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Tiara and Erwin

Tiara"s Pov

Erwin was my first friend and love when we were both SMUs. We have been in a relationship since we were new students. But Erwin and I are not like any other couple. The ones going everywhere always stick like stamps. Erwin is also a very stiff type of male, not tacky and also quiet. That's what made me fall in love with him. We only found it at school. There was never a weekly night or anything like that. Because my parents were very disciplined in educating me. My father was a soldier. Sometimes we meet in the library just studying together. The only ones who know our relationship are my close friends.

After graduating from High School I graduated in medicine at one of the leading State Universities in the Capital. Erwin did not graduate. At the graduation ceremony of SMU whose event was held at night. That was the first time I went out with Erwin. We were only briefly at a farewell because we agreed to a place as a farewell event together because one week later we will be separated.

"I want you to promise, Ra, don't forget me and wait for me,." Erwin said at the time.

"I promise you, but you also have to promise to keep your heart just for me." My words reciprocated.

We promised to be loyal to each other, guarding our hearts. We promised before I left we'd meet again.

Because it was late at night Erwin finally drove me home but did not reach the front of the house. As I was about to pass she pulled my hand.

"May I kiss your cheek, Ra?so that if I miss you, at least there are romantic memories that I can remember, hehehe" he said with a chuckle.

I then assented and he was whisked away with lightning-fast kissed my cheek. That was my first kiss from him.

My heart flowered leaving Erwin still sitting on his bike looking at me until I disappeared from his sight. And without us knowing it turns out there are a pair of eyes watching us. Yes, he is my father.

Turns out my dad came to pick me up at a farewell and a friend told me I was going with Erwin.

I smiled as I sang a little inside the unlocked house. My father was sitting with a sharp look at me.

"Are you going to college or marry your boyfriend?" Said my father without warning.

"I mean, dad?" Ask wonder.

"No need to pretend, I don't want you to embarrass me." Said father firmly.

"I never embarrassed you." My words are self-defense.

"What is a kiss in a public place you consider not embarrassing? While in public you can do it especially in a quiet place, maybe you can do more than a kiss." Say to my father with emotion.

I can't say anything, I know my father. No matter how much I defend myself, he won't believe it. My mother also just fell silent and signaled that I would obey my father.

"You go to college or I go to that guy to marry you." Say again.

I was confused that I chose to marry not necessarily Erwin agreed, maybe my father was more embarrassed and automatically my ideals since childhood will be destroyed already.

I thought for a moment and my heart said I should go to college, for the sake of my parents' ideals and expectations.

"I want to go to college." I said while looking down not feeling clear liquid coming out of my eyes.

"Good ... tomorrow we leave for Jakarta." Said my father and left me in the guest room.

I was sitting limp in my bed.

"I'm sorry, Win," I said softly.

Two days later my father and I left for the capital. I didn't see Erwin or give him any news.

I live my days just focused on learning and learning. Want to contact Erwin but do not know what to contact, the phone was still rarely have it. Until my semester break I went home to my town. I went to Erwin's house and said his neighbor had moved to Kalimantan. It was my dream to meet him.

I spent my days focusing on my studies. But Erwin's name was still imprinted in the heart. I find it hard to fall in love. Not that no one approached but out loud I told them I had a fiancee. I was faithful to our promise that night. Either for Erwin he is still faithful or not with our promise.

It's not hard for me to get a job especially if I'm an obstetrician. I filled my days with the job I dreamed of being a doctor. It's also funny I helped countless deliveries. But I myself have never given birth and have not even been married. Sometimes I laugh at myself. It's really my life. My parents had me many times, but I always refused. My father didn't force me either. I was waiting for someone who either remembered me or forgot me.

Until the reunion season mushroomed. I also joined the white gray alumni group. I never commented in the group but if there was time I would read the chat friends. I looked at all my friends' profile pictures, actually what I was looking for was Erwin, until I saw his profile picture with a boy who looked like him. That's why I decided not to expect from him. He is married and has a child. He who breaks the promise of disloyalty. I still kept our promise that night, but in fact I spent decades in vain waiting for him.

Disappointed in my heart but I don't blame him because it's also my fault I didn't give any news of my departure.

Until we get back to it.

My heart skipped a beat when I saw it. He's still like old times, stiff, cold. When I greeted him, he answered me. I just wanted to apologize for leaving her without telling her. But I guess he doesn't care about me anymore. Although I sometimes ask through Fani. But it's just curious there's no intention to snatch from his wife and son. Even though his name is still beautifully engraved in the heart. She was my first love and would probably be my last love let alone my forty years of age, maybe no man would ever marry me again. But let me not be dizzy either. There are many like me. It is not my desire to be a virgin because a soul mate has arranged.

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Erwin's Pov

If I was asked who the woman I love besides my mother is Tiara. He is the one who has filled my heart and has never been replaced. She's a simple woman who's smart, kind, shy. Even though I hated her because she left me for no apparent reason but my love for her never died.

My heart ached, disappointed when he left me. I wanted to catch up with him in the Capital but whatever the power, I'm not the one with the wealth to be able to do it.

Eventually we moved to Borneo and I went to college there. I could become Rayhan's father's confidant because of my reliable ability and advance his efforts.

I was married because my parents forced me, in addition because my age was getting mature finally I received an arranged marriage with Sinta who was ten years adrift with me.

I try to love her and accept her as my life partner. The moment I started to accept it in my heart and slowly I tried to forget about Tiara, but again and again I had to swallow the bitter reality. My wife ran away with her ex-boyfriend and left our one-year-old son behind.

Until I met Tiara. She's getting pretty. Honestly, when I saw her, my heart was beating. His gaze was still the same when we were still wearing white-gray uniforms. I answered the question ketus. And in my heart I want to feel like I'm holding it.

Until Fani tried to bring us closer, in my heart cheered and prayed that Fani did not despair of bringing us closer especially after I knew the reason she left me and found out that Tiara was not married wanted to feel like I immediately made it right. That night when I drove him home I was so happy. My young soul seemed to return in the time we were still dating first. Without thinking any longer I immediately invited her to marry, I do not want to waste this opportunity again.

"Our old promise is still going on, isn't Ra?" I break the silence.

"I still keep that promise until now but you're the one who denied it." Tiara looked out of the car.

Deg.my heart feels sliced.

"Sorry, Ra...Can we make that promise?" I took a quick glance and then focused on driving back.

Tiara smiled very sweetly towards me . Dumplings... Lady doctor is so sweet, my inner.

I pulled the car over and I didn't know where I was going to kiss her cheek.

Tiara's eyes immediately perfectly rounded looking at me. Fear arises in his heart lest he be angry.

"Do you remember, Ra?" Sickly say.

"My second kiss." She said shyly while holding her cheek.

I taunt myself with what I'm doing" Remember the age of the pack!" My inner.

"You want to marry me, Ra?" I said to the point.

"Cock in a hurry, Win?" Tiara said when I asked her to get married.

"It's too late, Ra.Imagine 22 years we have to wait."

"You think about it, Win! Our age is not easy anymore." Tiara said for a reason.

"That's exactly what I want to get married quickly." Timpal Erwin again.

"But with my age it's likely that I can't give you any offspring." Sorrow Tiara.

"Are you a doctor?"

"That's why I know it's hard because it's old." Tiara.

"I don't care" I said convincingly.

"You want, Ra? I beg you." My speech.

Tiara smiled and nodded with a blushing face.

Love knows no age. Although we are forty years old, it does not feel inferior to young people who are in love.

Our happy day has arrived. I am so happy to be able to challenge the woman I love. This can not be separated from the members of the Rayhan family, especially Fani.

Our simple wedding was full of happiness. Tiara and I stayed at the Rayhan Hotel. I can't wait for our first night. Just imagine I've been looking forward to tonight for a long time.

Seeing Tiara shyly made me even more anxious with her.

I really can't put it off anymore, I immediately take her to bed. As the heat grew we heard Tiara's cell phone ringing. I told Tiara not to heed the call. The phone rang again and I had to pick it up.

"What??Giving birth?" My speech

I told Tiara that Fani was going to give birth. He immediately pushed my body that was filled with passion. Tiara put on a shirt lying on the floor and picked up the large Hijab and rushed out of the room. I put on my training shirt and pants and ran after my wife.

"Shirt.." I swear in my heart because the one down there still can't be compromised.

I ran the car at high speed and eventually got to the hospital.

Fortunately we arrived on time.

After the birth of Fani's baby I took Tiara back quickly to the hotel. But he still had to monitor Fani until she came to her senses. Even told me to go home first. This is the risk of having a doctor's wife. Patient safety is paramount.

Tiara returned to her room and I kept following her. "You rest on the couch or in that patient's bed, Win"

I don't want this night to just pass by, I'm hugging her from behind.

"Win.ini office." Tiara.

I turned her around and kissed her softly to the point that Tiara could not resist. Finally we went through our first night in Tiara's room.