LOVE SLAVE

#127

I was still sitting alone with Kevin in the hotel room he was in, I didn't dare to say much. He was silent even though he occasionally glanced at me with a smile that made me awkward.

It's been almost an hour I don't dare to move in the slightest, want to go but. .what power, my whole body is stiff. The first time I felt cold but this moment turned heated, sweat began to adorn my forehead.

" Shya. . . "

" Yes ? " answer me quickly.

" Hahaha what's wrong with you??? why is it as if it is depressed??? " ask her by laughing at me.

" Tidaak. . I just, I. . . I'm a little awkward "

" really??? wah. . I'm flattered "

" What??? flattered what??? " i replied cetus.

" yeah flattered, that means. . . I still have space in your heart "

" Cih. . . GR you. Not funny, no??? "

She smiled very sweetly at me. I know, the joke was just to cheer me up. Maybe she read my face this second???

" Fanny, tell me. . . Are you happy with Ammar??? how are you and also. . . Ammar??? "

Oh my god, what do I have to answer. How am I going to explain everything I've experienced so far. . . how am I going to hide my shame before him after this???

" Fanny. . . Are you okay, right??? " Task him again.

" i. . I'm fine Kevin, and Ammar. .. ammar. . . he. . . is having his engagement tonight "

I answered stammeringly, hearing my words Kevin fell silent for a moment. Even so, even I don't dare to see how he is currently expressing himself. Maybe he was sad or even grinned at the feeling of winning.

" So that's what made you cry and keep yelling outside??? " Task her later.

I was silent, silent, holding myself back from falling back down again my tears.

" Tell me how you've been living your life Fanny. .. Tell me everything. . . "

" What else is Kevin for??? it's all over, I don't want to remember it anymore "

" Do you still think I'm Fanny's friend??? "

Instantly I turned her head, staring at her face which so many questions saved for me. . . Again and again, my tears broke as our gazes met.

Unknowingly I exposed everything that had happened to me, none of which was missed. I don't care anymore if after this he will be disgusted or will stay away from me.

Oh my God, how embarrassing. In the end I really told him everything. Until how I and Ammar re-connected on the basis of friendship even though it was a lie and ended up being betrayed again. Kevin just silently looked at me with a glare, I'm sure in his heart he's currently laughing at me right???

" Now, I am no longer a good woman.I do not deserve to be loved by anyone, I am broken, I am despicable, I am no longer holy Kevin, Ammar has taken all of her from me. . . But it's not his fault, I'm the one who's wrong.I'm so stupid to love a jerk like him "

Aaaaaaarght. . I just kept crying nonstop, I overflowed my anger, pain, hate, and disappointment that had melded into one.

You know how much I want to end my life again. Remembering all the photos of Ammar's engagement. She smiled happily there looking at her woman. . The more I realized that I was such a weak woman that I could easily be fooled with her again and again.

I don't know what Kevin thinks seeing me continue to cry sedu sedan, in his pull my body back in his arms. In the embrace of my body tightly, I cried more and more without stopping until it felt like my voice was running out and tight in the chest.

" Be calm, Fanny, be calm. . I'm sorry, I'm sorry I left you alone Fanny. I promise, I will never leave you again for a second "he said in my ear while gently stroking my head and hair.

" Kein, I don't deserve you to care anymore. I don't deserve your attention, I'm just a stupid, dirty woman. Don't make me feel embarrassed to be around you "

Slowly Kevin took off his embrace from me, held in his hands these two cheeks and set to look at my face.

I ventured to look into his eyes. She looked at me with teary eyes, making me even more tight in my chest.

If I had preferred you, Kevin, I wouldn't have been this broken for sure. I'll always make you happy. . ., right???

" I'm here, after this I'll never make you drop another tear. I won't promise, but I'll try "

" No Kevin, you. . now. . . . Violet's "

I answered briefly by turning my face away from her gaze.

" Are you jealous??? "

" You're hurting me ??? " Answer me again with annoyance.

" Then why do you keep calling me violet's??? do you really want me to marry her and forget about you??? "

" I. . "my speech stopped by looking back at him sharply.

Again he smiled gently rubbing the rest of my tears on the cheek.

" Violet. . she. . . She was indeed a very kind and patient woman and willingly waited for me for her love. However. . . heart cannot be forced Fanny "his answer is serious.

" So, is there another woman in your heart??? " ask me starting to wonder.

For a moment he was silent, then smilingly flicked my forehead slowly.

" it is. . let's meet Rendy and Shishi after this. But clean your face first "Say it while standing away from me.

" Kevin. . . "

" Hmm??? why else Fanny??? "

" You haven't answered her yet, is there another woman in your heart right now??? "

" hahaha. . Do you really want to know???? " The answer is my teasing. I'm getting pissed he makes me curious.

" It's up to you, I'm lazy. Is it difficult for you to answer honestly to me if there is already "Answer me grumbling and stand stepping past it.

She quickly pulled my hand from behind, as I was about to head for the bathroom.

I looked at him with an angry look. . Although this shouldn't make me angry right???

But it's not fair, I've told all my stories without being missed in the least. But she. . .she kept her story a secret from me, huh. . .

" My heart. . . already belongs to someone else "his answer softly looked at me fixedly.

Degh !!!

I'm guessing you must have loved another woman Kevin. Ah. . .how lucky the woman is, may you be happy forever after this. . . me. . I am happy. Although somehow in this heart still feels there is a scar that rubs my heart until it feels heated all over my body.

" He's very lucky to get a good guy like you Kevin "I replied in a hoarse voice.

" Yes. . Hopefully this time "

Then slowly I let go of her grip in my hand, and stepped away towards the bathroom. I was going to wash my face because I was too dirty after crying for hours. However, I kept crying again to hear the words and attitude of Kevin who still cares about me. Although now in his heart. . . already there is someone else.

May you be happy always Kevin. . .