Not Same Again

Uang

'Love is sometimes this painful, reversing our feelings and succeeding in making us fall and paralyzed at the same time after knowing she is no longer with us and realizing we are dear to it'.

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Sena Pov's

You won't know how hard it is to be me who can't afford to say no above all my inability to prevent

you went that day.

It is true that you still continue to imprint on every memory even though it has never existed and returned.

If only at that time, I had been in a position to be aware of how I should be, maybe today we no longer stand and alone on the side of our lives now.

It turns out that love is so sadistic for some, the proof is that it is able to make me fall and not defined my current condition. If only I could choose, could I just stick to my past self? Before getting to know many things and just focus on one goal that life only needs to be lived.

Wherever you are today, you may not be replaced because in the end I realize you are my first love and I am as loving as this now.

"Hufhh. I think the hardest part of life is how we are no longer able to compete with several opponents in various angles, whether in terms of learning, organizing, doing business and so on even about managing strategy. But, it turns out that the hardest thing I just understood was how to master myself when the heart and logic were no longer in the same direction.

While living there were many things I made, I passed, I understood, I noticed and many. And today it's true that I gave up on the heart, it looks complicated as I define it. How not, when I was with him with all his existence and all his efforts to remain and remain there for every side of my life story. I let it pass. After that, it was like feeling lost when I found out that I was that dear.

From the beginning I thought I might just get used to his existence which was able to keep me going and keep remembering him. But, it turns out that I fell while he was still there and was with me only I didn't realize it.

Woah, why do regrets always come at the end?

This question is still unanswered for me to date!" muttered Sena while contemplating many things that were missed.

"alright. Let's go back well for a while while trying to improve ourselves!" Sena said from her daydream.

"For lo, who still continues to imprint in every memory and in every taste. Sorry to be so nervous at some point. Sorry to be tired just to stay afloat. Also sorry for every backrest I got but I wasted it. If only I could be given a chance. I'd be a little selfish about us. I want you to come back and be with me, sitting while enjoying a warm coffee either in the morning when you visit home or in the afternoon when you invite me to enjoy the twilight in some places we have stopped. I won't be bored with all that. You can come anytime you want. I really need you, you should know 'I've fallen too deep' for every taste and every moment of being with you from the start, '" Sena's inner self in making hope.

The Sena Pov End

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While elsewhere...

He was sitting in his usual chair. Nothing had changed just his slightly different existence, maybe he was just tired and there were a few more things that were troubling his mind at the moment.

"Last, thank you for never being angry even though you are tired at that time. Thank you for always smiling despite being careless with all my being.

I realize there is a certain time someone will give up, because realize as hard as he fights in the end we will never be in the same direction.

Hopefully someday at some point of awareness, we finally accept that not reaching you, not having you is also okay," said Jeno smiled bitterly.

"True, sometimes if we get too close to someone, we'll lose him. My current mistake may be, why should we choose to separate if from the beginning we have chosen this path? But, gapapa because in the end we will still decide to stop, because we also need time for ourselves, too" he added.

"Jeno!!" yelled at the front door.

"Aiss. The boy was always yelling like he was in the woods!" jeno said annoyed and went to silence her best friend's mouth.

"Hi Jeno!" said Bayu with his trademark grin while laughing crisply at the death gaze of his best friend now.

"Aren't I guilty of murder here?" jeno flat said.

"Ah, you can make the candle!" said Bayu slightly chuckled.

"I'm not kidding anymore!" jeno said with a deadly look.

"Yes!!! How long are you gonna replace that fucking look with a little smile?" said Bayu a little tight because he was upset.

"More you are now!" jeno sternly looked at her horror.

"Jeno, come out yok! Long time away from home!" Get bored.

"Where?" ask Jeno at the end. True, they have long not enjoyed youth with freedom because they are not students anymore.

"Are we going somewhere we've never been?" said Bayu slightly raise his eyebrows.

"Lo's right. We have to take a vacation and this time we play it must be far away!" Jeno is supportive.

"OKAY. Let's just prepare some needs!" Take Bayu to his best friend and run out to prepare for their departure quickly.

"Huh, you fucking kid. The holiday turn is fast!" decih Jeno stared at the back of her best friend who almost disappeared.

sept _06. 2021