Not Same Again

A difficult feeling to interpret

Jeno POVs

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Two days later....

There are many activities that always refrain from being able to go anywhere or not being able to do the things we want to do. No one can live freely without thinking about how the future can happen as expected.

One way to turn the future into what you hope for is to work hard to get to that line. That's how I prepare for that future. I think work is the most important thing in life.

I can guarantee the people I love can live well in the future by the way I work hard today.

Because I believe "in life some of us will work hard to see the sights. Others work hard to be a sight. I hope that no matter where we go, there will be a hopeful sky before us" _Kun NCT.

If I was yesterday an object that always attach importance to the work of any thing. Unlike today, there is something big that is troubling my mind.

I have to really meet him now, so that I can experience peace at work.

I admit, in the last few years our relationship has not been good. I admit and realize I am a figure who is still concerned with ego until forgetting he is actually also one of the fragile creatures that I need to take care of and I give back.

From the beginning, I realized. I loved and loved at the same time I had to hate him at that time. But, so far when I've spent some time pondering, he's not entirely wrong over some past events.

"Ahhh, I seem to have to meet him and should be able to for today!" I said and got up from my chair this afternoon.

"Where are you going, sir?" ask my secretary as I pass the front room.

"Back home!" answer's short.

"But, in 15 minutes there will be a final meeting for today sir!" he held my footsteps.

"Cancel it. I was having some sudden business," I replied casually and passed away.

Arriving at his house....

"Eh, son Jeno! Please enter!" the greeting from Im's aunt welcomed my arrival at the house. Yeah, he's one of those people who knows exactly how many times I came and came home when I was here last year.

"Ah, sorry to interrupt the bustle bi!" I answered and stepped into the living room where I was sitting a few days ago.

"So soon, son, I'm gonna make you a drink!" He said and walked out from before me.

While waiting, I slightly loosened my gaze once again in this room. I am not tired of looking at this room.

The question is why does this room feel so different? What Sena is not as simple as before, to the point that the display in this room is luxury and elegant items from the urn even to the paintings of some famous painters.

I'm a little confused by this rapid change now. Has this 2 years without me being with him been a lot of changes that I have gone through?

Well, it feels silly indeed if I come back and expect back all is still the same as before.

"Hm, surely kiddo Jeno is a little confused, is it the same layout?" aunt Im asked me to break my daydream because maybe she saw me still not used to the state of this house.

"Yes. I was a little surprised to see him from a few days ago here, to this day heheh," I chuckled.

"Actually we just can't let this living room look empty without any displays, so Ivan was inspired to put these things here. After all, not too many people have been here often after these past few years!" he said a little slowly.

"Lho, isn't Reza always coming back at the end of the month?" I was a little curious.

"Well, if that's the case, I don't know much. Because I myself also just started working again after a month ago! But according to what I heard Mr. Reza has never come home from 2 years ago," he said with a light smile.

"Owh, is the display that previously accompanied Bi? You know as far as Jeno yes, Sena not too like tuh wah to gini," said I a little curious because it is the reality as it is.

"It's the hell, aunt only heard from den Ivan if the goods had been moved to the same warehouse non Sena before leaving. Aunty also fit here the room was empty that way," said aunt Im explained, but I was a little confused by what he said just now

"Huh? Instead of-" his words were cut short by the arrival of this other boy.

"Eh, Bang Jeno!" ivan said a little surprised at my existence here.

"Hi bro! From college?" Ask pleasantries.

"Yes Bang. It's old?" ivan asked with a slightly flat look but forced to a little welcome according to my current judgment.

Naturally, if he as a brother from Sena behaved so to my presence. Anyone would do so if they knew and saw clearly how their brother was hurt.

If explained in detail my status when returning to this house maybe, I am a human who already has no shame, he said, I am also a selfish human being who has left but does not want to lose.

In fact, what happens is like that. I'm not evading, I'm wrong. I'm evil. I'm not a good guy for Sena but back I want to remind you I'm the most selfish human being now. Who came back and hoped to be accepted again.

However, what my mistake this one can be forgiven and come back good. Let's see what happens in the future. I obviously don't want to lose anymore. I want to fix it. I want to change for him. I want to be serious about my relationship. I want to give him certainty even though it may be too late.

I'm not giving up again.

"Gue not long ago. What's the end job?" I asked for a little pleasantry to liven up this awkward atmosphere. I was the one who felt awkward.

"Current Bang. What's the need here Bang?" the question is unceremonious.

"Ah, I just want to play here anyway. I haven't been here in a long time either" I replied awkwardly.

"I don't have time to play from now on. I'm so busy!" said flat.

"Eh, yeah. I also just stopped by doang. I didn't see Sena, did I?" ask me in the end.

"Don't you want to see him again?" he said cynical and flat.

"Ah, yes. I've been thinking about this for a long time. I've pondered that too. I understand the problem and I want to fix it!" I said in the end.

"For what?" the cold look of the boy I can feel right now.

"Gue nyesal Van's. That's why I want to fix it and start over" I replied with a slight smile.

"Why do I ask you?

To make him fall back and get sicker again? Or to come back to water the salt with the wound already deeper?" the sarcophagus is flatter and expressionless.

"Gue's wrong. I am very nyesel. These two years have been enough for me to realize Van!" I said down and did not know what else I should say to make his sister believe the same sincerity I now.

"Stop ajat! Don't come here again!

I did not like you since when I stretched your shoulders getting away from him on the beach at that time.

I don't want her to be sicker than that. So, just live like yesterday!" he said flat without looking me in the eye though, even though he knew I had been staring at the face of a boy who no other than not was my junior. I understand he is holding onto his anger at the moment. He didn't even call me with Brother again as our conversation grew late.

(That forgot their meeting when Jeno chose to give up and leave, could reopen Chapter 28 Vacation) ;)

"Yes. I'm going home but not to stop. I even just wanted to start. Can I see Sena?" ask me in the end.

"Lo forgot, he doesn't even know you anymore? Lo who? And what do you try? Go ajalah's. I don't have time either!" The final cannot be sued.

In the end I chose to give up and will return tomorrow after everything is cold and can be discussed well.

"Yes, I'm back. I'm here again tomorrow!" Said the one who stepped towards the main door.

"Saranin cave. Don't waste your precious time just to get here. Because everything will never happen in accordance with your expectations. Or me." Said Ivan who managed to make me stop a little without turning his head and then stepped away.

I'll assume this, it's natural for Ivan to be angry with me. He has the right to be angry or even the right to hit me. But I've established myself to come back tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow again until I can see and talk to the person I miss.

The Jeno POV End