LOVE SLAVE

Forty one

With heavy footsteps I walked slowly towards the fierce debate between Kevin and Ammar which was also being witnessed by my brother Rendy.

Ends all today God. . I am really afraid to see their faces.

" Fanny. . Brother doesn't believe you can be in a difficult position like this" Rendy said in a panicked tone.

I was still speechless looking down not daring to stare at their faces one-on-one.

" Fanny. . Kevin's brother is sure you've seen this all from here right??? If you can provide answers and choices between us, brother Kevin hope now you also answer "Say Kevin.

I was surprised to hear Kevin say that, I ventured to look them all in the face.

I saw Rendy's sister gesturing by shaking her head at me.

" Fanny. . Don't ever try to betray our love dear. . You're just mine ". Ammar said in a firm tone.

Oh my god, I hate this condition. as if it really strangles me slowly, then what should I do??? I don't want to hurt any of them. . . Kevin is very kind, and Ammar. . I know he has hurt me many times, but I still love him so much God. . .

" Shya. . . " Call Kevin very gently.

Makes my heart hurt even more to hear it. . .

" Fanny, we're getting engaged, baby. I will be yours as a whole as well as you. . . " Said Ammar as if he did not want to lose.

Long time I was silent. . I could not think calmly and focus, all as if deadlocked. But what I realized. . . They are all trying to make me happy, what if I alone bear all the pain later. . . I don't want to see them getting more vengeful towards each other later.

" Fanny. . Are you okay? " Task brother Rendy waking up my daydream.

Then I smiled in response.

" I'm sorry, I've caused a commotion among you. I am guilty of this, I never imagined things would get complicated like this eventually. And. . . Kevin, you're a good man. You're an adult, you're unique, you're the first man I've ever been amazed by your calm demeanor in the face of Ammar's repeatedly rude attitude toward you. . . Whereas. . .you're Ammar. You know I love you so much, I'm always afraid that in the end our relationship won't last long, but you. . . have you ever thought about really appreciating my feelings??? You're just repeating back the pain you once inflicted ". I spoke at length until unconsciously my tears began to drip.

" Fanny. . . I. . . "

" Stop there Ammar, don't come any closer. Let me finish my speech first. . . " My words stopped Ammar from approaching me.

Ammar was silent on the spot,

" And . . I, I'm not an item you can fight for for whatever reason. I don't want to hurt any of you, I just want to be able to love and love one person who is truly sincere to me. . . but after what condition I currently see from you. .. Please forgive me, let me live quietly after this, please, learn again to be more mature than some of the things I experienced yesterday, and. . . let me alone to rearrange my heart, without. . . You're Ammar, and also. . without you brother Kevin ". I said with a little stammering holding tightness in the chest. I don't know if this is the right answer for the good of all of us or. . . Ah I don't know.

I'm ready, let me endure my own pain here.

" Fanny, you. . . What do you mean ha??? do you want to end our relationship??? Don't be silly Fanny. . This isn't fair. . . " Ammar replied in denial.

" Fanny. . Are you sure this is your last choice??? is this from your heart??? Don't force yourself so. . Don't be stupid. . . " Task Rendy's sister connecting, who then approached me and hugged my body tightly.

I am still trying to hold back so that my tears do not break. . .

" Fanny. . If this is what you want. . . I will not insist, brother Kevin will still support you if you consider this to be the best. But that doesn't mean Kevin just gave up on brother's love. . . " Say Kevin softly.

He always seemed calm in difficult situations like this though.

" Fanny, don't make me fret. . I promise I won't repeat the same mistake again but darling. . pliss don't end our relationship this way ". Ammar replied as he approached me, grabbing my hand with his cold grasp. . It was so cold I felt this time.

" I'm sorry Ammar. . Don't force me anymore. I just want to be alone first "I answered taking off his hand.

" ammar, don't make my heart ache by looking at you like this, don't be crazy you're Ammar "I'm getting upset about it.

Rendy's brother began to be stunned at the confusion of seeing Ammar so.

" sister Rendy, Anterin Fanny's coming home right now "My door is on Rendy's sister.

Brother Rendy slapped a wave, then caught up with me who had already stepped away first.

Oh god why it hurts so much I feel this reality. . . I feel like I can no longer breathe.

Let it. . let me feel this even though it is very painful.

I don't want them to be hurt by my choice if I have to choose one of them.

And Ammar. . .

If only I could be honest, I'd be so happy you proposed to me this morning Ammar. . . All are late.

During the trip, I just fell silent with a sobbing that was enough to make my chest tight. And Rendy's brother who brought me home at this time, he fell silent as if he did not dare to rebuke me with a word.

I kept staring at the road ahead, until I realized this was not the way to my house.

I looked at Rendy's face, brother,

" Udah. . Nangis aja as much, you also know brother will take where you are today. Can't it be. . . You come home in such crying condition to meet om and aunt at home??? "

Hearing Rendy's words, my tears began to break in the car he was driving. She is indeed the sister who always understood the condition of my heart, it was fortunate to have her as the big brother in my life.

Brother Rendy who originally heard my broken cry can only laugh at me.

" Haduuuh basic boy, still cengeng spoiled so that the styles would ngadepin two guys at once. . huuuh. . . Fanny. . . Fanny. . . " Sister rendy kept laughing at me by shaking his head occasionally looking at me who kept crying for myself.

And. .just as I thought it was.

Brother Rendy took me to a place where. . . This was indeed one of our last destinations when we were struck by deep sadness and pain. Previously, I had carved a joking laugh in this place with Kevin. . together made a wish for seeing a shooting star, and. . . remembering all the laughs he made to make me smile cheerfully. . The more hurt this heart of God. Have I started falling in love with her??? Hah. . . so fast??? hahaha don't be crazy Fanny. . . You're just used to being with her when your heart tries to forget the pain Ammar gave you two months ago.

" Fanny. . Are you sure about this choice??? Brother is worried, you are just trying not to hurt Kevin, so that later will make Ammar more arbitrary because you feel you have forgiven him, right??? " Task Rendy who then also sat with me staring at the vast ocean on this beach.

I was silent as much as I wanted. . .

" Sister knows how much you love Ammar. How not, if in fact you can survive this long distance relationship for one year, even though you repeatedly hurt "She said again.

" Sister . . sometimes, this is a trait that is difficult to accept by most women in this world. Why should I be willing to endure pain for the sake of not hurting the people who have always been good to her. Is this human, right, brother??? I don't want to look like a selfish woman or feel the most beautiful in the world. Kevin's brother is very good, Fanny is sure he will easily find someone more than Fanny. As for Ammar, let him feel I'm being mean to him this time. For the sake of seeing how serious she is in this relationship, does she really love me sincerely??? In this way I also want to learn more mature in the face of every problem "My words at length that makes Rendy's brother stunned to look at me, then he stroked my head and rattled it with anxiety. . .

" Without my brother knowing, my sister is an adult apparently. . . "

I just smiled in response. . .

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