REMORSEFULLY

Fani's Answer

I saw Rayhan looking at me, and then I said what I had been feeling towards him all this time.

"Honestly I feel comfortable with Brother," "Always hope Brother calls me, "

"I was tormented when Brother ignored me,"

"I don't know if it's love, or if it's just my loneliness, but I'm really happy with Brother." I said honestly.

Rayhan then turned his head towards me, his gaze so deep as to pierce through the recesses of my heart.

"Maybe only time can heal your wounded heart, I can promise you nothing but loyalty, and love for you.I will try as long as my breath is still in my body I will always be there to wipe your tears and always make you smile."

Rayhan said as he continued to look at me.

"So how did you decide, Fan?"

"Kok still nanya kak ?" I said.

Because with my long speech can be concluded if I give him a chance or accept it.

"I mean," he asked again for a full explanation.

Truly unskilled bachelors must be in a short, clear and solid answer. I said in my heart.

I then raised my hand in front of his face which revealed a ring that was coiled on my ring finger.

I saw him more astonished by my behavior.

"Why your hand?" ask again.

"Son Rayhan's brother who is a guanteng in Kalimantan.

I wear this ring a sign that I accept Brother, "my words make it clear.

"Really Fan" he said with a big smile.

I just nodded.

"Basic is insensitive" I said quietly but still heard by him.

"So you want to?" ask again.

"You're vomiting" I replied with a laugh.

She then pulled and wanted to hug me, but I quickly dodged.

"Eitsss.

He only scratched his head that was not itchy while grimacing.

"I'm sorry. so happy. hehehe."

"I'm going to propose to you soon" he said, now he's getting serious

"Was fast, brother?" many .

"As old as we are no longer for girlfriends, I want to quickly justify you, make you my mother, make you my queen.

I came back to listen to his statement.

My prank soul appeared instantly. I don't know why I love Rayhan, I love seeing his face cut out.

" But I haven't accepted being a husband" I said fishing.

"You want to drive me crazy, huh?" he said a little snarl .

Ahaiiii, successfully, her face made me want to laugh. I think even if he's angry but his face remains adorable. There is no doubt to be a man, my mind.

" Fan I'm serious about my words,"

" I've been waiting for this moment for a long time, don't you destroy my greatest happiness with your words of rejection ,"

I saw a sad look on his face, he looked at me.

"Sorry" I said sincerely

He came closer and took my hand.

" I know in your heart it's not entirely for me yet,

but rest assured to me, I will strive to be a good priest until we age together" he said convincingly.

"Thank you, brother, you want to accept me even if you know I'm not perfect" I said sincerely.

"I should be grateful, because you would give me a chance, choose me, entrust your heart to me, as much as I can I will keep my heart only for you" Rayhan said so sincerely.

Unknowingly, I put my head on his shoulder.

"His words are not halal yet" said Rayhan chuckling faintly at my behavior.

I immediately pulled my head off his shoulder while smiling shyly.

Rayhan laughed at me, saying that I don't have to be consistent.

Then Rayhan took me home because he said he missed Rafa.

Because it was late in the afternoon so many people had come to the beach to see the sunset, we decided to go home. Rayhan took my hand as we crossed the crowded street in a vehicle.

After a few minutes of travel we reached home.Rafa was playing in front of the television. She ran over and hugged Rayhan as we entered the house.

They played a little bit and then Rayhan said goodbye. I drove him to the door .

"Be careful on the road, brother" I said.

"You too, say the same ex-husband you do not come here often" he warned.

I'm surprised he knows where if Mas Rasya is here often, someone must have told me .

"Mas Rasya was the same Rafa, not me Kak," I replied reasoned.

" Mode" he said again.

"Tomorrow I'll pick you up" he added

I just nodded, because my car was living in the office.

After saying his greetings he stepped towards his car, rushing to go home.

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Rayhan"s Pov

An immeasurable sense of happiness in the heart when I heard from her thin lips that she accepted me. My long wait has now led to happiness. I always ask him in my evening prayers. All this time I just loved her in silence, I didn't think she would accept me today. Gave me a chance to fill his heart.

When I was a kid, I admired him, but I didn't know it was love. I always steal glances when she comes home to see my sister Rania. His spoiled, chatty and crying attitude became a special attraction for me.

As time went on, the feeling grew more and more enthroned in the heart. Even though I never met in person after we had grown up. But I often see his photos on his social media accounts. She was so beautiful with a hijab attached to cover her head. The love is getting bigger in the heart.

Her effective attitude and sweet smile that showed her dimples when she greeted me as a child always seemed to fill my mind and heart.

I once came just to see him, but just the disappointment I got, he was already owned by someone else. I backed off and tried to forget it .

Because love does not have to have, even though it is so heavy to bless the person we love with others.

Until I could only love her in silence and embrace her in my prayers.

I blamed myself, why I was late to see him, at least contact him, but it was not difficult for me to get information about him. But I realized he might not be my soul mate. God did not set me up with him to be together.

I sometimes think why I'm like this, why I love her so deeply, why I'm not interested in other women. Sometimes my mom says I'm stupid, stupid, not normal. Waiting for a woman I couldn't have.

Ever tried to open your heart to another woman, but she needs to be loved, cared for, spoiled. In my heart there is no feeling of it. What is maintained if it only makes the heart tormented.

Until one day I got information that she was divorced from her husband. There is a feeling of happiness when you know it. Sometimes I feel like a very bad person because I am happy over the suffering of others.

God's scenario is beautiful . There will be many things that are not in accordance with logic when it comes to meeting someone who will be the most important part of our lives.