REMORSEFULLY
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(Unrequited letter)
To: The insensitive person
From: Sihh
Let's start with the word
"how are you today?"
Usually you will start to tell me about your activities, activities that I will always enthusiastically listen to
What is fun :)
How long have you known me??
Remember our first meeting?
ehhh no inget.maluu wkwkw.
It doesn't matter hehe
Let me write something for you
Until you read this letter.. Welcome to the insensitive man :)
Why gini sih
He said loving someone was fun
but why do I feel painful
He said that loving someone has to be fought for..
Yes, I have struggled, but how else if in your heart there is just him.
My struggle to survive beside you only you consider as an escape
Honestly, I'm tired
He said by seeing the people we love happy, we will also be happy
ahhh bullshit
Not aware anyway
Staying in this position is exhausting
Today was hard for me
I give it to yahhh
This is not just a matter of my love that is not reciprocated with you yahh
but..
This involves the sustainability of my life
Love clapping one hand is painful, but what about the time I have to tell you first..
I'm not that brave
Where do you also have a handler hehe..
I know you love that woman even more
She is a lucky woman
I'm saturated
Showing my happiness only
Keep pretending nothing happened
If you want to know
I wasn't as fresh as I used to be
At this point I was about to give up,
give up on you and my life
I often give my best in life
to day..
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(hello.long time no see)
(i'm back hehe..mari make a confession:) indeed on the day I wrote the letter I was in the lowest phase of my life, why? because I really want to give up, though,, I was tired of having to keep going back and forth from the hospital because my condition was deteriorating at that time plus had to demystify feelings that I did not know to keep until when)
(do you want to know the continuation of my love story?
if you don't want to.nothing, I'll keep telling him hehe)
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that day, the first time I heard the phrase "i'm tired of the deck, did I break up anyway"
(there are crazy people)
"where's your grandfather??"
"the usual cafe, why Jo?"
"wait there!!!, I'm there"
"yes"
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(cafes)
"why you? asem is very face-to-face"
(it's a pity that a handsome face is made moody)
"where the hell it is, a really good hobby"
(dihhh.gua again angry)
"seeking a muted treasure will"
"jacket dong if you want to dapet sustenance tuh, do not stingy deck"
"dihhh, ehhh ehh that's akuuu donut:( "
(Dateng-dateng directly take people's food, thank you dear ehhðŸ¤)
"god is one doang"
(frains)
"luu why the hell? fight again same your boyfriend yahh"
"yes"
"if there is a problem that is talked about well Jo, do not continue gini lahh"
"gua tired dekk, ngadepin attitude him"
(okuhhh kok cave so be sad)
" 2 Weeks cave stay kirain already fine, it was still a fight, fight why else luu"
"gigging at you"
"it's a cave"
(pointing to yourself)
"i'm why Jo"
(that's even in some people)
........
"he's jealous of me, huh??"
(little pede is okay wkwk)
"yes"
(brief, dense, torturous)
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