LOVE SLAVE

#122

The days that I went through began to feel different from the presence of Ammar again even though only limited to friends. But even so, occasionally Ammar always teases me with the phrase dear. I always used to ride it with the same joke.

I began to get swept up in this friendship, though. .. If only someone asked me, how is my heart right now??? I don't know. All mixed into one in there. . . There is happiness, there is longing, there is self-restraint, there is guilt, there is the urge to stop here, or.

And what makes me a little weird is that in this relationship it's like God is flipping over everything that Ammar did to me when we were dating. Without me asking as if God helped me repay him, and it makes Ammar always upset impressed there is still jealousy in his heart.

Time passed by so quickly, our friendship had been going on for a month. Sometimes I smile at myself and blush shyly every time I hear her flirting, and her jokes over the phone.

However, several times I refused to meet him. Even through the video call I never want to accept her, I. . I am not ready to meet her again, I am not ready to see her face again.

" Dear, have you heard from your sister Rendy's wedding??? " Say my mother at the dinner table, it was surprising to hear the name of Rendy's brother mentioned after so many years without news.

" What??? married??? when's mom??? Fanny hasn't heard it. Is it held abroad there??? are we going abroad ??? " ask me non-stop and pause a little.

To be honest I was a little upset, Rendy's brother just disappeared. Without even informing me, she was too busy with her work and fiancee for sure. They were really true lovers. . . engaged for so long that they were married.

I envy, sometimes.. . I think if I see a couple who have been in a relationship for many years seriously, have you never had the big trials and temptations like me before??? So that they can casually live it up to the level of marriage.

" Hey hey, one by one dong wants to ask his son. . Mommy so confused to answer which one first??? "

" Ah. . uh sorry mom, Fanny was so happy and surprised to hear it "

" The wedding ceremony was held here, at a star hotel belonging to one of the Shishi families in Indonesia, because it happened that our extended family could not attend all of them abroad. So it's held here, the event is still next month, baby. So. . From now on you can prepare a special and luxurious gift from now on for your brother. Choose first, you have to look beautiful of course. . . " Say my mother with an unusual smile glanced at me.

" Yes that's really said your mother, son, who knows if you will fall asleep from abroad hahahaa" replied Dad and then mocked me.

" Yeee. . . What the hell, would you agree if Fanny was looking for a soul mate far away??? "

" The origin of the faith why don't dong. . " said my mother suddenly.

" Haish "I replied.

Always, what is discussed always leads to confidence again. Mother never tired of saying such syndirian to me. Just because of my mistake when I was with Tristan, and even that was only once. . . that's all I was in a relationship with another belief but mom always made it all satire material to advise me.

Uh, wait a minute. . Brother Rendy will hold the biggest and most luxurious wedding of course, it means. . . Kevin will also come to Indonesia???

Suddenly my heart felt a very painful tightness. It hurts so much. . .

somehow it happened when I had to meet her again.

Ah, but maybe he's found a better heart patch than mine by his side. Or maybe. .he was dating a woman who always called him when in Indonesia a few years ago.

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Two weeks passed, I took Tommy with me around from the mall to the mall from the wedding gift shop to the jewelry store we searched to find a special gift for Rendy's wedding.

" Our Fan. . . Where should we go??? we've all beaten up but you've always rejected my choice. . Tired ah " Said Tommy complaining.

" So getting bored of me??? " Task me.

" Not a bosaaan, endless. . You are so confused, I am also confused to know. Why don't you ask for an idea with your ex-fiancee just hah, all of you ask him to accompany you " said Tommy instantly, angering me. Even though I know he's just taunting me. . .

" Yes, you can just go, I can do it myself. No need to be with anyone "

" Eeh uh. . yes yes yes, sorry princess. . . I'm just kidding, very sensitive anyway. . again fight ni ye. . . " Tommy's back to my feet.

Well. . . It has been two weeks, Ammar disappeared again without me knowing why. Although I was all my strength to ignore it, but honestly I felt lost. I started to miss her again. . but, what can I do??? I have no right to demand it more to always accompany me through my days.

" Fan. . .fanny. . . hey. . . "

Tommy's voice roused me from the daydream for a moment.

" Ayeah, why??? "

" Hmm. . Think about your ex??? hayooo. . Who is Ammar, Tristan or Ega??? ahahhaha "

" Iih what the hell, I. . I just, was wondering in my heart. It's been two weeks since Ammar disappeared again without any news of Tommy. I. . I'm afraid she's having bad things again, or. . maybe she's sick, or. . . she's mad at me??? because I always refused his invitation who always wanted to meet me secretly "

" Are you really worried or just missing him huh??? " ask Tommy firmly. Makes me stunned to turn towards him. . .

" I. . . just. .. khaw. . .watir. . .. . " answered me in a soft voice.

" Yes yes, I believe. But I hope you don't start to falter Fanny, with the return of your relationship as friends. . . I'm afraid you're starting to fall in love with her again, humane if we can fall back on the former when deciding to return to friends. But. . . it. . impressed stupid. You've been hurt a lot, haven't you??? "

" You. . You take it easy, I. . . I'm not going to be what you're afraid of Tommy. But. . . Don't ask me to promise this time. It's just, you have to keep reminding me of this "

" Fan. . Are you really not going to fall for her??? i. . I can't say anything more if you're going to be back in disappointment or hurt by a guy like Ammar " said Tommy looking me in the eye.

I turned my face away from her gaze, I believe she has read my heart from the glare of my eyes this time. . .

Aaaarght. . What's wrong with me??? why did I come back expecting more Ammar???

It pisses me off.

However, if in fact this time Ammar will again disappoint or hurt me. . I. . I. . I no longer know how to rearrange my heart. Maybe. .. I. .. It's best to just leave this world.

❤ Hi my loyal readers, Is anyone still faithful waiting for Kevin??? and how are you guys doing??? may healthy always and remain faithful waiting for my work up every day. Don't forget to press like always yes, let's dooong in the vote also. .. pliss. . . so keep the spirit of writing it ❤