Not Same Again
Evades
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A clear morning, there is nothing special but getting back up, going through the day and coming back home, eating, sleeping and waking up again is always like that.
“Kak banguuun is already noon!!” ivan shouted from behind the door as their room crossed the second floor.
“Oii sis! Not to college? It was so late!” ivan exclaimed as he banged on his brother's door for some reason and where the occupants of the room so as not to open the door.
“What's yelling at you boy? Tau I was early in the morning,” replied Sena who appeared behind the door with an irregular look characterized new wake when she saw the perpetrator of the commotion this morning.
“Heheh, do not shout just call meja earlier,” cengir Ivan who has been tidy.
“Call while yelling you mean? Where are you going early in the morning gini?” sena asked to see the look of the boy in front of her now.
“Gak everywhere just my mood is good today, all you want to go to campus anyway clash again. Oh, forget because I am not as lazy as others,” replied Ivan smiling mockingly.
“Means lo?” said Sena with a sharp look.
“Do not mean anything. Acceleration is ready I am hungry, brother.” Ivan said and whined.
“Children's characteristics, as I am now!” said Sena who had closed the door and headed for the bathroom.
“Yak!! I'm not a kid anymore!!” ivan shouted annoyedly from outside.
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On campus...
“Kakak in old campus?” ivan asked as he received the helmet that Sena was wearing and parked the bike.
“Don't know, I just entered the file to make a list of graduations after going home maybe!” replied Sena who had left Ivan in the parking lot.
“Yeah, meaning we can't go back together there are still extra lecture hours!” exclaim Ivan.
“Let me turn it alone,” replied Sena without looking again.
Ivan also walked down the campus hallway to his college room. While Sena headed to the department room to deliver her files to the department operator, after this it may be just waiting for graduation.
“Excuse me mom, good morning!” said Sena when opening the door of the operator's room.
“Ia. Want to register for graduation?” ask Operator.
“He Ma. Just enter the file, I have registered last day Bu!” said Sena smiling.
“Alright, synch your file,” said the Operator.
“This Mom. Thank you so much for helping me so far!” exclaim Sena with a sincere speech.
“It has become my duty right,” exclaimed the operator chuckled.
“Ia anyway, oh it's Mom if you may know about the graduation list of my generation already a lot is not Mom? You see some of my class friends contact but there is no response from them, whereas I just want to join together to send the files here from yesterday!” asked Sena curiously while smiling.
“Oh, not everyone has sent their files here yet son! Maybe for a while or tomorrow,” replied the operator smiling while tidying up the student files.
“Hm, yes I said ma'am. Thanks again!” said Sena.
“Yes, equally” replied the operator who continued to look at him with a smile as he moved to open the door of the room.
“Eh, son Sena!!” call the operator when Sena is almost out of the room.
“Ia Ma'am, is there something I need to complete again?” asked Sena who turned back.
“No. Are you okay?” ask the operator.
“Hm, i..... good!” sena replied in a little wonder.
“Oh, yes already!” the operator smiled.
“Mother gapapa?” sena asked seeing the smile from the middle-aged woman's face fade a little but continued to look at her deeply.
“Everyone will often see less of us. Many reasons from them to express it, there is fun as for what makes us not feel good. What if your good is bad depends on what they say. Do not be offended by each one of them, will not our names always stink and smell the mouth of those who do not like us? Don't forget you still have yourself!” said the woman while smiling meaningfully.
“Hm, Is mom okay?” ask Sena to worry.
“Yes, I'm fine. You can come out now,” said the woman smiling warmly.
Sena also walked out of the room feeling astonished and confused what the operator said earlier.
“Hahh, it makes me dizzy. But why did he say that?” said Sena still curious.
“Ah, stop. I'd better go to my guidance counselor just to thank her!” ucp Sena stepped into his lecturer's room.
After arriving in the room...
“Excuse me sir!” greet Sena smiled.
“Oh, Sena. How, haven't you finished the test? What business?” ask Mr. Edo briefly because he is a lecturer who is quite killer and does not say much if he does not have interests.
“Oh, that's sir. I'm here to ask for a little time to talk,” replied Sena a little slowly.
“I'm busy. You are straight to the point only!” firmly mr. Edo.
“Good sir. So, I just want to say thank you for guiding and helping me in preparing the final task so far.
Thank you so much for every time you waste free to take care of everything that is relevant to me. Maybe all of my time has been wasted, according to my father, but for me it was amazing and I am grateful for it. Once again thank you and Sorry for all the things that happened during this time,” said Sena lowered her head.
“Gapapa, it has become my duty and responsibility. All students are not just you who are fighting like that. If no one wants to talk about it again please come out because I still have a lot of work that is still piling up!" firmly mr. Edo.
“Good, I'm sorry sir!” sena turned and left.
“In essence believe in yourself. Because your life is about you!” said Mr. Edo who looks focused with some files in his hand when Sena slightly looked behind him.
“Sorry sir. Excuse me!” said Sena and stepped out of the room.
“Why do people look weird today?” sena was confused.
Half an hour has passed....
Here I am, in the canteen alone. Selly didn't seem to come any more they were there but no one joined me. Maybe it's because I'm familiar or something. But the atmosphere was a little bumpy I guess.
When I was sitting relaxed and occasionally playing mobile phones with not disturbed by the whispers around, the canteen could always be the favorite place to give.
“See,” call Selly at the canteen door not to forget there is Ivan beside him as well. But why the atmosphere of the cafeteria became quiet just by the call of Selly, I don't know.
“Oiii, new nongol lo! Why did the boy come to the canteen?” I asked the two people with their looks like they were out of breath, ah it looks like they ran here earlier.
“Hikss, you're all right?” said Selly sobbing while hugging me tightly not to forget Ivan also looked at me with a look of pity.
“Bent in. This is you why you're so weird? Who died?” I asked innocently because of wonder.
“Why? Why don't you even know what happened huh!” selly shouted which almost shocked me.
“You why?” I asked who was standing up and trying to let go of Selly's embrace.
“Nih!” ivan said he handed me his phone.
“Aaan anyway?” I said without waiting I accepted and saw what happened there,
I can see a confession like hot news on campus has even spread since dawn and became a trending news on campus.
Ja. About me of course.
I killed my own mama with the accident that happened, I'm accused of having something to do with Rey who disappeared last year, I'm involved in the case of Ivan's parents' divorce just because it was thought to snatch ivan from them, and I'm with a drug user scandal because there are some photos that are in the post as well, too, yeah I remember that time I took some sedatives beyond the dose, though, and even worse, I was included in the list of students who spent the night at the club and sold themselves because they were too frustrated with life ended up looking for fun there.
Some of the bullying cases on campus with the pictures they took when I hit the senior who said to me at the time included.
No more movement, I can't explain anything. There is pain and tightness in my chest right now.
I'm not even crying!
“Segitnya,,,” my murmur weakened and fell in Ivan's arms now.
I ran out of the canteen, ran and kept running until I got out and avoided the gazes of many people today. They look with hateful eyes at me.
Time could not be turned again, I passed Jeno who was now standing and staring intently at me in front of the parking lot.
There was nothing to say but her beautiful smile looking at me with a look of disgust, and after that she just walked past me and into the campus environment.
I kept staring at every step of his foot that kept on stepping until it disappeared in my vision, and in the end slowly the burden of the body I can not control anymore left the voice of the two people who call me because the rest of them are on my side at this time.
“See, sis!” said Selly and Ivan at the same time and after that I was not aware anymore.
But who can understand well when you are at the lowest point in life. I think there are very few people who would be able to do it and neither me nor them right now are some of those who are not capable of it.
Sounds too dramatic indeed but that's the reality. Everything we go through is too much drama for anyone who hears it.
I went too deep and ended up getting hurt deeper, which is where I realized that in this world, don't trust anyone too much. People are more scary than ghosts.
People can hurt your feelings, they also have passion and emotion and that's what makes them look so scary.
But when you see the days that I went through seemed ordinary and natural, I lived and did not fully depend on anyone.
I live a lot and enjoy what I do in any case when I have no place to share.
This is when I came back to understand that ‘those who don't like you will still hate you no matter how good you are, and vice versa those who like you don't need a reason for it. They just like you with your version that looks from their corner’.
The time I spent was just a normal one, then why could life be this sadistic for a weak girl like me?
Would I live and deserve to be treated like that?
Mama who left and will not return, Papa who chose not to go home, my friends also slowly disappeared and changed with time.
“Why.... why... why should I??” I shouted at the beach which was already deserted from visitors because it was almost dark and there was no light now.
“And why am I this sick now?
Where am I that strong?” I murmured in tears when I felt so claustrophobic now.
“Maybe I deserve like this,” said I weakened and sat on the beach.
Sometimes that's the reality. Not everyone can understand as complex and chaotic as what we are now.
_13 August. 2021 _:)
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Woahh, don't feel yes. After spending time with the long fall of the last year, all things we do from home turned out to be 17san now.
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