LOVE SLAVE

The Nineteen

It's day two, I'm still lying weakly in bed without any activity. The doctor said only fatigue and need to rest and stay away from the pressure of the mind that will only make this body weaker.

I half laughed at that word.

What kind of mind pressure do you mean? I am really fine, it's just.. I don't know why I'm not as excited and cheerful as usual.

Bathin I always ask in my silence without stopping, Do I miss Ammar?

My mouth always reflexively answered NO !!!

Was I still expecting it, again my mouth answered NO !!!

Wh-wh-what for? But when my heart asks, do I still love her? I don't know.

But perhaps, this love is already attached to the wall of my heart.

Ceklek !!!

I heard the sound of my door opening slowly. I saw my mother come with a bowl and a glass of water on the tray she was carrying.

" Dear, time for some medicine. Eat the porridge first. " Say mother softly.

I said the clock on the wall was at 12 p.m., I let out a long sigh.

" Bund, Fanny doesn't want to take any more medicine. Fanny doesn't want to eat, it doesn't taste good." I whine at my spoiled mother.

" Eh, when did he heal like that. Can not lose dong with disease, let's aaaaaaaaaa open the mouth of the mother bribe, "

I opened my mouth half open. I don't want to see my mother sad.

I finished taking my hard-earned medicine, my manemani mother in the room. I slept at my mother's call, mother smilingly stroking my head gently.

" Fanny, what's the matter between you and Ammar? it seems, since the last time Ammar came here to take you home from his house, you guys haven't communicated at all. Sorry, you accidentally checked your phone but there is no Ammar mobile number. Why, son, are you pu-tus? "

I fell silent, then shook my head slowly.

" Mother, did your father and mother used to be dating when your relationship was always as friendly as it is today? " Task me, making mother a little surprised to look at me with half her eyebrows raised up.

" Fanny, listen to me. As far as the mother of so many relationships in this world there is still nothing that goes really smoothly dear, because if more and more a relationship is tested with a variety of certain problems, the, there will be more harmony in it. "Obviously mom is still stroking my hair.

" Are you Bun? What if one of them betrays you? For example, cheating may be. " Answer me as it is.

" Did Ammar have an affair?" Ask mom for a moment.

" A-no, no. Um, not so mom. " My reflex answered then my voice weakened again.

Huhft, it's almost a blur.

Thought I. . .

" What's the problem with your relationship? Mother does not want to continue to see you sad and weak this is dear, only if we base a relationship with each ego, then the relationship will not last long. Try to understand each other and accept each other, face all the problems together. If one of you retreats, and that's the best way then let go. Do not force anymore, if it can still be repaired and maintained yes face and find a solution together. Mother's daughter is an adult, mother believes you can face all the problems you face, do not hurt yourself just because of Love. Don't be enslaved by love, okay !!! "

I was stunned to hear mother daritadi's explanation. My eyes are warming, teary. I feel like I want to let my tears flow.

" Yes, now.. Fanny istrahat first, sleep well. If you don't want to take any more medicine, Fanny must be cured and healthy again. Ok baby, mmeach ". Mother kissed my forehead gently, I nodded slowly.

Then she left me alone in the room and closed the door tightly.

Back I remembered mother's words, my eyes blankly staring at the roof of my room.

Haists.. What is the relationship between Ammar and Nayla today, ukh.. Just considering it, I'm getting sick of wanting to go berserk again.

Honestly, I miss you Ammar. But my ego says something else. You don't deserve to miss me anymore !!!

I closed my eyes again, which I knew how long I had begun to settle back into my sleep. The effect of the medicine was so quick to react in my body.

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Until the afternoon, I felt something soft stroking my cheeks. I'm still half-well, my eyes are still heavy for me to open.

The reaction of the drug was really severe. I always made it easy to fall asleep. Thought me in the heart.

A long time ago, again I smelled the fragrance of perfume that always smelled from Ammar's body. With great difficulty I opened my eyes slowly searching for that fragrant scent.

My heart was pounding more and more, just like when I was near Ammar. I still did not realize the figure sitting beside my bed, my eyes and head were still a little heavy.

What???

How surprised I am, so it feels like this body wants to jump from the top of the mattress if it is able to.

I saw Ammar sitting next to me with his trademark smile. His face looked full of worry, I was stunned to look at him.

Is this a dream??? I asked in my heart.

I kept silent looking at the face of the man who was currently sitting in front of me.

" You're up? " She softly.

I gulped forcibly then clenched my lips tightly.

I nodded reflexively, still unable to believe that Ammar was in front of me.

" Are you hungry? Wanna drink? or. . . " His palm touched my forehead gently. I closed my eyes for a moment.

Oh my god, this must be a dream. But this gentle hand, this perfume scented scent...

Ammar brought his face closer, holding my cheek.

" You still have Fanny's fever. " I opened my eyes to see his voice becoming clearer.

Our eyes looked at each other for a long time, and suddenly my tears just flowed.

" When have you been here, Ammar? " Tell me with a word,

Ammar didn't flinch at my attitude. He looked at me with a sad face.

Then he poured out all the white water.

" Drink first, let's calm down a little. " Reply answer her gently.

I turned my face away from her, and wiped away the conscious tears that were seeping in my eyes.

" What's Ammar for, you came to see me again huh? " Tell me again with a little.

" I want you to recover from your illness, don't torture yourself like this Fanny. You're scaring me, "

" Cih. is too narcissistic. Not GR yet. Whoever is sick thinks of you, "Answer me as I am.

" I'm not saying that you're sick thinking about me, you told me honestly. " Ammar's answer struck my heart with wide eyes.

Oh my, what the hell.. What answer have I said? Just make me ashamed.

" Whatever you're thinking right now, please get out of my room right now Ammar."

" Fanny, I miss you." Answer Ammar for a moment.

I looked at him with a sharp look.

" You're a big liar, Ammar, you said you missed me because of your pity, right? Because you just feel guilty, right? Or the... Are you satisfied playing with Nayla from morning to night with her sick? Or have you been dumped with Nayla until you finally choose to see me again?"

Immediately Ammar hugged my body tightly no matter I continued to babble without stopping, until finally I really cried loose in the arms of Ammar.

Bathin me. . .

God, honestly I really miss this guy on my side back. I miss his voice, I miss his embrace, I miss his breath, I miss his scent, I miss everything that's on him.

But god, I still can't escape all the shadows of the recording about him with Nayla, even his last attitude on campus when it made me no longer able to forgive him. Really sick of it, I hate it !!!