REMORSEFULLY

Trying to Open Hearts

Rasha"'s Pov

Ever since I first saw Hana at the opening ceremony of the Erwin department store made me smile myself because when I wanted to introduce myself she just clenched her hands together on her chest. Disappointed, yes, but I appreciate his attitude.

Just the usual introductions, nothing special in my opinion. Among the women on the show I think Fani is the most beautiful. Beautiful face and heart. Although I had once scratched a wound in his heart but there was no grudge in his heart. Even when our son was disappointed after knowing the reason we divorced first, Fani was so patient to give understanding to Rafa. And Rafa can also accept freely although disappointed it must be in my son's heart.

It's true that good women will get good men anyway. Fani gets an excellent husband, understanding and faithful. I saw so much love Rayhan had for his wife. I envy their affection but whatever I can do I can only pray that they will always be happy. Love does not always have to be.

After the doctor Tiara introduces Erwin's cousin named Hana. For me like before when I met the opposite sex there was no interest in him.

Although Rayhan, Erwin and Ridho mocked because they have long been widowed.As normal men I do not deny sometimes the desire to do the relationship exists. I don't want to go looking for an outlet with the call girls out there. It is enough that I committed a great sin that destroyed my happiness.I will not do it again. For three years I also befriended an ustad who taught me the science of religion and how to improve myself for the better. Although not completely hijrah but I try for my son. I want to be a father that my son can be proud of.

The day after the inauguration of Erwin's department store I was told to come to Erwin's house to take the rest of the payment for the construction of his department store.

When he arrived at Erwin's house, the one who opened the door was Hana.

After greeting him and being answered by him.

"Erwin is?" I asked a stale base, even though before leaving we had sent each other a message

"There ..please enter." Remarks .

I immediately went in and waited for Erwin in the living room. While Hana passed by leaving me alone in the living room.

Shortly thereafter, Erwin did not come, but Tiara's doctor said that Erwin was bathing.

I'm accompanied by doctor Tiara. We talked about a lot of things. Erwin's family and I have been close since I became the contractor for the department store.

"You seriously want me to find a candidate?" Ask doctor Tiara.

"Yes, doc." I'll relax.

"You don't think Hana's pretty?" Ask again.

I was confused as to why doctor Tiara asked me about Hana. Because I think that Hana already has a family because judging from her age already deserves to have a husband and even children.

I just frowned at my forehead hearing Doctor Tiara's question.

"No beauty?" Ask again.

"All women are beautiful, doc." Saying to him.

I did not respond to what Doctor Tiara said until he finally said that Hana was still alone. In my heart I said what it had to do with me whether she was married or not.

I just answered yes and yes. Until Erwin came to see me in the living room and doctor Tiara came in and left us.

After our business was done, I finally decided to go home. I just turned on my car one incoming message on my phone.

"Save this number, Hana."

I didn't return the message.

"Dare to be a girl too, totally save her number."in my heart.

When I got home, I went straight to the room to clean myself up. After that I lay in bed playing with my phone. I reopen the incoming message.

I saved Hana's number on my phone. There's no harm either.

Shortly after, my phone rang a sign that a message was coming in.

"Assalamu Alaikum."

"Sorry to interrupt "reply back again.

"It's okay" I replied.

We replied to a message about ten minutes, after I said stalely asking about his work. He's not returning it.

I waited for a reply from him but did not reply.

"Any." My inner.

A few days later, no messages were sent by Hana. I saw his WhatsApp profile picture was just his back to the camera.

I sent him a message asking him how he was doing. But there was no reply from him when the blue tick meant he read my message.

I don't know why I'm waiting for a reply from him. Finally I don't know why I was on a prank call and he picked it up.

"Hallo...Assalamu Alaikum." Say it when the phone is connected.

"Greetings, "I replied.

"Who are you?" Ask.

Why did he ask me who I was, when he told me to save the number.

"Sa-I am Rasya Erwin's friend." I stammer.

Long time no word from there.

"Oh yeah I remember, you know who my number is from?" Ask from across there.

Waduh nih senile or amnesiac anyway, obviously he who connect me first ask in save number, call the father again.

"Well, you were the first one to send a message asking for this save number?" Saying to him. I don't want him to geer if I call him first.

"But I'm sorry sir I never sent the same message Mr. Rasya." He still denies.

I immediately screen-shot the message to me a few days ago and sent it.

"Sorry it wasn't me who sent, sir." he replied.

Shortly after, my phone rang a sign of a call coming in. And it turns out it was from doctor Tiara. Doctor Tiara said that it was she who sent me a message using Hana's number.

He said Hana was not feeling well and told doctor Tiara to clarify it to me.

Jeez it turns out that what I was chatting with at that time was doctor Tiara not Hana.

From that moment on I was curious about Hannah. I often send him messages. Sometimes in reply sometimes also not, maybe because of his busy life as a teacher.

Days kept changing we exchanged news even though it was only through messages.

There was a sense of wanting to always contact him. Although more disappointed because my message was not reciprocated.

No private talks.

I don't know much about Hana's personal problems. I want to ask Doctor Tiara I'm embarrassed too. All I know is that she's still alone, whether she's a widow or never married.

Because of mother's insistence that I immediately find a companion, let alone my son gave the green light. I try to open my heart. I don't know if this is tight or if Hana is destined by God so my soul mate finally I ventured to come to his house. I didn't tell Doctor Tiara or anyone. Rafa's the one I'm taking with me.