Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 94

It took me about half an hour to get to my mother-in-law's house. The distance from the hospital is also very far. There's not much we're both talking about. Because I have to keep the word because I just lost Mas Rohman. I'm just afraid there's a misunderstanding until Mother-in-law finds out I'm coming home with Mas Rendy.

Finally the car has entered the house of Mother-in-law. I immediately got off without waiting for Mas Rendy to open the door. I walked in slow steps to get into the house. I hesitated a little when I wanted to say hello. I fear that all the families of Mas Rohman blame me for the passing of Mas Rohman.

However, I am still a son-in-law here. I kept clinging to knock on the door and say hello, even though my chest was pounding so fast.

Tok.dok..

"Assalamot."

"Getishalight."

It didn't take long for my greetings to be answered immediately. And I memorized it was the voice of the father and mother-in-law. The sound of footsteps will soon open the door.

His mother Mas Rohman was very different from before. He looked at me as if he didn't like me coming. When I reached out to kiss the back of my two-in-law's hands, my mother-in-law seemed unconcerned. I was so shaking watching this. I know the meaning of all this, if Mother-in-Law is very much not expecting my presence again.

But unlike the father, he was calm and still greet me. I was still quietly waiting to be invited in. Because it's very presumptuous if I just come in. But soon, I heard a woman's voice. Yes, of course I know very well that's the voice of his sister Mas Rohman.

"Who's coming, Mom, dad?"

"Here he is, son, the unlucky carrier that caused your sister to die. Here you go, you son of a bitch." My mother-in-law said, pointing at me.

Tub struck by lightning in the middle of a hole. Just now that I lost a child and a husband, now I have to be tested with the attitude of Mother-in-law. I do feel guilty. If only I had not whined to go out that night, perhaps Mas Rohman would still be with me today.

I don't want any of this to happen. But bad luck always hit me. Until I felt that I was indeed the unlucky carrier for everyone. I have no power to hold back my tears. Not here, my mother-in-law still curses me with harsh words.

"If I hadn't given permission to marry Rohman, he might still be alive."

"You're a fucking carrier. Don't know it's lucky."

"Go from here! I don't want to see you anymore. Because you're my son died."

The father-in-law tried to calm his wife. Then he took his wife inside. His brother Mas Rohman spoke to me. She still seems ordinary, but I don't know her heart.

"Sir, you better go home first. Later if the situation has improved, I can't come here again."

"Yes,dek. I know, maybe mom was devastated by the passing of Mas Rohman. But I'm also very hit with all this. I don't want this to happen either."

"Yes, Mother. Better to go home first. Ma also needs rest."

"Alright, then I say goodbye. Assalamualaikum."

"Getishalight." The door was closed instantly by his younger brother Mas Rohman. And I stepped up with tears in my eyes.

It turns out that Mas Rendy is still waiting for me. He stood up and approached me. He led me into the car. And the car began to drive along the home page.

"Lis, you're patient, yeah. I'm sorry I couldn't interfere with this."

"I just don't want to get involved in your problems."

"Yes, Mas. It's okay, it's okay."

"God. You don't talk like that, Lis. Not good."

"It's all fate, and it's not your fault. Maybe Rohman's age has come here."

"And maybe Rohman's mother spoke like that because she was devastated by the loss of her son."

"Yes, I understand. Losing someone we love is very painful. Just like how I feel right now."

"That's enough, Liss. Don't discuss anything else first, for now all you need is rest and calm down."

I don't answer any more words from Mas Rendy. The car he was driving was turning around. Mas Rendy didn't take me home. I don't know where I'm going to be taken.

"Where are we going, Mom? Not the direction of my house to get there, yeah. Why did you turn back here, Mas?"

"For a while you stayed at my house."

"There is a mother who can bring you. I'm just afraid why because you're alone there. You need a friend to keep your mind from stressing."

I just silently responded to what Mas Rohman said. What they say has a point, too. But why go to his house, maybe I should just go to my mother's house in the village.

"Mas, just take me to the bus stop. I want only village. Maybe it's a lot more comfortable in there for me to calm this empty mind."

"Just stay at my house, Lis. My mom will be happy because there are friends too."

"I beg you, Lis. For a few days."

"But just for a while, Mom. The rest of the time I'll go home and maybe stay there forever."

"What's? Are you seriously going home?"

"Maybe I'd better live in the village, Mas. I want to forget everything so that the mind is not tormented."

"Try to rethink your plan."

"God willing, I've thought maturely, Mas."

No more talking between the two of us. And finally we have arrived in front of Mas Rendy's house. He led me to come inside.

It looks so lonely this house. Remember when this family was complete. There was a father, a mother, his sister Mas Rendy, and also Mas Rendy. But all that is gone and will not be returned as before. His father and brother, Mas Rohman, were called by the creator. Now only Mas Rendy and Bu Rita live in this house.

"Mas, how lonely is it."

"Where's mom going?"

"Said arisan. I'll be back later too."

"You better take a break, Lisa. Let me take you to the room."

Rendy brought my clothes to the room I would occupy later. Then he left me alone in the room. It's okay, I also want to rest close my eyes because this body is very weak. Maybe because the effect has not been so the body feels weak.

I lay this body on the bed, and I looked up at the sky of this room. I still imagine that I am still with Mas Rohman.