Not Same Again

Make him yours

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Now I'm telling myself, "come on, man,

stay alive. Anything can be lost, gone and left. But, we have to stay alive. We have to stay alive. We have to stay alive. Whatever happens in the future."_Boy Candra's

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Somewhere our existence may not be destroyed. We are just being in the shape of being the best version of ourselves and being prepared to be the best we can be.

We just need to know that human life cannot be exchanged for anything. I think as long as there are people in this world, we will still be alive. There will also be some stupid feelings like this and that.

This time for my situation now is completely in line with the word hlayosorry to strengthen myself "and for yourself, sorry for the long nights with eyes that have difficulty falling asleep, the head that often hurts, he said, sometimes tired of the mind, heartache that is forced to be silenced, physical pain that is difficult to accept. Thank you for working together to always look okay and happy in front of everyone_

Every night is like this, thinking too much about long nights. For many people, nighttime is a time of rest.

I don't know why I feel different. Every night I had to fight first with my mind and many more things. Until I finally got tired and fell asleep in a state I could not define.

Why am I different from the others? I just want a quiet night without thinking about the many things that scare me around every corner of the night.

I may be a lot tired right now.

After careful consideration, from a long time ago I decided to contact someone who never came back after what he left for me and was able to make me unable to control it anymore.

"Let's try to reach him!" exclaimed Sena after successfully reaching for her phone and looking for the contact in question.

It is unexpected if the tone of the telephone connection is connected to the intended number.

"Woahh, after so far. Still stubborn to talk to him. I lost in the end!" said Sena considering he was so stubborn not to contact her again after the events of that year.

On the third ringing finally connected as well and no sound from sebrang.

"Sister!" the first word that came out of Sena's mouth after a few years was missed.

"....." There was no answer just a subtle roar of breath that he could hear and signify that the person was still there and listening to him.

"Woahh, I lost and I admit it's the end!!" sena let go of her breath slowly.

"Why?" ask the guy.

"Gue had just confirmed it lately, after going so far now!" said Sena with a straight look.

"How's it?" ask her while smiling thinly.

"You call yourself stupid, but in every course I can finish well" Sena replied with a slightly sad laugh.

"Smute little boy!" said chuckle.

"Hiiikss,, hikss!" the cry of Sena also broke when she heard his voice and the ridicule that had been missed.

"Don't cry too much, you'll get sick!"said soothing.

"Stop acting like that to me, if you're going to leave me in the end!" exclaim Sena definitely.

"Sorry!" the answer is across there.

"Why did I realize that I wasn't here anymore?" sena sounded sad.

"Nobody knows the day after tomorrow where we're going and how, live your life well and happily!" calm answer.

"Gue can't! Where're you?" said Sena with a sob.

"Not anywhere. Still here and seeing you from afar, why aren't you happy, hm? I fought to be far away and invisible to make you better!" he cried with a smile.

"You'll be fine" he said with a smile.

"Sir Rey,,!!" call Sena a little slowly. Yeah, the person he's talking to right now is the one he used to be and went somewhere.

"Hm?" rey muttered from across.

"G-gu-I, I love someone-" said Sena hanging.

"Since when?" ask Rey slowly.

"Hm?" sena replied a little confused.

"When did you love that guy?" ask Rey gently.

"Since, since he's not the same as me anymore," replied Sena pause.

"Woah, that guy's lucky, unfortunately he doesn't know that a pretty and nice girl like you likes him!" roy smiled.

"Hm. Too bad, isn't it?" Sena said later.

"He's a pity. Why not be honest about how you felt when you were there and with you at the time?" ask Rey to fish.

"I told you, if I hadn't made it in some college, I'd be telling myself stupid now!" sena was a little upset.

"Yeah! Why are you making me laugh now, huh?" rey said, who even laughed.

"Sir Rey!" call Sena again.

"Stop making me laugh more, I bahk-" she said.

"Gue love you brother!" sena said at the end.

"Hm. You know, are you all right?" said Rey.

"Stop asking about my current situation!" sena shouted annoyed.

"Yes, yeah, yeah. Then shall I tell you how I am doing now?" rey asked in a sneer.

"Efface it. Don't call me anymore!" said Sena getting upset.

"Who called me first, um?" rey said the more he was satisfied.

"All right, I'll turn it off!" said Sena.

"Yeah! It's a lash," Rey chuckled.

"Whatever!" sena replied upset.

"Stay alive. Don't cry often.

Don't diet. Don't be lazy to sport. Don't eat noodles often. Don't come home late and don't cook yourself to seafood, hm!" rey said at length.

"All problems will have a way out. Don't give up on what you're experiencing right now. Stay strong as you have seen before. Sometimes you have to fight desperately and stay in your position now to stay good. You'll be fine! Yes, if I have time to call again.  If there is someone who is always there and continues to care no matter how you maintain him and take good care of yourself.

Sorry brother. You can't and can't make you happy in the end!" Rey ended the call.

"Sister!!" said Sena quietly and sobbed.

"Sometimes we have to eliminate someone from our lives. Either he's gone or we're supposed to be gone, either he's missing or we're missing.

In the end I realized as hard as we can keep it, if it's not

his destiny will be lost too. Because there are some conditions that can no longer be adopted. Other than letting it go, leaving it and forgetting about it!" muttered Rey in a very far place and deserved to choose where she should be.

sept _01. 2021