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Once More Again, Please!!

Rasha"'s Pov

When Fani is owned by someone else my heart is so broken, so sick. There's a sense of unwillingness she has to have another man. When she was no longer mine I realized that I loved her very much.She was a very perfect woman and I was the one who had wasted her.

I tried to reorganize my life, fix everything that happened because of my stupidity. I spend all my time just working and working. Even if I am not a good husband but at least I will be the best son, brother and father in my life.I must not dissolve in regret because of my stupid actions, he said, let me how I still have the responsibilities that I have to live on that is my mother, my sister and Rafa.

It's not that I don't miss my son, Rafa.Sometimes I can just look at his picture while crying. But this way I have to do to forget my ex-wife. Although it's going to be difficult for me because there's Rafa between us. I believe as time goes on I can forget it.

In the end, my ex-wife sent me a message that my son misses me. My instincts as a father who misses my son so much I can't resist. I finally contacted him via Vidio Call.

I felt like I wanted to hug my son, hearing his babbling made me want to cry to hear his complaints about me. Her face sparkled as she said she already had a twin sister.

When I look at my ex-wife's face, even if it's just a glance on my phone screen, my heart ripples, she's so pretty that even though her cheeks are a bit chubby because they've just given birth, but it adds to the aura of her beauty.

Had I not done such a stupid thing, maybe my position as Fani's husband would have been irreplaceable. "Argghhhh," I ruffled my hair roughly.

"Rafa ..forgive Papa, Son." My inner.

When the time comes I'll come see my son, but not for now. I still can't see my ex-wife. Maybe I'm being too selfish, but this is how I can forget it. People say that love does not have to have and if we love someone then we will be happy when we see him happy. But that sentence is easy to pronounce while in practice it is very difficult to do. And the most stifling in the chest, we were once as sad as ever but because of a folly he stayed away and it was hard to get back.

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After breastfeeding the twins and they were fast asleep, I went up to bed to catch up with my husband who had a beautiful dream. Just lying down, a stocky arm coiled around my stomach. "You haven't slept?" I asked."Hmmmm," that's all that came out of his mouth. She tightened her arms even more, her head was close to my chest. "Kirain is free because my two babies have slept apparently there is still a big baby who asked in kelonin," my mind as I sing my smile.

"Can you break the fast, honey?" He said without opening his eyes.

"Not enough forty days!" I answered because I didn't count them.

"It's forty-first day." Answer looks.

I thought for a moment and counting it in my heart turned out to be true. Basic man affairs so that he'll never forget.

Without her consent she kissed my lips gently for a long time becoming a passionate. Then he went down to the neck and left a possession mark there. Next venturing to the source of the life of the twins, at first he just kissed her but over time she seemed like the two babies .

"This is the twins!" She looked up at me and smiled.

Inevitably he had to give up and the quota of the twins should not be bothered.

"Ahhhhh....Ray,"******it escaped too, when he was playing down there.

"Continue saying my name, dear "The speech is hoarse.

The passion is getting increasingly passionate finally the unification happened after forty days more did not do it. Although I often satisfy in my own way but very much so.

"Thank you, dear" he said, peeping at my forehead and then laying his body beside me.

Suddenly I remembered that we did not use safety when we did it.

My spontaneous pinch landed on the chest of his field and it left him in shock.

"You again?" Her speech.

I pinched it again and again, again,.

"We don't use safety!!what if I get pregnant again? How'this?" Panicked saying.

"Yes.great." he said casually.

"Good...Good ..!!The twins are just over a month old, pity them if I get pregnant again."

He was stunned to hear my reason that made me worry.

"So????" said bingun.

"For you!! I blame him.

"Cock me anyway!! because of the two of us, why not remind me? 'I can't have a safety deposit, or throw it outside." He defended himself.

"How to remember you're playing hard."

"Don't panic, baby!!Even if for example the good results were so, it means God believes in us if we can." Rayhan stroked my stomach.

Let's just wait after you get your period you can use contraception." Connect again.

"But I don't fit, I've been injecting but my period continues, I've taken the Pill and my head hurts a lot." I clearly.

"Tomorrow we go to the doctor ask what is suitable for you, if we sleep or want a second round?" His words raised his eyebrows.

"No!!Reject me.

"Once more again, Please!!! Wishing.

I can only obey his wishes. And do not forget I gave him an ultimatum to throw it outside, enough was the first one that made me worry.After feeling the beauty of heaven the world we also fell asleep soundly.

The night had passed, the morning came to greet her beautifully. After breakfast and bring the twins sunbathing in the morning. After that I bathed him. Farha and Farhan had already begun to look and could smile when spoken to. They are identical twins, their faces are a combination of my face and Rayhan's.

Rafa also started attending school today. In his spirit he set out with Rayhan.

"I'll go first, baby!" Rayhan kissed my forehead, and I kissed his hand with reverence.

"Call if you're ready to go to the doctor, I'll pick you up.'" Added again.

The clock shows me ten in the morning, coincidentally at that hour when the twins slept. I immediately got ready for the doctor and Rayhan was waiting for me outside.

"I'm taking Farha and Farhan back, Mom?"I said to my mother who came to see the twins.

"By pleasure, son." My mother smiled widely.

It only took fifteen minutes we had arrived at the clinic doctor Tiara, which we had previously done an appointment.We consulted contraceptives that were suitable for me. I told you about my previous experience with contraception. He suggested various types of contraceptives including using an IUD but Rayhan disagreed with the reason the time period was too long. I also consulted whether the possibility of me getting pregnant quickly after just finished our puerperium doing husband and wife relationship.

And I also feel relieved because Doctor Tiara explained that the body will produce hormones when breastfeeding the baby exclusively that can delay pregnancy. Even though pregnancy can happen.

Finally we went home, and we decided to use the contraceptive device unload and throw😀.