Trapped in the Love of the Past
Trapped in the Love of the Past
Eps. 47
These footsteps walked through the hot sun. Nausea and dizziness now I often feel. I won't complain, because I know it's like this is what a young pregnant woman looks like. Gradually it will definitely disappear by itself if the content is getting bigger.
This self is already standing at the door of the house. With an irregular breath, I set my breath first. To make everything look good.
I knock on the door and say hello. Not long after the door opened. My mother welcomed me. Don't forget I kissed the back of his hand as a filial to his mother. A friendly smile makes me want to hug my mother.
I immediately went inside and laid myself down on the chair. Although the trip only takes an hour and a half, but this back feels very tired.
Mom came by to bring me warm tea and biscuits. I feel very happy with my mother's treatment. So great is his affection for me.
As I was enjoying my mother's warm tea, I remembered something. My goal was to get home with a news story. Because I was tired, I put off telling her. I chose to rest first.
"Mom, I'm actually going home with something to talk about."
"What do you want to say, son?"
"Long bu story. I'll tell you later. Now I'm tired mom, want to rest first."
"You don't eat first, son?"
"Later, ma'am."
I went into the room and laid myself in the bed. Before I close my eyes, I pick up my phone. Want to open whatsap application, who knows there is an important message.
And sure enough, after I opened it turned out that there were some incoming messages and missed calls. Among them are Rohman, Rere, and Rita's mother.
Deg'
Jesus, Rita's mom called me earlier. I wanted to call back but I was scared. I'm afraid that he'll call me and have something to do with Rendy.
I better just shut it down. And I immediately replied to another message. From Arman and from Rere.
[say, have you arrived?] Rere.
[Alhamdulillah, I just went in the room wanting to rest.]
[Thank God, you have rested.]
[Yes, say.] I ended the chat with Rere and immediately replied to a message from Mas Arman.
[Darling, are you coming home?]
[So, I just got here and wanted to rest for a while.]
[Sorry, I can't take you.]
[Yes, it's okay.]
[Yes, you rest first. I'll wait for your good news later.]
[Yes, I'll let you know soon if I talk to my family.]
[Yes, baby.]
I'm not replying to any more messages from Rohman. Since my eyes were unable to wake up, I decided to go to sleep. Hopefully later after sleeping the dizziness is no longer there.
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I woke up from my sleep. I noticed that the wall clock was already showing at four in the afternoon. I squirmed my body for a moment. Then get out of bed and into the living room.
The house looks empty. I don't know where the tumben once was. I turned on the tv to drive away the loneliness. I feel thirsty with this throat. I rushed to the kitchen to get a drink.
Suddenly I was surprised by the ringing sound of the phone I was carrying. My heart skipped a beat because I was so shocked. A call in. I noticed the phone screen had the name of Rita's mom.
This time I was confused. If I raise my premonition, this must have something to do with Rendy. On the other hand, I would not feel good if I ignored him again. But I was also curious, what was Rita's mom from earlier calling me.
[Hallo, assalamualaikum s.]
[Waalaikumsalam, son.]
[Ehm, sorry ma'am, what's wrong? Tumben once mom called me.]
[Son, I actually want to talk to you.]
[Yes ma'am may, please speak to me, ma'am.]
[Can we meet, son?]
[Sorry ma'am, for now it seems like you can't. Because I'm back home now.]
[You puoang village? When will I return to Semarang?]
[Not yet, ma'am. Maybe one week in the village.]
[For a long time, were there any pieces of you in the village?]
[Yes ma'am, talking about Arman's proposal.]
[What son? You want to get married?]
[God willing, ma'am, please pray.]
[That's when you hit Rendy, son?]
[That's not mom, there's another reason.]
[Is it because you are pregnant?]
[Sorry mom, I have business. Talk later, yes.]
[Son, your mouth could be lying. But your heart is not. I believe that the child in your womb is not the child of your future husband.]
[Sorry Mom, I don't have time. Next time the kit connects again. Assalamualaikum.]
My phone connection turned off unilaterally. I felt like I was being chased by something. A deep fear haunted me. Fear that a lie will be exposed. I'm confused as to how to avoid Rendy's family.
It seems that Miss Rita really hopes for me. I know he has treated me so well. Think of me as his own son.
But when I think of Rendy, the pain is so deep that I feel. Remembering how he was at the hospital. He doesn't remember who I am. It was a bloodless wound, but it hurt as much as I felt.
God, what am I thinking now. Why do I only have Rendy in mind. I got up and rushed to take a shower. That way maybe this thought will come back fresh.
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Tonight my family gathers in front of the tv. Me, mother, brother, sister, and grandmother. Except for my father, because my father died a few years ago. While watching tv and coincidentally gathering, I ventured to start telling stories.
I set my breath first, and then I started talking to my mom. I told you everything that happened to me. About Rendy, and about Jimmy. But I didn't tell you about my pregnancy. I'm afraid my mom is mad at me.
The mother who heard my story gave me advice, so I can be patient first. And mom also advised me to help Rendy to restore her memory. But I reject my mother's opinion.
"For what mom maintained, if Rendy doesn't remember me anymore. Even when I arrived at the Hospital, she was with a woman, her mother said. Just imagine mom, why when Rendy forgets memory, does not remember who. Instead, he remembers his ex. I can't, ma'am."
"Son, there's a time. I'm pretty sure Rendy's gonna get well. It just takes time and it takes support and process."
"Sorry mom, I can't. I'll be asked by someone."
"What son? you want to get someone?"
"Yes mom. He's a nice guy who comes from a good family, too. Plans will propose to me if I've told him in the near future."
