Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Rendy did it a third time with me. I don't know why I didn't want to, now just obey if he does it again.

All I give with just. Maybe because I started to love her, I was willing to do it. Sure enough, love does blind everything.

The rain fell down hard. The sound of lightning struck to make the electricity go out. The room went dark. It makes the atmosphere more beautiful.

I felt an incredible warmth. Tonight was a beautiful night for me. Historic night for the third time I did it with Rendy. The person in my heart right now.

And in the end we ended the activity at night. It's so unimaginable that I became like this.

I used to be an innocent girl and didn't understand this. But ever since I met Rendy, I've been like this.

Probably because it's been blinded by Rendy's love. All I gave him. I hope he is really responsible for what he did to me. Because he was also the first to desecrate me.

Pretty tired of the activity tonight. I lay with Rendy. We talk and talk about the past. Remembrance of those already.

Sometimes Rendy also tells about her past. Who was betrayed by his lover. Because Rendy's ex-boyfriend had an affair with someone. And he refused to tell it.

He also told me not to remember Rohman's name. Because if I call him, he seems very dislikeful.

In my mind it says, could there ever be something between Rohman and Rendy? It seems he has hidden something from me.

But I prefer to be quiet. I appreciate Rendy being with me, and I wouldn't mention Rohman by name if I were with him.

Even though I miss a little, I prefer to be quiet. Because there is a heart that I have to take care of for now.

Maybe time will open it all up. I prefer to be quiet and will not interfere if between Rendy and Rohman really there is something.

"Darling, do you really love me?"

"Why are you asking like that, mom?"

"Let's go, baby, my heart is a little hesitant. You are with me at the moment. But I feel like your heart is for someone."

"That's it, I don't need to talk about it anymore. I will always try to be there for you. Let the time determine. I'm not the hypocritical type. I'm what I am like this. And what you say is true, but you don't have to worry. I'll stay for you, mas."

"Dear, I understand that. I admit I was wrong. I am the one who arrives among you."

"Have not been discussed again. I don't want to argue."

"I love you Lissa. Until I will wait for you. That love will never fade."

"Yes, I understand. And I appreciate everything from you. I'll try to love you too."

"Love you Lissa."

"Love you too, Rendy."

Rendy smiled and floated a warm kiss on my forehead. I am so happy to be with him. But my heart could not love him completely. Because there is still a sense of hidden love for someone who is now disappearing without news.

"Thank you, baby. You've made me happy."

"Yes, same thing. Can I ask you something?"

"What is that, baby?"

"Have you ever done this with another woman. Your boyfriend or maybe the woman out there?"

"Dear, I'll answer your question. I dare to do this with you. Before I knew you, if I wanted to, I always tried to work out how to be satisfied without having to do it with a woman."

"Then why are you so brave with me, mom?"

"One word dear, I love you sincerely. I purposely stained you to keep you with me. That's how I got you."

"It's so bad of you, ma'am."

Rendy smiled at me. Then she clutched my body tightly. Either I have to trust him or not. Clearly this has happened.

"Sleep baby, if you're sleepy. The night is getting late too. I'll hug you."

************

The sound of birds singing. I opened my eyes, a little glare because the sunlight entered through the glass gap.

I saw on my left side, Rendy was still lying down but she had already woken up from her sleep. He greeted me with a warm smile and kiss.

"Good morning, baby."

"Morning, mas." (Jawabku quietly with a slightly hoarse voice.)

"Are you okay, baby?"

"Yes, I'm fine with you."

"Thank God, baby, I want to wake you up. But I doubt it, because you slept too well. You seem to be tired."

"Yes, I'm so tired."

When Rendy was about to kiss me, I tried to turn her down.

"Why? Don't you like it, baby?"

"It's not so mas, I don't want us to continue like this. It may be true what your father said, we better get married first."

"Okay baby, I'll follow your will. But on condition, this month must be married. I don't want to linger long."

"This month, ma'am?"

"Yes, it should be this month. I don't want to accept any reason. I've all prepared."

I exhaled violently. I really don't understand what's on his mind. It's really too fast for me. The desire to enjoy youth is gone.

"As far as you are, my. Set how good we are. I followed you. But please don't do this again. You're too wild for me."

"Dear, tomorrow I'll take you home from the village and I want to meet your family. While I will come alone first, because my father and mother do not know when to go home. Most importantly my intention is that you're really serious."

Rendy got out of bed. He walked towards the closet and picked up something. I was still lying on the bed.

A box was given to me. The red box. The shape and decoration seem very elegant. He told me to open it.

I was very surprised when I opened the box that was given to me. Some gold jewelry that seems very beautiful.

" Yes, this is yours?"

"No, it's yours, baby."

"You mean?"

"All this jewelry is for you."

"Make me, mas?"

"Yes, for you?"

"Are you serious?"

"I never play, baby."

"But this is too much, ma'am."

"You likey?"

"Yes, I like it."

"If you like it, why don't I. This is nothing more dear than all that you have given me. Here's the letter if someday you're going to sell it or you're going to trade it for another model."

"It's all real gold, is it?"