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Sinta"'s POV

When we love someone so deeply, we tend to turn a blind eye to the advice of others, because at that time we are very trusting of that person, it is even hard to see the negative side that our loved ones have.

But living together with people we don't love is more stifling. Although the body and soul are already possessed by it, the heart cannot accept it.

Erwin and I got married for a match. At first I refused because I had my own choice but my parents kept forcing me until I finally accepted the match. Actually at that time I was going to run away with my boyfriend but I couldn't do it either because my boyfriend was just an unemployed man. Moreover, my boyfriend at that time did not respond too much to my invitation to elope.

Finally our wedding day arrived, Erwin was quite handsome, charismatic, mature. Because our age is indeed quite far adrift which is ten years. I feel like his niece. Usually the newlyweds will go through their days with happiness but to me no, the cuckoo, cold, stiff Erwin, really makes me sick of being with him. There is no romance. Although my duty as a wife I do but there is a feeling of emptiness in my heart. My boyfriend's face is still imagined even not infrequently when I have a husband and wife relationship with Erwin my girlfriend's face is what I imagine.

Until when I tested positive for pregnancy, Erwin began to change, he was more attentive, becoming a husband on standby. Whatever I want he does. Though the word love never came out of his lips. I also tried to accept it but I can't deny it was very difficult for me to erase my girlfriend's name in this heart.

Erwin always took me every month to the doctor to check the womb. Whatever my request he'll grant. About the material I do not lack even I'm a socialite style wearing a bag and branded clothes. Understandably Erwin has a considerable income. Because he works at a pretty big coal company.

Until I gave birth to a cute little boy. It adds to our happiness. I happen to live with my mother-in-law so I don't really bother taking care of my son. Moreover, my mother-in-law is also very close to her granddaughter. So I am free to go anywhere, shopping and gathering with my friends. What matters is the night I get to be home before my husband gets home.

Until one day when me and my socialite gang were together again I met Haris, my ex-boyfriend at a restaurant. I can't deny that love is still in the heart. After that meeting we always made a pact and our relationship continued unbeknownst to my husband. Sometimes I go home at night because I spend time together either at the hotel or at Haris' house. I didn't even hesitate to buy Haris a house.

After six months of forbidden love, I and I had to break out of my town. I left my husband and one-year-old son. In my heart why do I continue my marriage to Erwin while I do not love him. I want to achieve my happiness by marrying the person I really love, Haris.

My plan was very mature, all the contents of Erwin's ATM I transferred to my personal account. Even all the jewelry and branded items I bought from the money I brought all. Until unmitigated I brought Erwin's money as much as half a billion.

We fled the province and bought a house and lived together without a year of marriage.

The following year we married Siri.

Years changed years. I am accustomed to living a life of sufficiency feel very tortured, income from the sale of pulses is also declining because of the number of similar stores that mushroomed. So the idea came up to get money from Erwin back by making my son as an excuse. There was no intention of taking custody of my son. Haris would disagree. Having a child from me is not ready. I don't know what's on his mind. For the reason of love I obey whatever he wants.

Luck sided with me, I tried to contact Erwin through his old number was connected. My beloved granddaughter arrived she agreed to see me and surely she agreed to give me money so that I would not take custody of our son. "Erwin I'm a fool too." My mind at that time.

I dress up pretty and wear nice clothes so that when I meet me Erwin thinks my life after leaving him is better. But reality doesn't match my expectations. It turns out that the one who met me was not Erwin but his wife.

My hope of getting profit is so lucky. In fact, he brought two friends and the other one saw a girl while his strength was like a boy. It really made my back hurt when he pushed me.

Feeling unacceptable in humiliation and humiliation by them I finally took my husband and my husband's friends after him and returned his treatment to me. I don't care if she's the wife of the police chief or anyone else's wife I'm gonna teach her a lesson. At least repay my heartache after humiliating me.

After successfully confronting them I was already convinced that we would make a calculation with him . Moreover, those only women must be easy to repay my heartache to him.

But again - again bad luck hit me, it turns out one of his friends martial arts. Even Haris alone could do nothing after his navel was hit by a kick.

Erwin's wife was like a doormat pulling my hair. It really makes me groan in pain. I tried to fight back but she was wearing a hijab that was all I could reach.

Plus, there was a man helping her. I got a hard slap from that woman. My cheek was hot and burning with her slap. Haris and his friends are free but against women only lose.

It has fallen down the stairs. That's what I'm like. All my body hurts. Starting from the tip of the hair to the tip of the foot. He was even taken to the police station. Really fucking shit. Got another slap gift from Erwin. I really can't take it anymore. My face feels burnt, hair disheveled. While Haris head bangjol and his other friend even broke his teeth.

I thought we were going to be released but the truth is we were put in a cell even though we were treated by medics.

I tried to defend myself in front of the police but he kept us in custody. Haris also unceasingly scolded me because this was purely my idea. Even in anger he cursed me saying I was stupid.