REMORSEFULLY
Want to Meet You.....
I lost myself, I lost myself,
When I fell in love with you
To be someone I never knew
It's sad, why falling in love is this painful
I've fallen too much, though,
Until this sick
We should not continue
Letting go is painful but surviving is much more painful
So let's end it..
Being together does not make us happy
Being together always makes us hurt each other and always ends with me crying
No. gabe..
And I hope not anymore
I told you this was too painful
Close the door and go home
It's not the kind of love I want to have
*
(As usual schedule at the beginning of the month, this self should be healing (routine check up) hehe.).
(WhatsApp)
Jio
"Dekkk, the cave today"
Derrick
"HUH?? where to?"
"Today is that?"
Jio
"iyaaa, a cave pick up"
Derrick
"could I do this today"
Jio
"why?"
Derrick
"there's business"
Jio
"well, udh gw memenin you first, udh that's memenin gw"
Derrick
"hmhmh how yahh, but really sorry today in gw nggk can really joo"
Jio
" is yahh busy?"
Derrick
"yes if this day can't really be, sorry"
"where do you want to go?"
Jio
"kangen luu"
Derrick
"najisss, apan wkwke anyway"
Jio
"well, if you can't, bsk aja"
Derrick
Jio
" wahhh has been busy "
Derrick
"why sigh??"
(Yahhhh nggk in bales againi nihh, say Hahaha, sorry yahh joo not I do not want but yahh how the fate of this sick person hehe)
**
That incident I shouldn't have seen
God why love someone this sick
The mind leads me to believe that I You can be "we"
But again and again I was slapped by circumstances
Jio
"okay if you're busy"
"don't shoot a girl today"
"doain I good luck, bye deck"
(Yahhh that was the last chat before I finally decided to really go, anyway at the end of the chat he had said the word "bye deck", cake slapped really not heh, anyway, he has made you realize, you are too stupid still defend with that feeling)
#A piece of writing I wrote before my health deteriorated
*I'm not wrong, right?
How to be gini
Is there really no hope, huh?
Gini really
So then..
I You really can't be "us" huh?
I should have stopped Joo
I'm sick of Joo
I want to stop too
Why can't Joo
I'm too aware that we can't
How do you want to think this relationship is limited to "Friendship" right?
I'mfrightened..
I'm afraid of being too obsessive
I should be happy, right?
Look at you with your choices
I'm too messy
But no problem, I like that haha
Oh yea..
But maybe not before this is over
One thing I want to say
You are everything I want, you,
But I don't think any further that you're not the one I can have*
(That day one of your Instagram posts explained everything, which lucky woman you choose, I don't know who that woman is, she's beautiful haha obviously, you guys look good...oh well the bracelet is beautiful and worn by the right people..
I realize this will not be read by the woman, but let me convey this message
"So she's beautiful, don't give her any more wounds, because I know enough as to how sick she was yesterday, her wounds may heal, but they're still there"
And for you Joo, my message this time
"Don't look for me, I'm tired of wishing, be happy with your new boyfriend, I just want to get well")
See you in a better story
***
#hihihiiii kok sad again dekk, the fate of your love:(((
