Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 97

Today is my last day in Semarang. I have packed my stuff that I will take back home. Sad, that must be how I feel. But how else, I can't keep going here. Because I want to continue my life too. I am young and my future is long.

'Tok.tok..'

The sound of the door being knocked. And I answered to tell him to come in. It was Mas Rendy who knocked on the door. He entered with a slightly moody face. He walked over to me and sat down next to me.

"What's up, Mom? How do you look so moody again. Is there another problem?"

I can hear the rough breathing. I can see if he wants to talk something, but it seems hard to say. He also rubbed his face a few times.

"Mas, what's wrong with you? Am I wrong with you?"

"No." The answer is very short and a little bit raucous.

"Why then, Mom? You got a problem?"

"Aren't you going to stay here, Lissa?"

I looked at Mas Rendy. I don't know why I was so surprised by what he said. I didn't understand what he meant until he said that. With a heavy heart I still want to go home.

"I'm sorry, Mas. This has been my decision. And this is also for my own good. I hope you understand."

"Yes, Lis I totally understand that."

"But you can't think back. Can't you stay here with me and mom?"

"Mom loves you very much. So do I, Lis.

"What do you mean, Mom?"

"Do you not understand what I said?"

"A.I don't understand you at all, mas."

"I love you, Lis."

Instantly my heart was pounding. I was very surprised by what Mas Rendy said. It turns out he's still loved me all this time. I'm confused how.

"What did you say, Mom?"

"I love you. Stay here with me and my mom. I'll wait for your iddah period and after that I'll marry you, Lis."

"You're not kidding me, are you?"

"There's no time to joke right now, Lis. I seriously.

I thought for a moment. But desperation still cannot change. I will still go home. I no longer want to live in this city of memories. Because it's so hard for me to forget everything.

"Sorry, Mas. My decision is round. I'll still go home to Salatiga."

"I don't want to live in this memorable city anymore. I want to start a new life."

"Well, if that's your decision."

"But remember, Lis. If your idyllic days are over, I'll come and see you to live with me."

I don't understand Mas Rendy's line of thought. I think he's well established, from a well-to-do family, well-educated, his face is pretty decent too. But why didn't he try to find a companion other than me. He could have found a woman far more beautiful than me. But I don't know, I don't want to get dizzy thinking about that.

"Just pray for me to live a long life, Mom. For the age of man no one knows."

"Just wait for me, Lis."

Not long after we kept quiet, Mas Rendy pulled something out of her pocket. A red box is similar to a jewelry box. Then he gave it to me.

"This is for you, from mom. Please accept, don't make me sad."

I took it and opened the box. I was very surprised to find out what it was. A full set of jewelry. There are rings, earrings, necklaces, and also bracelets. The model is also very interesting.

"Gosh, is this for me?"

"Yes, I want you to wear it."

"But this is so much, Mas."

"Please accept, don't make me sad."

"Where's mom going, Mom? I'd like to meet and say thank you."

"Mother out of town, because there's a need."

"When to leave? The feeling last night was still at home."

"That morning was gone after dawn."

"Mas, please give my listening words to mom. I'm also sorry that I couldn't keep up with your desire to stay here."

"But promise me, Lis. Wait till I come to pick you up."

"God, Mommy."

"Well, Mas. I packed all my stuff. And soon my invitation will come."

Me and Mas Rendy stood facing each other. She stroked my hair with a face that could look sad.

"Lis, may I hug you."

I nod my head to sign I agree. I can feel if this is a very heavy farewell. Because I feel it too. We both feel sad because of a situation and condition.

I let go of Mas Rendy's embrace because there was an incoming call. It turned out to be the driver who would take me home to Salatiga. I immediately brought my stuff to get out. With the help of Rendy.

Before I got in the car, I took the time to go a little bit with Mas Rendy. I can see the two neutrals glazed through glass. If I think think the longer I'm here the less I can bear. So I decided to go straight.

"Mas, I'll say goodbye. Give my regards to mother."

No response from Rendy. Even my hands were held tightly by her as if I could not leave her. But I let go immediately. Because I don't have any heart for him.

I'll get in the car immediately. I opened the car and waved my hand. There was no reply to my hand. Mas Rendy just looked at me who was getting away from her.

This chest pain. I suddenly felt a tightness in my chest. I can't stand this farewell. But how else, it's my decision. I want to live better than ever. I want to forget the past and open a new page with a different life.

I still have some savings and some jewelry I keep. And I intend to open a business using that money. But for the jewelry given by Mother Rita I keep. Because I don't want to deceive him.

I have a lot of savings. Plus the jewelry I bought during my work and also the gift from Mas Rohman. I also want to sell some of the things I have. Like brandet bags, imported clothes, hijab, shoes and so on. Because I've seen some posts on the forum buying and selling Salatiga kusus to sell used goods that are still good. Hopefully this will sell.

In my heart I would love to open a salon. But it also needs a course first. And it came to my mind with fruit salad and pastries and brownies. Because I can make it too. So I decided to sell the food for a while through the online system first.