REMORSEFULLY

A Worried Night

Rasya"s POV (Advanced)

When I got to Hana's house she was so shocked to see me. I never said I was coming. I never asked for his address either. I only have a place to teach him. I asked someone who lived not far from the school where Hana was teaching and I found her home address.

Without letting us in, Hana immediately asked why I had come to her house.

"What father is here?" Ask her with a surprised look.

I can't answer what, let alone he called me father, emang I'm very old, my inner.Let's lucky Hana's mother came and I immediately shook his hand and I said that I'm Erwin's friend.

With kindness her mother Hana let us in. While Rafa sat on the terrace watching children his age play takrow.

With her face still covered in question marks, Hana asked me why I had come to her house.

"I happen to have business here so I'll all stop by." My words lied.

In my heart I don't want to lie, but I don't know what reason to give.

No more conversations between us, I don't know where to start. I heard the sound of cars outside.

"Rafa?? Why come here?Same who?" I heard a voice that was familiar to me. It's not wrong that Erwin's voice.

"Papa, Om," Rafa answered.

"Death to me" My inner self.

A moment of sweat on my forehead. Shame, shock mixed into one.

Shortly thereafter Erwin came in and I could only bow to shame.

"Lho, what are you doing here?" Erwin asked who immediately asked me a question.

"Son Rasya said he said there was some business here so he stopped by." Said Hana's mother.

Had been caught lying.

Erwin kissed Hana's mother's hand. And still a surprised look also saw me at his cousin's house.

Hana's mother came in and there were only the three of us in the living room.

Erwin's gaze was full of searching at me. But I try to be relaxed.

"Why are you here, Shay?" Erwin asked again not sure if I was just stopping by.

Rather than lying, I'd better be honest with her.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

"I'm actually here to get to know Hana better." I glanced at Hana.

I saw Hana's surprised expression hear my statement.

"You come here often?" Ask Erwin again. He's like Hana's father interrogating a future daughter-in-law.

"This time, Brother." Hana said quickly.

"You often walk together?" ask Erwin flat.

"No, Brother, I knew him when I was at my sister's house." Hana said to her cousin's sister.

"I asked Rasya not you, Hana." Erwin.

Hana just bowed to Erwin's words.

"Hmmm.you're reckless too, Shay." Erwin said to his head.

"You seriously want to get close to Hana?" Ask Erwin again.

I can only nod my head. In my heart, I still doubt whether this decision is right or not. Thank you if Hana wants it otherwise. Erwin knows too.

"It's up to you, I can't interfere too much, you're all grown up, but just so you know...Hana's like my real sister, so don't mess with her " Erwin warned and went inside to see Hana's mother.

It might also give Hana and I space to talk to each other.

Hana seemed uncomfortable because it was just the two of us in the living room, even though I still heard Erwin talking to Hana's mother inside . The living room and family room there are only barriers that block.

"I'm sorry I lied to you, was my goal here to see you?" I said start a conversation.

" If I may want to ta'aruf with you." I said to the point.

I don't know if this falls into the category of ta'aruf or not which is obvious only that comes to my head. I'm confused what to say. Though I used to be good at making women melt with my death seduction. I don't know now that I've forgotten how.

We know only our names and our respective jobs, never questioned personal questions through messages so far.

"What's the reason you want ta'aruf with me?" Ask Hana again.

"I hope with this ta'aruf you can be my wife." Say steady.

"Huh???" Hana's eyes were round because I immediately expressed my wish to her. It's like a proposal. Not ta'aruf.

"We'd better know each other first, sir." Speak quickly.

Mom and Erwin joined soon.

They must have heard our conversation.

"It's better, yes, I know each other first about a few months if it fits you just decided." Erwin said to give advice.

"How's Han? Erwin turned to Hana.

"But.i ng.." Hana had not yet finished her words, Erwin cut in with the question again.

"There's no harm in you opening your heart to another Han, try to get to know Rasya" Erwin said again.

"Truely said your cousin, Son, I am old, I want to be before you are called by God to see someone who takes care of you and accompanies you."Said Hana's mother.

Hana's eyes glazed over hearing her mother's words.

The day keeps changing, we also send messages to each other and get to know each other, open our personal problems, about status and so forth. I told you all my past, the reason for divorce from my ex-wife, I don't want any lies because one lie will create another lie. Likewise with Hana she tells of her past left behind by her husband and children due to an accident several years ago.

A few months later, I visited her home only twice until we finally established ourselves to continue to the marriage stage. Rafa agrees with it. The third visit was a proposal, I only came with my mother. And from Hana's side there is her mother, Erwin and doctor Tiara.Since Hana's older brother is outside the island, later on when the marriage contract he will come.

The day that comes later has arrived. The marriage contract was carried out at the residence of Hana. Hana is very graceful with a wedding dress coupled with a matching hijab. The show was simple according to Hana's request.

That day Hana became my wife. There is a sense of happiness, should I finally get married again after a long time widower. Don't ask my mother she's so happy, so moved that she shed tears to see me remarry.

Rayhan and Fani came to our wedding. Although Fani is pregnant but she took the time to come to my wedding.

I hope this is my last marriage and I promise to be a good and loyal husband to my wife.Especially Erwin has warned me not to hurt his cousin's sister.Although I do not know if I have fallen in love to him or not but there is a feeling of comfort with him.

When it is legal to be husband and wife. We still don't talk to each other much. There was a sense of awkwardness between us. Even when we were in one room. We kept quiet. Unlike other newlyweds, who immediately perform the first night ritual.

Moreover, that night there were still many Hana family staying.The first night instead of enjoying a long night even I was busy replying to the message of Erwin and Rayhan who were again staying at the hotel.

Rayhan's inhuman base even he sent me vulgar vidio-vidio. Mana Erwin who entrusted her son to Hana because he wanted to stay at the hotel. What a very sad night for me.