Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 91

No longer do I wait for a reply from Mas Rohman. I put the phone on the nightstand, and then I continued to rest. It doesn't take long to close your eyes. Because I already felt eyes so heavy to wake up.

After a long time of falling asleep, I finally woke up as well. But these eyes still feel heavy to open. I saw a faint shadow of someone standing up. I haven't been so able to see clearly. Because it is still under the influence of sleepiness.

With a bit of coercion, I was finally able to open my eyes. Rohman was right in front of me. She smiled at me, stroking my hair.

"Mas, you're home."

"Cokn't wake me up?"

"I know you're tired, baby. So yeah I'll just let you rest."

"Sorry, Mom."

"Not what, baby. If you're still tired or sleepy just go to sleep."

"What time is it, Mom?"

"Five hours less."

"It was five o'clock. Then I'll take a shower, Mom. My body feels so sticky."

"Yes, wait a minute. Let me get the warm water ready."

After taking a shower, I just wanted to eat something. I would love to eat sweet martabak with chocolate toppings and abundant cheese.

Not only that, I also feel very eager to go on the road riding a motorcycle together with Mas Rohman. I don't know if I just want to be pampered with Mas Rohman. Want to stay close to the same Mas Rohman. I wondered if this might be called a baby.

Ah, nevermind. I immediately approached Mas Rohman. He was sleeping on the sofa. Intentions want to invite out, but so not the heart. Because I saw Mas Rohman who seemed tired. But this tongue still ngeyel want sweet martabak.

I approached Mr. Rohman and gave him a spoiled smile. He also returned my smile. And I ventured to say that I wanted to eat martabak.

"Mas."

"Yes, baby."

"You're tired, yeah."

"The name of work must be tired, dear."

"But it's normal, really. As long as I go home I see you just disappear tired."

"Ehm.."

"What do you want, baby? Looks like there's something, let's just say it."

"So, this is Mas Rendy nawarin I work to take care of Miss Rita."

"Trus, you want to?"

"I didn't answer right away, anyway. I'd like to get your consent first."

"Darling, is the money I gave you less?"

"That's not what I mean, Mommy."

"Then what?"

"Bu Rita's been sick for a long time since her husband died. He doesn't eat, and he rarely talks."

"But after I was there, he changed. You can smile, eat, and talk."

I can hear Mr. Rohman exhaling violently. I can guess if Mr. Rohman doesn't allow me to work. Especially working at Mas Rendy's.

"Darling, you know you're pregnant?"

"Yes, Mum."

"The point is that they don't allow me to work. It's not like that, Mom."

"Yes, honey. More precisely like that. Hope you understand what it means, Mommy."

"Yes already, Mas. I know it."

"You're not angry, are you, baby?"

"No, Mas. Why am I angry."

Rohman kissed me on my forehead and then hugged me. I don't know why I feel this hug so much different than usual. It was like not wanting to part with Mas Rohman. Not out of Rohman's arms. Very comfortable and warm, and different as usual.

"Mas, I'd love to eat sweet martabak."

"You crave, baby?"

"No idea, Mom. I just want a sweet martabak."

"Do you want me to buy a martabak? All right, I want a way out on a motorbike."

"Make you what you're not, baby. I took the jacket first. Don't forget to wear a jacket, either."

I smiled like a child who had been bought by a snack. I hugged Mas Rohman's body and kissed his cheek. He was also very happy to get a kiss from me.

I picked up a jacket and wallet with money and a cell phone. Then we both rushed to the vehicle to buy martabak. The vehicle is traveling at medium speed. I hugged Mas Rohman's body tightly.

All the way I smiled happily. I was constantly hugging Mas Rohman tightly. Similarly, Mas Rohman who occasionally clasped my hand tightly. Not only that, Mas Rohman also had time to say 'I sanyang you, my wife' and then kiss the back of my hand.

But suddenly my feelings suddenly turned unpleasant. I feel like something is going to happen. My heart beats irregularly. And my body suddenly shook like a person was in fear.

'Oh, my God, what is this. Why did it come to be like this.'

Cold sweat also began to pour. I feel my body getting worse. And I can feel the grip of Mas Rohman's hand getting tighter and warmer.

Arriving from the opposite direction appeared a pickup with high speed overtaking the vehicle in front of him. But he didn't realize there was a vehicle ahead. It was an accident that could not be avoided.

The pickup truck hit our vehicle. I bounced a few meters, but was still a little conscious. I can still see a little bit even faintly.

I can see that Mas Rohman's body was destroyed by a container truck. Right in front of my eyes. I want to cry, I want to scream. But I have no energy. I was lying helpless. Until I finally became unconscious.

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I opened my eyes slowly, and I felt pain all over my body. My head is also very dizzy. My vision is not optimal either.

Once I was fully aware, I could see clearly too. My family is by my side. There was a mother who was crying by tightly grasping my hand. There was my brother and sister, they were all gathered waiting for me who was lying helpless.

I wanted to say a word, but it still felt heavy. I just wanted to call my husband's name. Because I want to be next to him.

"I.lb.bu... Where is Rohman?"

No response from my mother. There was even a mother who was crying incessantly. I'm getting confused, what's the matter. I tried to get up, but when I realized something was strange. I immediately opened the blanket. And it turns out my stomach is flat.

My body trembled violently, where my womb was. There is no way I have given birth. I took mom's hand, and I asked her.

"Mother, where is the child in my womb?"

"He's fine, right?"

No response from my mother. My mother started crying and hugged me. I'm getting less and less clueless. What really happened to me.

"Mom, where's Mas Rohman?"

"Already, nduk. You calm down first. You're patient, nduk."

"Mother, what's going on?"