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Ridho and Fira

Ridho's Pov

My love story with Fira is not as dramatic as Mr. Erwin's love story with doctors Tiara and Rayhan and Fani.

We've both been dating since High School. Although often broke up while still dating but it made me realize that Fira and I were meant to be together and honestly Fira is my first love and we love each other and need each other.

Fira is a female figure who is coquettish, spoiled and ceplos.

Our first meeting I was in the cafeteria with a classmate. He was a first-grader and I was second-grade.

I wasn't interested in him at first because I didn't think he was my type. I like girls who are calm, veiled, gentle and not talkative. As for Fira, she's a new student but she's begging for mercy in the cafeteria.

At that time there was a famous boy playboy who had a crush on Fira. He always sought Fira's attention either in the cafeteria or always came to her in class. But Fira was careless because she knew the lunge of the man.

Until one day the man's boyfriend knew that his girlfriend had a new target, Fira.

During the break time the most popular place is the school cafeteria. When Fira was busy eating meatballs. The guy's girlfriend came to hit Fira. They became another student spectacle.Fira also did not want to lose her mouth war with the girl.

"Just first class, pretty prett." Said the girl named Risa.

"Oh.. So if it's third grade, it should be songong, huh?" Said Fira no less fierce.

"I warned you!Aldi is my girlfriend." Said Risa again.

"What does this have to do with me?" Fira Timpal.

"Yes there is dong.palingan Aldi just playin you.' Risa.

"Sorry yes.gue is not interested in the same girlfriend you know, I already have a girlfriend much more handsome than the Aldi." Fira said bravely.

Really Fira dared to fight Risa who incidentally is the idol and also the most arrogant student in our school.

"I can't believe anyone wants to be the same ." Ejek Risa's.

Because I feel challenged Fira to ride apitam . He did not want to be underestimated by the Risa finally Fira without a second thought immediately attracted me who happened to be not far from him. At the time, I was just watching their fight.

"Please help me, brother." He said softly as he pulled my hand.

I was so shocked when he pulled my hand. "Bare this child too." I thought.

"This is my girlfriend, satisfied!! Shouted Fira.

I glared my eyes at Fira . Netra we met as if Fira's black eyes were asking that I help her.

Finally I just keep quiet not denying and not assuring. And that's why Risa believes we're dating.

"Cowok is that handsome." Cibir Risa's.

"But to me he's the most handsome." Fira.

It's embarrassing me to death. My friends were so shocked to hear Fira's confession.

After Risa left the canteen. Fira continued eating her meat. I don't care anymore. Honestly, I was angry with him. I helped you say thank you, nothing came out of his mouth. " What a very annoying girl." My inner.

Until the eve of Independence Birthday event I and Fira were elected to the troops of Paskibraka emissaries from my school. About two weeks of training. And since then we have been close. And I feel comfortable and want to always be close to him. Behind her potent side, she ceplas ceplosnya a very good girl, devout religion even though at that time she did not wear a hijab. We went to practice every day together. Even though we ride a butut motorbike whose engine sounds a complex that hears. He still wants to come with me.

Until we went to college, our relationship continued. Moreover, Fira was already wearing the hijab that added to her aura of beauty. We are like a couple in general, going out on a weekly night or sometimes walking together. But just a hand grip. We've never done more than that. Because I'm serious with him and I won't break it before we're halal. Sometimes Fira rambles and says she wants to break up with me. I just kept him quiet for a few days and then he came to see me and apologized after realizing his mistake. And vice versa if I feel that I did something wrong I immediately apologized to him.

After we finished college, and we got a job, I wanted to apply for it immediately but Fira refused he said wait another two years. I waited faithfully for him whenever he was ready I wouldn't force him.

Our family has also supported our relationship. When I saw Kak Fani beside her husband I saw Kak Fani who was so sad, down, desperate and beaten. That hurt so bad if it's cheated on. I pray in my heart that I don't do the same to my wife. Besides I love Fira so much, I'm also afraid of Fira's threats that I do that. Because every word Fira sometimes he proves himself.

We got married and it was a very happy day for me. We've been through a lot of grief when we were dating. He always supported me, gave me spirit. He was also familiar with my parents and my siblings.

After my father died, my mother and sisters became my responsibility. Fira didn't mind if I gave some of my salary to my family. Where else the installment of cars and houses that have not paid off I have to bear.

Finally Fira kept working to help our economy. Honestly, Fira's income is quite high. But sometimes Fira is exhausted and maybe that's what makes Fira not pregnant after one year of our marriage. Fortunately, he slept easily. If his head hit a pillow, he must have gone to sleep. Sometimes I feel sorry for him, he must be so tired from working all day. Sometimes I have to resist my urge to make out with her if I see her deep in her dreams.

Until finally we were given confidence with her pregnancy that I was really looking forward to. Even though I never told him.

Fira" POV

I am grateful to have a kind, calm loving husband like Ridho.He never snapped or scolded me. Even though I was wrong he just silenced me, if I could choose he would rather yell or scold me than silence me.

After he helped me I didn't say thank you. I am ashamed of him too. Tampa knows or whatever I immediately ngaku as his girlfriend.

After meeting after meeting in Paskibraka training, Ridho finally sent me a letter to express his love. On the paper he just wrote "Fir.I love you, don't want to be my girlfriend.reply"" said the letter.

"Based on a calm guy, there is no romance shoot a girl." I thought at the time.

I didn't return the letter because I wanted him to tell me directly.

The next day when we were at school, he looked nervous and threw away his gaze when he saw me.

I purposely scolded him at that time, He gets more nervous when I approach him. Before sending a letter, he was ordinary.

"How come you're reminiscing about Dho?You sick?" I asked to pretend, but she did not remember just looking nervous.

"No" he said quickly.

I handed him back the letter he gave me yesterday. He opened it straight away but there was no reply.

"Kayak son of SD just shoot him." My word is cynical.

He simply fell silent and folded the letter back and put it in his pants pocket.

Then he stood up to leave me.

"Oe...want you know what my answer is?" When there are some friends not far from us, I don't care.

Rido immediately stopped his steps and turned to look at me. I called him back to sit in front of me.

What an insensitive guy, my mind.

When he sat back in front of me. I just kept quiet, too, silent.

"W-what's your answer, Fir." The question breaks the silence.

"What is the question?" I pretend to forget . Though in my heart I also want to be his girlfriend only I like to see his expression. I also want to hear it straight from his mouth.

He took his breath and threw it away.

"I want a marriage contract, take a breath of everything." My ejek.

He was more nervous about my words.

He closed his eyes while saying.

"You don't want to be my girlfriend?" When he finished, he opened his eyes.

I want to laugh to see it. This is how you get a calm, quiet guy. Love is so hard.

I was silent and did not answer and then he said goodbye. When he was about to stand up I answered immediately.

"No..." My speech.

I saw a disappointed and sad look on his face.

"No, I mean." I said. Actually in my heart it's very cheerful to hear him shoot me. It was as if my heart was already beating fast.

She smiled when she heard my words. And at that time he promised not to hurt, to disappoint me. And proved to this point that he never once did. Although not infrequently we have problems but not with the third person.

After our marriage and we were blessed with a handsome son. Frankly Riyan was closer to his Papa. I feel like I was the only one who gave birth to it. When Riyan was a baby Ridho who woke up in the middle of the night made him formula milk. While I sleep well. Sometimes I feel like I'm not a good wife or mother. But my husband said that he was sincere about it. He was happy to do it because seeing me risking my life giving birth was very grateful. My husband is the best.

Until one day doctor Tiara offers vitamins that make us passionate about sexual intercourse.Although I never refused my husband. But yeah, it just serves me and sometimes I'm like a banana stick like my husband said.

Honestly I feel guilty but I also do not force myself to enjoy it while I feel tired and sleepy.

I have never consulted a doctor so busy with work. I don't think my husband has any problems. But after hearing his confession in front of us all it made me have to try to make him satisfied in bed. Good thing my husband is faithful otherwise he will seek satisfaction outside.

The night after the bet. Ridho really took a chance in narrowness. He asked for reasons to win. But that's just his wits.

After entering the room he immediately did so, at first I enjoyed it a lot because of its very gentle treatment and its considerable duration. Maybe for other women it is very special to like it. But to me I feel so long. Because I want to get some rest. In the morning he asked for more rations while I was still very sleepy. It made me sleep less. Until I got angry with him. But the annoyance was gone when we found out that we were the ones who got the prize. I also intend to consult with doctor Tiara regarding my matter. Hopefully it's just the fatigue factor, there are no problems or diseases in my body.