Not Same Again

The sweet end

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'' what kind of help do you really want from me ? ''

Nana handed me a small handbag .

Han accepted and directly peeked at the contents.

His eyes defended disbelief, seeing two rupiah chips inside.

Han looked at Nana questioningly.

'' This is the last money I have. I robbed him from Bian Nana chuckled .

Same with Han. She shook her head to hear a wife confessing to taking her husband's own money and calling it robbing.

'' I told you about my sister Siti, right ?

Anything can happen later. And I just want to be on guard.

They suddenly asked for money again.

That's why I asked for your help.

I don't have an ATM I can use there .Even if I keep it saved by mak Siti ..

I'm afraid they'll force it like that time.

So, I need you to keep this money until I need it.

Because this is my preparation for the moment I need the most ''

'' ... ''

'' I don't know if I can work there or not.

Therefore, I hope to be able to save and use it when there really is no other choice ''

'' ... ''

'' I believe in you, Han ''

Han looked at the contents again.

So trust Nana to him.

Then back he straightened his head, looked at Nana and nodded. Marks.

'' and one more thing. It's about Bian ''

Han sighed.

'' he knows where I am going. . ''

'' then ? ''

'' if one day he comes to see you, don't say anything about this ''

'' Nana ''

'' I think I have enough of everything I want to tell you.

I may rarely be able to contact you.

And the number I'll use later, that's all you know.

Therefore, if he finds out and calls me.

Then it was definitely you who told him.

And if so, I had to decide everything.

I mean communication with you ''

'' are you threatening me ? ''

'' em. Consider it that way ''

Han chuckled. Who needs who. Why was he the one being threatened.

And the funnier thing is that he again responded to Nana's request.

'' I just want to be calm during my pregnancy .

If I had heard or seen her, I would have remembered the treatment of my mother and Oma .

Even though it wasn't his fault, but still my heart ached considering he who was indifferent to their deeds ''

'' Na . You know you can't stay there forever, right ? ''

Nana nodded.

'' someday I will go home . But I don't know if I can go back to him or not.

It all depends on him.

Is he still faithfully waiting for me or not ''

'' I don't know how you think. You said you loved her but why go leave her ''

'' didn't I tell you, the reason I can't survive is because those two people are always between us .

Just like Bian. My priority is not him.

But child .

If indeed we are still a match, like anything later we can definitely get back together again.. ''

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Han remembered the time Nana left a few months ago.

During this time, although rare but Nana always send him a message or occasionally he will call to exchange news.

When Nana said that she was working while she was pregnant, Han was concerned to tell Bian.

He could not imagine how the little pregnant body worked every day by pushing a cart into the market and standing for hours, serving the buyers .

Han remembered the Laras. Watching for himself how the sister experienced a variety of complaints during pregnancy alone, he could not bear.

Especially if he saw firsthand what Nana was doing there.

If not because of his promise to Nana who has already been able to. Maybe by then he had gone to Jakarta and met Bian and said everything.

And maybe , this is the time. He could no longer hold himself back. He will try to straighten out the problems between the husband and wife . And hope they can get back together again soon.

For the child who has now been born.

Han raised a clenched hand .He knocked on the door of the room in front of him.

'' hey '' said Bian when he opened the door.

Han smiled.

'' where should we talk ?

In the lobby or.. ''

'' it's better inside. Because we're going to need a calm susana Han replied quickly.

Bian opened the door and let him in.

Two men with no height difference were sitting face to face.

'' I have something to show you first.

But before that, you have to accept whatever I say and also what I will be asking for later said Han who looks to reach into the front pocket of his pants and pull out his smartphone.

'' the max ? ''

'' I ask you not to make a single sound.

And don't ask until you've seen it yourself ''

Although hesitant, but because it was filled with curiosity Bian also nodded in agreement.

Han then unlocks on his phone screen and is seen calling one of the numbers from his contact list. Han raised his hands parallel to his head, as his call continued to connect.

'' heiiiii.

Bian who was sitting immediately jumped to his feet. Almost as he approached, Han shook his head faintly. A gesture that reminded him of what he had not said long ago.

Bian took a breath and sat back down.

'' how ? '' Han changed his facial water to look like normal.

'' finally last night.'' sounded a sigh then continued to speak.

Han smiled broadly, acting as if he was enthusiastic .Sometimes his eyes look at the man sitting in front of him.

With both elbows stuck on his knees, Bian seemed to listen carefully to the voice of his wife who was chattering.

The longer he listened to what Nana was telling him, Bian seemed to start to fidget.

Han doesn't know exactly what Bian thinks.

But looking from the palms that were now fused together and squeezed firmly . Han knows, Bian tried to hold back .

Several times Han was heard tucking in a word or two to respond to Nana whose mouth seemed to be unable to stop talking .

Han stole another look at Bian who was still unmoved by his unchanging position .

Han recalled the morning Nana sent him a message, telling him she was in the delivery clinic.

Since dawn he has been feeling heartburn and begins to experience regular contractions.

And all day yesterday, Han who was worried several times called to ask about Nana's situation. Although the calls he made were not always answered, Nana did not stop sending him messages. Until late afternoon, Nana said she would soon enter the room to prepare for childbirth.

By midnight Han got word that Nana had given birth to a baby boy normally.

Nana even sent him a vidio and a photo of the child.

Makes Han feel sad.

It shouldn't be him who's Nana's place of happiness.

Because after all , Bian is actually more entitled to know if he has become a parent.

The father of the new son he now knows where he is.

''it feels amazing.. '' Nana ended her story that sounded so excited.

Han broke his daydream.

He looked in admiration at Nana.

The women do have an amazing advantage. How not. Just like when Laras gave birth a month ago.

The pain that had to be held made them cry and then ended with a shout.

Han didn't know if he hadn't seen it himself.

It turns out that a woman has to go through the suffering of pain to be able to bring new life to this world.

And the culmination of all the pain was over, as if it was meaningless and changed should also be a smile they were happy signs.

The tiny figure that they managed to remove seemed to be a reliever of all the pain that had enveloped .

The thing that he had seen on Laras , also seemed to radiate from the face of Nana at this time.

Though yesterday when they did a vidio call, Nana's face looked pale with eyebrows almost met and a shrunken forehead. An expression that showed how much he was holding back the pain of contractions.

'' oh, you don't work ? ''

'' work. I took my employer to the hotel.

Now he's meeting in the lobby.

I was told to wait in the room ''

'' oooo.. ''

'' o, yes . Where's the hotshot ?

Look at dong.. ''

Nana also pointed the camera at the baby who was beside her.

Han stood up, looking at Bian with his chin up and moving his neck once to the side. A gesture for the man to immediately move and stand next to him.

Han then set the camera to move to the back. The image that once showed his face is now turning to what is around him.

This he did so that Bian could see what was plastered on the screen of his phone without Nana knowing.

" lo, how come the camera moved to the back ?''

'' yes, I want to look at you the atmosphere of the room I occupy ''

Nana frowning. Han's attitude was somewhat suspicious according to him.

Without him noticing, if Bian was looking at him with eyes barely blinking.

At first glance Nana's face is visible, but the camera highlights a tiny figure wrapped in diapers patterned teddy bear blue.

Bian turned his neck slowly at Han . His mouth was open, ready to ask questions. But Han shook his head. Bian had to hold back.

'' Han's voice made the two look at the phone screen.

Bian then shifted away and Han set the camera back to the front.

'' how is it ?''

'' how what is it ? ''

'' the hotel room ? Bagusan ? ''

'' what, the hell . Basic unclear ? '' Nana pitched cetus.

Han laughed a little. Looks like the pretext worked. The look on Nana's face no longer showed suspicion.

'' young first, yeah. I want nyuin first.. ''

'' send me another video.. If you can vidio he again cry.

Nana turned back.

Suspicion is approaching. Still, he nodded in approval sign.

' tut' call ends.

' bruk ' Bian dropped his big body on the sofa.

He looks like a dazed man. His two eyes moved to and fro as if searching for something . He closed his eyes as he inhaled and held them for a few seconds . Then he exhaled slowly.

What he had heard and seen just now he had never expected before.

Moments struggling with a million questions in his mind, Bian straightened his body.

'' it-it-it.. '' Bian was unable to continue his words because suddenly his tongue felt funny .

Han nodded. He understood even though Bian hung his sentence.

'' yes, Nana is pregnant. Not long after you're home from Canada ''

'' tap-tapj he said ..he came that month.. '' Bian is rotating the memory. It is still clear in her memory when Nana said her moon guest came when they had just set foot in the airport .

'' at first he thought so too. But it wasn't.

Nana was shocked to find out she was pregnant .

And what he experienced was flek. Signs are not good in the early days of pregnancy.

Plus he often felt pain.Nana was even given a booster drug content.

And the main factor causing it all is stress.

Nana experiences a lot of stressful things and makes her uncomfortable because of the treatment of your mother and Oma.

And you are also the cause.

You don't really care about him, and think he can understand the state of your family.

Nana can't take it anymore.

When he needs someone who can understand him, the person is actually completely unreliable.

Therefore, not without reason Nana was forced to make a decision to leave.

Including not telling you.

He said you didn't want to have children . And that's because you obey what your family says.

You were so worried about your Oma and didn't even notice her anymore.

You don't prioritize it.

You put the feeling aside.

And your family first.

So Nana concluded, there would be nothing different even if you knew she was pregnant.

And that all makes the burden of his mind increase. Nana doesn't want anything to happen to her womb.

He did not want to lose the baby in his womb.

So, Nana thinks if it's better to lose you .

Because she needs calmness to be able to live her pregnancy well ''

Bian.

'' looks like your family didn't say everything ''

'' ... ? '' asked through the eyes.

'' it means that there are two things they know and it's not for what reason they didn't tell you ''

'' ... ''

'' first about Nana's pregnancy. And secondly about Nana's feelings for you.

You must not know that Nana loves you too, right ? ''

'' ... ''

'' just like you. Nana has also long harbored her feelings for you.

Why didn't he say it, because he misunderstood. Thought you were still and thought of him as a friend.

Even after you got married, he still thinks that everything you do is the same as when you were in office.

Even I do not understand how you can misunderstand it like this ''

Han looked at the man who was now bowed . Bian must have been overcome with regret and was blaming himself for what happened.

He who is not sensitive enough to not realize if he has ignored the wife and considers everything has gone well .

Han stood up. He has said and told everything.

Feels relieved.

He intended to leave but Bian asked him to stay a little longer.

There's something Nana's husband wants to say.

" after the wife it is now the husband's turn to ask for help "

After hearing what Bian had to offer in return for his help to Nana, Han, who had yet to decide whether to accept it or not, continued to leave.

Because he has other responsibilities that are waiting for him. He must be ready to work.

It had been three months Han worked as a private driver of one of the Regional officials .

Although he does not have to stay and is always there beside the employer, but Han is required to standby and come whenever needed.

Upon Han's arrival at home, he greeted his mother, sister and father warmly.

Since giving birth, the attitude of Baras slowly began to change. And that change is something to be very grateful for.

Laras no longer spoke harshly and his attitude became softer .

All that can not be separated from the prayers, efforts and support of his mother and brother who never gave up and was always there for him.

Han who was preparing to leave looked at the three members of his family who were now the encouragement and the main reason he had to work so hard.

It's not easy being a man with responsibilities like that.

Who should support and pay attention to his mother and sister. It is growing now for Riska, her daughter.

These three women are currently the most valuable things in his life.

Even if juxtaposed with Nana, she would definitely still put her family first. She loves and wants to live with the woman she loves.

That's why he never judged Bian.

Because he is aware, if he is in the same condition.

Have women who he must take care of and he pays attention, not only in material terms but his soul and body are also always provided for them.

" what if later the woman I made the wife does not fit the criteria of mother-in-law ?

Or Laras does not like and always looking for a cause with him? Or- "Han's mind is so unreasonable because it is too washed away in the household problems of Nana and Bian.

He was afraid to think about marriage.

Han was already preparing on the motorbike whose engine he had turned on. Once again he looked at the three faces sitting on the porch of the house while joking.

Maybe I shouldn't get married ?

Instead of later I get dizzy because I can't choose to prioritize which of them ?

Han laughed to himself.

On the way to his master's house, he is imagined to be his first love.

The once deep and passionate taste slowly began to recede and fade.

Once, what he felt towards Nana was more concerned and caring . But no longer expect to melt let alone have the woman again.

She has let go of Nana and wants the woman to be happy only with her husband, Bian.

Because from the beginning they loved each other.

And it seems like they are destined to be together. Han was sure of that.

It's only a matter of time to prove it.

And Han wanted to be his witness.

Witness their story that will surely end sweetly.