your actual position. You're not wrong about my life See! You just stick to the actual lo line. It's just that I was hoping for more about you. I also realize that love is so, like to be selfish in some circumstances. But, for now sorry for all the confusion and all that happened for no reason according to you! I'm going to fix everything, but not right now.Lo just calm down, you're quite alive and running everything that makes you more meaningful!

See you later Sena, at the best time according to fate. I'll make sure to make up for everything!" jeno in between her smile.