REMORSEFULLY

Meeting Old Friends

Hi Pa...

The world is so evil

I'm tired, I don't want to keep gini

I just want to calm down.Head I already want to break pa..

I just want to calm down, not want a lot of thought..

That long pa..

Sorry if I continue to be disappointed, not yet in accordance with your expectations

I just want calm, tired gini continues

I just want to be able to laugh without burden again ehhh now his mentality has been destroyed again..

Pa tetep here first

Temenin me

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(**One day with papa, during treatment in Singapore there was finally one day where after a long time, "a father finally sat next to his little girl again"..

There I saw my reinforcement figure

The figure of a man who always wants to see his little girl happy

The figure of a man who always smiles proudly when he sees his little girl is growing up

A man who always gives the best he can

Great man, who never seemed to look tired in front of this little girl

But pa..

Papa likes to forget that this little girl loves to be lonely**..

Pa on that day

Papa rubs my hair again and

On that day the phrase papa who became a reinforcement for me who actually was not really strong to fight this disease

Quite a long sentence for the figure of papa who does not talk much hehe.)

"Thank you for being so strong to this day

You still have to be a lecherous woman

To heal and cover your wounds

If you fall today and are afraid

Remember the time you rose from your slump

You can heal and stand up again with your feet

Others just want to see you who are always entertaining not you who cry bitterly

You know, to grow takes time

No one else can help you

Just you and you

Keep deceiving them with your laugh

Because when you're buried

People will remember you, as a woman who always entertains"

(**papa always said people do not need to know our difficult or sad situation, be a figure who always spread happiness, but remember that you need a listener and need support in your life, he said, come to papa.papa is always here.

Did you know that Dad_Seventeen song?

Which fit in the lyrics

"I just called you Dad

When I lost my direction

I just remember you, Dad

If I had been away from you"

And the last sentence that papa said "you remain a little girl papa, you must recover and we go home**")

*Types to what I wrote to myself*

To myself on this day.sorry you still have to be strong and continue to survive in conditions like this?but just inget all will be beautiful in time.bismillah we can pass all this, do not give up first yahh our path is still long, cry'in only if it is not strong,,, no,, I know you are struggling when mentally you are also not okay.Tok you still have to understand'in others when you are also wanting to be understood..you still have to laugh when you cry all night...As soon as it is yahhh.but plisss for this time we can also definitely get through all this.I know losing someone is hurting what it is when we are also in need of help, need tranquilizer, I know, it takes encouragement, but you can't be selfish everyone has their own problems and busyness, for that try to understand each other, let others manage their own happiness... now focus on yourself

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#hi.you who may be in the phase of tired, sad, upset abis break up or lose the figure you love or maybe even more dizzy with the way your life... it's okay yahh just do it, if you have to slow down is also okay, enjoy the process and remember there will definitely be something happy at the end there:) a warm hug from the author