Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 96

"Mom, let me go home." I held tightly onto Ms. Rita's hand as I pleaded. Because I can see if he's so heavy to let go of me.

"Son, I'm actually very heavy to take you off. But I realize, if I don't have the right to forbid you."

"Mom can only pray for you, so that your life will be much better."

"And mom asked too, please don't forget mom's with Rendy."

"Both mother with Mas Rendy I will always remember, Mom."

"I'm very grateful to my mother and Mas Rendy who are very kind and have helped me a lot."

"I don't know what to return the favor with, because I don't have anything."

Bu Rita and Mas Rendy just looked down. They refuse to meet me face to face. But even so, I can feel a deep sadness.

But how else, this is also for the good of myself. So that I can be free from this suffering. So that I can also forget all the bitter memories I have experienced in this Semarang City.

Today I intend to meet his sister Mas Rohman in silence without the knowledge of his parents. I made an appointment with him because there will be something I have to talk about.

After I got permission to leave, I decided to meet at a cafe. It turned out that his brother Mas Rohman came with my father-in-law. There is worry and fear. But I tried as calmly as possible to deal with it. Because my intentions are good too.

I sat opposite my sister-in-law and father-in-law. They welcomed me very kindly. Smiles covered the faces of both. Whether it's a real smile or a fake I don't know. Hopefully they are really good to me and not pretend.

I'm straight at the core of the conversation. In a relaxed and polite tone I began to speak. I told him I was going back to Salatiga. Because I realize here I don't have anyone else. My beloved husband is dead and my mother-in-law hates me. And blame me for the death of Mr. Rohman.

Pain is the mother-in-law's speech. But it hurts even more to be left by the husband for a long time. Wounds that are very difficult to treat.

"Father, brother, I apologized for the passing of Mr. Rohman. I don't want this to happen either."

"I can understand and accept all the words of my mother. I realized it was all worth it to me."

"But to be honest, sir, I'm also devastated by all of this. I don't want this to happen. But what if all this was destiny."

"Yes, mbak. Rohman is dead. The age of man will never be known."

"Son, please forgive your mother. Maybe your mother spoke rudely to you out of control. I hope you can forgive with iklas, son."

"Yes, sir. Lissa knows and understands how mom feels. Maybe you can't accept all this. And my mother was also hit with this incident. Lissa understood and forgave."

"Oh yes, father. This is the key to Lissa's house, and Lissa's only carrying Lissa's stuff."

"Are you sure you want to go home and leave home?"

"Actually I'm very hard to leave this city. But if I continue to continue here that there I am even more soluble in sadness. Fear always remembered all the memories here."

"Not only that, my intention is to go home and open a new page. I want to find a job there. And I also want to reunite with my family. Because here I have no one else. I just want my life to be so much better than before."

"May you, equally adek can understand the reason I came home."

"Yes already, son. If that is your decision, you can only wish you the best. Hopefully in the future you can live a lot better."

"Yes, thank you for that."

"Send my regards to Mom. Sorry I can't talk in person. Because I remember a mother like that. I'm just afraid to hear your mother's words."

"Yes, mom. Please forgive mom."

"Nothing to forgive."

"Yes, then Lissa said yes, father, adek. You take care of your health. Later I will come here to see Mas Rohman."

Then I went out from in front of them. I don't feel these tears dripping on their own. My heart was so filled after chatting with my father-in-law and sister-in-law. There is a deep sense of sadness because the day after tomorrow I will leave this city.

I returned to Mas Rendy's house with a little lethargy. I said hello and then went into the house. It turned out that Mas Rendy and Bu Rita were sitting in front of the tv. They welcomed me with some questions. Like dealing with a reporter.

"Assalammual."

"Vaalaikumsalam. You're home, son. Sit here with Mom and Rendy." I sat in the middle of my mother and Mas Rendy. I don't know if I'm feeling something different right now.

"Where are you from?"

"From meeting the father-in-law with the sister-in-law."

"Kok you didn't take me? I can get it."

"Not what, Mom. It'll be just a minute either."

"What do you need?"

"I just want to turn home keys, Mom. I'm just saying goodbye if I want to go home tomorrow."

"What is your husband's family response?"

"Father is the same good sister, Mas said. They pray for me who is good. I dare not meet my mother. I'm just afraid to hear what Mom says."

"Are you sure you really want to go home?"

"God willing, Mas. But maybe I won't know when I'll be back here for a while to take care of the mail."

"When you need to help me, Lis."

"Yes, thank you for your help."

"Then I go to the room first yes, mother, mas. I want some of my stuff."

"Oh yeah, I've booked a car for the chart tomorrow."

"Well, why don't you ask me to help you come home? I have a car too."

"Sorry, mom. I've been troubling you too much with mom. So plis please respect my decision."

"Yes, I can't force you."

I nodded my head and went to the room. I put this body on the bed. I looked up at the sky on the wall. Until it does not feel this eye closed by itself. I fell asleep during the day. Sleep can calm the heart and mind. Although I will fight back with the contents of the brain, at least I rest first.