Best Defense

The full of love.

Thunder boomed in the sky that turned black. I could watch it from my seat with Sean on the sofa in our room. Sean was reading some work-related e-mails through his phone and next to his arm I used as a pillow. My heart is so calm and happy tonight as Sean proves he's really honest about Yola.

Yolanda Riyadi's. Last afternoon, Sean asked me to meet him to talk about their matchmaking problem which was actually just a misunderstanding. A few years ago, Papa Yola helps Sean overcome the problems that occur in his company and at that time he tells the man that he will look after Yola until anytime as a thank you for the help of the man. But he misunderstands Sean's intentions, then when he is very sick since a year ago, he asks Sean to marry Yola.

I honestly understand what the man meant by asking Sean to marry his daughter. As a parent, of course, he wants his daughter in the hands of the right person to take care of him. And Sean is indeed the right man for any manita. He's too perfect to just leave it alone.

Since our meeting this afternoon, I admired Yola for the first time. She's a good girl though sometimes her attitude is annoying when it comes to spoiling with Sean. But I let it go for now, because I haven't seen anything threatening from him. Yola was just a little girl who was forced to follow her Papa's will, and she herself already had a lover. He even brought his girlfriend when he met us last afternoon.

My eyes were still staring out through the glass wall while my body was trembling from the gripping lightning, also trembling because I had a very handsome man beside me. "It looks like it's going to rain first today" Sean reached out to put his phone on the nightstand and turned to me. "You afraid of lightning?" He noticed a squeeze of my hand on his shirt as a loud sound of lightning struck the top of one of the buildings not far from where we lived.

The warmth that radiated from Sean's eyes made me smile and feel safe. "Yes." My cheeks turned hot. "But I'm not afraid anymore because you're gonna hold me all night."

Sean's hand squeezed my hand. His gaze turned sideways, staring at the black sky like what I felt just a moment ago. My heart felt upside down, thick and full of worry, but I managed to spill it so that I now felt relieved. It was even more relieved that Sean was with me, lying with me, and smiling at me. When I was bitterly staring at the sudden lightning flash in the distance, his hand swept over my hand.

I looked up, looking at Sean's face until my heart shook. Her jawbone was beautiful, thin and rough feathers grew around her mouth, chin, and jaw, and I was so crazy about that sexy, curly look. When that face sank in my stomach like it was a few nights ago, my skin was tingling and goosebumps. The sensation is very burning.

But now he pursed his lips, took a deep breath, and was a little restless. He looked at me with a regretful look. "Franda, I'm really sorry for hurting you."

He shut up again after saying that. His countenance was now tense and agitated, he let out a heavy sigh as if I had just pierced his heart with a knife. "I was totally devastated when you said you wanted to be alone. I'm afraid you're punishing yourself again." Sean clucked, his jaw twitching. "But since you're such an amazing woman, you're willing to face those feelings, and stick with me."

I smiled and put my face on his neck. My hand rubbed his chest that was pounding hard for me while my side of the foot hit his big, muscular thigh. "Actually I'm just like any other woman out there, I'm an ordinary woman, Sean." I raised my face to look into her eyes that were already glancing at me. "I can be jealous and doubtful, angry and restless. But my love for you is greater than all that."

Sean's jaw gritted. He pulled my hand gently to kiss her. "Actually I'm the lucky one, Franda. I feel alive because of your special love."

I bit my own lips, then pretended to sigh to tease her. "Yes, but Yola really messed up my mood."

Sean's mouth is curved sexy, naughty, as well as intimate. We looked at it for a while until I felt my heart about to break apart because Sean was indeed very charming. "Franda," his snoring rasped at me. "I'll make it up to you. I promise I'll make it up to you."

I replied to him while joking. "But my feet are not too strong to face you. Unless you're gonna make me lie in bed forever."

"And when that day comes, make sure you have enough energy because I won't let you go."

I laughed at his temptation. "I've always been strong against you, babe. Right now only my legs are holding me back from attacking you."

Sean laughed again, his laughter really manly and riveting. Then she clucked at me and I really wanted to kiss her lips. "What do I do to silence you, Franda? Why are you so daring to challenge me, hm?"

I shuddered in horror at her suddenly heavier voice and her eyes narrowed. "Maybe you should fuck me somewhere else. We need a new atmosphere, baby."

His voice suddenly changed, like he was trying to say something. "Actually, I've bought a house with a view of the forest and the lake as you said in the basement back then. It's not too far from our honeymoon."

I raised my head and looked deeply into his eyes. "My God, why didn't you tell me this before, Sean? I want us to go there."

Sean replied calmly, with glittering eyes. "Because at that time I wanted to give it as a gift for your pregnancy. But you were in an accident just the day before I took you there, and our situation has been getting worse since that day."

My body weakened, guilt attacked again. Sean's words just slapped me, being reminded of what happened made me feel like I was stupid.

"Hey, don't misunderstand me. I didn't mean to offend you. I'm sorry for bringing up the matter."

Sean lifted my chin to look at her. "Trust me. I don't blame you one bit. You've had enough for me."

Sean lowered his face to kiss me. But I haven't countered. My mind is still upset because of his words. Losing a baby in my womb a few months ago I can't really forget it. Every time I see or hear something related to that day, my heart always hurts and without me noticing my tears.

I grimaced a little when Sean bit my lower lip. And when my mouth was open, his tongue defended me slowly and lovingly as he had done all this time until I was lulled and countered.

Sean's thumb wiped the tears that ran down my cheeks after our kiss came off. Again, he convinced me with his words. "Stop blaming yourself, Franda. I love you because that's you. Not because I expected anything from you. We have plenty of time if you want to get pregnant again, but I won't do it until you're ready." Sean kissed me again.

God fucking. I cursed at myself who was so stupid and weak that I could not get up and forget that day.