Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 93

Little by little, the food began to enter my stomach. I actually feel hungry too. But there is no appetite at all.

I can no longer afford to eat the food I eat. I think my stomach is so nauseous. Miss Rita hurriedly gave me a glass of water. And I took it.

"Son, I'm sorry about your husband's departure."

"Honestly, my mother also feels the pain of seeing you like this."

"Mom has also felt what you feel, son."

I can't afford to reply to Ms. Rita. Only tears on my cheeks. I really want to feel like I'm in a quiet place and scream as loud as possible. So sad this life.

I also just felt happiness. But it was just a moment and now Mas Rohman and my baby-to-be are gone forever. There is no hope for life anymore. I really want to catch them.

Imagine the three of us getting together. Enjoy the day of gathering together. Imagine me being called mother by my son. Oh, my God, why did everything go like this. What was my fault and sin so far that you could make my life like this.

Am I not allowed to live happily, until the one who is with me is always taken away. Happiness that was on the edge of the horn, is now suddenly gone. I want to end my life which means nothing more.

I cried in Miss Rita's arms. Right now all I need is a warm hug. So that my emotions can be controlled. Losing someone we love is painful. Sick but not bleeding. Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now.

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I've been in hospital for a few days. And thank God today I have been allowed to go home. During my time at the Hospital, the ones who accompanied me were Bu Rita and Rendy. My family sometimes visits me. It was because of the situation and conditions that were not possible.

Because it's far away, and I feel sorry for my mother for accompanying me here. I don't feel so bad. So I forced him to go back to Salatiga. Because my condition is getting better and better.

As for Mas Rohman's family, I haven't seen him in my care. Do they all hate me so much that no one would visit me for even a moment.

No, I can't be so prejudiced. Maybe I should just go home to my mother-in-law first. I'd love to see how Mas Rohman's family is doing. Do they still think of me as his son-in-law aka the wife of the late Mas Rohman.

All the stuff I've done. At that moment, Rendy came. This time he came alone not with Bu Rita. I feel awkward and confused too. I'm afraid later if someone comes to see, and there's a bad talk. I took the initiative to get Mas Rendy to just go home. And I want to go to my mother-in-law's house by taking an online taxi.

"Mas, why are you here? Which mother?"

"I just want to take it if you're okay."

"Yes I'm fine, Mom. It's just me for being allowed to go home today."

"Oh yeah, which mother?"

"It just so happened that mom had some business. This is me dropping off mom and coincidentally going through here. So I'll just drop by."

"Oh that. Then you better just go home, Mom. Because I also swhat and want to go home to his mother Mas Rohman."

"Then I'll just drop you off, we happen to be one way.

"Don't, Mas. No need to bother. My luggage is just this."

"In addition, I also do not feel good later with Mas Rohman's family if I know I came home from the hospital escorted by another man."

"It's not so, Lissa. My intention is just to give you a ride. We're this direction. What's wrong with us just being together."

"I'm sorry, but I can't. I'm just gonna take a taxi online."

"Liss, what's wrong with you? My intentions are good. I just want your anterin. I'm just afraid you'll why."

"That's it, nothing more. Rohman's parents also know who I am."

"I used to be the same as Rohman."

"I beg you, Mas. Let me go home alone. If you want to help me, just follow me from behind to make sure I'm okay and nothing happens."

Not yet so Mas Rendy answered my question, I've stepped away leaving Mas Rendy. Without me waiting for him again. I'm just not good with the words of people who will see me later if delivered home Mas Rendy.

I'm heading to the administration desk to finish my finances while I'm in the hospital. Fortunately I brought a wallet and thank God all my Mas Rohman ATMs are holding and I know all the pins.

But how surprised I was, I just mentioned my name and was about to find out the cost of my treatment. It seems to have paid off. And when I asked who paid, I was surprised again. It turned out that Mas Rendy had taken care of all the expenses during my time at the Hospital.

I feel so guilty about Mas Rendy. I apologized and wanted to change the money. Because the possibility of costs incurred is also not small.

But Rendy refused the money. And he said mom paid him. He also said that he didn't have to return the money.

"Mas, I'm sorry I snapped you earlier."

"I don't mean anything like that."

"You relax, Liss. No need to remember anymore."

"Then, this is the administrative money I return. It's really inappropriate for you and mom to pay for all this."

"That beepang mother as a thank you. So I beg you not to give it back."

"I'm afraid that you'll be sad."

"But, that's not a bit of Mas Rendy. I'm sure at this ATM the money's more than enough."

"You just take it, Mom. Let's just say I pay you a debt. Because I borrowed your money to pay for the hospital."

"That's it, Lis. It's all the mothers who say it's not mothers. If you want, just give the money back to me."

"But, Mas.."

"Already, nothing but a fireplace. We better go home now. It will soon be dark."

"Yes, Mum."

"And one more, Liss. Come home with me, because I'm worried about you."

After I thought I finally decided. I decided to go home with Mas Rendy. I'm heading to Mother-in-law's house. Because I don't want to live alone in the house that Mas Rohman bought. My husband also just died. And the njai event for my husband was held at the house of in-laws.