Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 36

We miss each other so much that we don't feel a cry when it breaks. Rere gave me the spirit to keep me strong and for the baby in the womb.

"You're patient, I'm sure you'll be strong."

"Yes, inshaAllah. Thank you so much, and Andry. Because your sisters said you would take turns waiting for me here."

"It is not necessary to think, the most important thing now that you are aware. Remember my message yes, don't mind much."

"Ehm, but the sister said there was a mother mother of beautiful tall stature. He also waited for me during the coma. Do you know who you think?"

Rere was silent for a moment. As if to say something. But he hesitated. But he finally told me who the middle-aged woman I meant was.

"Ehm, do you really want to know who he is?"

"Yes, I wonder who exactly is."

"He came here a few times, say. Rendy's mother, take care of you. He seems to love you very much. But dear destiny says another."

"Here I am, not to be remembered. Let the past pass."

From the conversation we both to forget if there is Rohman. We feel bad. Because I was chatting so much.

Rohman was silent, smiling and watching the two of us. Then he was busy with his phone.

"Oh yes, say, Andry where. Why doesn't he come to see me."

"Oh, he rushed home because he was not feeling well. He sends you a greeting."

"Oh, that's okay." I smiled with relief because my best friend was very attentive to me.

"Oh yeah, Rohman you've been here a long time?"

"Yes, that's fine."

"Ehm, Rere there's something I want to talk about. It's about Rohman."

"Yes I already know. I know everything. Even about Rohman and Chika I know I say."

"What's? You know everything?"

"Yes, Andry and I know everything. If you are a match, I can only pray for you."

"Amin, thank you, I."

We both hugged back. I don't feel these tears just dripping. The sweet and happy cry I am feeling now. After experiencing pain some time ago.

"Oh yes, I said you want to tell me about your relationship with Chika?"

"Later if you're really healthy I'll tell you."

"It can't be now, ma'am. I'm curious 'cause I don't want me to be accused of what I'm not."

"You're calm. If you're allowed to go home, I promise I'll tell you everything."

"Well, if so, I'll wait."

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This afternoon I was allowed to go home. I packed my stuff. It just so happened to be Sunday, so I was escorted to the boarding by Rohman. Because he's on a work holiday.

It didn't take long to get to the store. Rohman led me to the boarding house. Then tell me to rest.

He was so painstakingly cleaning my room. Because it's pretty dirty after all this time I left. Sometimes he looks at me with a smile.

I don't know why if I see her smile always blossoming flowers of my heart. Sweet smile with her dimples. I don't know why it feels so good to see her smile.

So did I, because I was sleepy, I closed my eyes. Until it doesn't feel like it's dark. After a few hours of sleep, we finally woke up.

I took my phone and I looked at the front screen. It turns out that time has shown at seven o'clock in the evening. If you think long enough we also fall asleep.

Rohman rose from his sleep and rushed to the bathroom. She was washing her face and slightly wetting her hair.

Looking at Rohman who had just come out of the bathroom, I got up from my bed. I rushed to the bathroom to pee and wash my face.

Rohman swiftly led me. But I refused it, because the body already feels good.

"Non, I'm helping."

"No, mas. I'm perfectly healthy."

"Not what, non. I'm afraid you're why. Let me help you."

"No, mas. I'm fine, I can walk on my own. I'm really good, seriously. You don't have to worry."

"Ehm, yes you have the heart of the way."

"Yes, my mom."

I washed my face and slightly wet this hair. It was so fresh even though it was dark. My mind calmed down and my health began to improve. Although sometimes the shadow of people in the past momentarily flashed through my mind.

I walked out of the bathroom. I found Arman sitting in bed busy with his phone. But sometimes he looked at me who walked up to him.

I sat next to him. And Rohman embraces my shoulder not forgetting he smiles at me. My heart trembled as I sat next to her. Especially with her sweet smile with her dimples. Makes me smile in my heart.

The atmosphere was quiet because we were silent. I was confused how to start a conversation so as not to feel awkward. But if it continues to be silent like this I am afraid it will be carried away. I finally decided to start a conversation.

"Mas, are you really serious about me?"

"Why are you asking me about that again, non?"

"Ehm, anu mas I just want to make sure. Because you know for yourself what my situation is like now."

"It's non, there's nothing to discuss anymore. It's all clear, I'm really serious about you."

"Okay, then I'm sorry."

"There's no need to apologize. Oh yeah, what do you want to eat? It's night, you haven't eaten since last day."

"I'm so lazy to eat."

"Don't do it, non. You have to eat it up take vitamins. Remember you're pregnant don't eat."

"But really, I don't have appetite."

"Ehm, just gini. I bought you a snack. Maybe biscuits or bread let your stomach not be empty."

"It's up to you, ma'am."

"If so I'll let you out for a while. You just wait here, go nowhere."

"Hmmm, yes."

Rohman came out to buy me a snack. While I was back at the hostel by myself just making lonely friends. Just like yesterday.

Instantly it came to my mind about someone's shadow. The person who was here yesterday. But suddenly he went far away leaving me. And will never come back.

I didn't feel like these tears were just pouring down my cheeks. Given the happy day that was in sight, suddenly disappeared just like that.

The wounds I feel right now. But I keep trying hard for the sake of my future baby. I have to be strong for tomorrow and beyond. I cannot be fragile and must keep fighting.