Best Defense

Apologising.

...Sean Danial Warner POV's....

"He lives in Alpha Tower eighth floor unit 811, sir. Two nannies and two domestic assistants also live there with him. Zulhadi, one of her college friends who helped her get the apartment, and my guy said yesterday that her ex-husband had come to take her son, but didn't go inside."

I'm nodding. "What's the activity?" manya curious.

Joe shakes. "He's never been seen out since he's been there."

I leaned my back against the sofa backrest in my study while breathing heavily. It's Franda's third day out of the hospital, and I haven't seen her since. I really lost my mind facing it. He's too stubborn.

I wanted to persuade her to go back home, but my mother-in-law said it was better to let her go for a while. He certainly knows more about the nature of his son, and I have no reason to argue. No matter how much I want to be with him, it won't calm down if Franda doesn't want that.

I love her and I trust her, but her way of thinking again ruins our relationship. I don't care if he's mad at me because he deserves to be angry, but not in this way. He should have been able to act more mature.

It's not the first time she's been acting like this since we got married, avoiding everyone, even she doesn't want to meet her nanny. He seemed to want to escape from us. Sam tried to reach her many times, but Franda never answered her phone. He returned to Queensland yesterday afternoon.

"Sir, my guy says he's heading to the hospital with his friend." Joe's voice rips my daydream.

I nodded, then stood up and rushed straight to the hospital. I need to meet and talk to him.

***

I put my feet into the hospital area, circling every hallway until I reached the end of the corridor that leads to the nursery and that's where I saw it. He was standing, his back was against the wall, his eyes were closed with his head looking up while one of his hands rubbed his chest. He's calming down.

I was tormented to see her like that, I wanted to hug her and bring her back home so I could take better care of her. But Franda won't, at least not yet.

I was still standing looking at him for a while, shadowing the sentence I had thrown at him the last time we met. I don't regret having said that, For God's sake, I just want him to open his mind. But maybe I'll regret it if he doesn't come back with me again.

I rubbed my face and stretched my hair. I was like a fool for being dumbfounded for so long, until I finally stepped closer to him. My heart immediately thumped hard and my breath hunted. "Franda.." I croaked.

"South..." His voice was soft and sounded like it was not his own voice, too hoarse. I really made her cry so hard.

She's speechless. Tears rolled at his temple and in an instant broke my heart. He did not speak anymore.His hands were too trembling... It's hurt my heart enough. I can't see Franda destroyed. She's just a fragile woman, and I should be there to accompany her and strengthen her. I approached her and immediately grabbed her trembling body. "I'm sorry, Franda." I muttered in his ear.

He was also crying on my chest. His voice was so heartbreaking, it made me curse myself even more for being so a jerk to hurt him. I let her cry for a while, until she calmed down, until she pulled away from me.

"Is it better?" He nodded but did not look at me. His head was weak. I turned my eyes to my son who looked so adorable behind the glass wall. He was writhing with his thumb sinking in his mouth. "She's so pretty, Franda. I printed it well." I said jokingly.

She chuckled softly, then turned around and followed her gaze at Lily's tiny body. "Yes" she replied briefly.

I took a deep breath and tried hard to see Franda's wet face. He's hurt, and so is my heart if he finds out. I was tormented every moment thinking about it. My heart broke when I woke up and did not find him next to me. My mind was always filled with her beautiful and wonderful self.

Suddenly he looked up at me, the look was so sharp and terrible. "I thought you understood what I said back then, Sean. But it turns out I was wrong, you can't appreciate me at all." the snoring was soft, desperate. A cloud filled his darkened eyes.

I looked at him with a confused feeling, while he spoke again. "He's also my son, I didn't give birth to him just to be your son."

I swore in my heart and brushed my face, completely unaware my words might offend him. Really, I didn't mean it that way. "Franda, you're wrong to catch..."

"Don't dodge, Sean," his voice trembled and was so poignant. "That's the real you. You always thought I was stupid. I've never meant anything to you." it's a fiery blow. His shoulders and lips trembled withstanding anger.

"Franda," I softly called out his name. My head was bowed for a while because I felt ashamed for hurting her heart. Again and again a reality jolts me. Franda was a fragile woman, and I always destroyed her.

"I'm done." said Franda suddenly until I immediately raised my head to look at her confusedly. All my body was tense and tears were so urgent they wanted to come out of my eyes. I can't afford another farewell.

"Franda, please," I asked him.

He spoke with trembling. "Have you ever realized your mistake, Sean? Just once, think about what I said."

I looked down again, both of my hands clutching the edge of the glass frame as if to smash it. But my voice was gentle and coaxed on Franda. I understood his anger, and now I have to make him understand that I'm really apologizing. "I beg your pardon, Franda. My mind's fucked up because you just left me, I can't afford to part with you."

Franda took a rough breath and her shoulders shook. "But it doesn't obscure what you've been doing all this time. I've always believed in you even though you've covered things up from me many times, I'm not this angry with you, Sean." Franda's tears finally came back. "I've always forgiven you, and you've always repeated it again. It's not enough to hide your problems, now you're even covering up something that's really important to me. It's about my life, Sean. Do you know that?"

The silence again felt excruciating between us. I shut my mouth tightly while Franda was breathing trembling. I just realized my mistake was that big, and she deserves to be mad at me. "I'm sorry, Franda." That's all I can say.

He snorted cynically. "sorry. If the word had a sharp and murderous side, then people would think twice about making a mistake." he said scathingly and sharply.

My eyebrows are tightly wrinkled and my head really hurts. I looked at Franda, again begging her to forgive me. But he didn't say anything. He just looked at me. Desperation was clearly visible in his eyes. He's broken, and I caused it.

Franda already wanted to step up, but I held her back. Before he gets crushed and leaves me, I want to try to convince him once again. "Franda, please don't leave me. Please, honey..." Franda looked at me in disbelief. I grabbed her and kissed her forehead, swiping my body against her. "You're everything to me, Franda. You're everything."

Franda didn't respond to me. His heart must be very broken now. I would also be crazy if he doubted my abilities. All he needs is trust, and I can't give it to him. I should have given him a chance and just supported him from behind. But without me realizing my fear made me even more selfish. Franda just needs support.

I still clutched Franda's body tightly. My lips pressed against the top of his head, I smelled the scent of his hair, his body, as deep as possible into my chest. "What do I do to make you forgive me, Franda?"

I heard him breathing in front of my chest. I felt him inhaling the scent of my body, which made him a little relieved, yet still mixed with anger. "I don't know what to say, Sean" he said later. "For now it's better we're like this. I'll calm down while fixing things up, and you need to calm yourself down too." His tone was firm and I can't argue anymore.

I finally decided to silence her mouth with my kiss. I know he was happy when I kissed him. I was also so addicted every time our breath met. Until I forgot that we were in the hospital and someone messed up my battery.

"Yes God! What are you doing in front of those babies?"

Franda pulled her face quickly from me, and we turned to the source of the voice. Mia with her disguise mode was glaring in disbelief while shaking her head. "Please control your desires, or at least find a more appropriate place to make out."