Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 46

This morning I woke up rather early. Because I'll be ready to go back to my town. Actually, the distance is not far away either. It only took an hour and a half to reach Salatiga city.

I'm so happy because Rohman's gonna propose to me. But on the other hand I was confused. Do I have to tell you everything that happened to my family.

Because all this time my family has not known everything. Including my current pregnancy. I'm afraid my family is in shock and a lot of thoughts because of me. I try to calm down and I'll think about how good it will be. Or maybe I'll ask Rere's opinion. Maybe he can give me the right solution.

I'll grab the phone at the table and call Rere immediately. For a long time the phone line was not lifted. I tried again to contact. And again there is no answer. I'm not dizzy, maybe he's busy. I sent him a message, and I'm sure Annti will be answered.

[Re, are you busy? why isn't my phone picking up?]

[I just want to ask for a little story and need your opinion.]

[Today I intend to go to Salatiga. I wondered if I should tell my family everything that happened.]

[Hopefully you can give me a solution yes.]

I put the phone back on the table and then I re-occupied myself with some. After everything was over I rushed to the bathroom to clean myself up. Because I don't want to stall for too long. It feels like coming home soon. let go of longing with family at home.

Everything is ready and I am ready. I put some clothes, purses, and makeup tools in my not-so-big backpack. Then I took the phone and I was going to put it in my pocket.

But my intention was held back because I wanted to check where I knew there was an important message coming in. Turns out to be true, there were three missed calls. And some messages come through whatsap app. Turns out from Rere, I was hurrying to open the message.

[Sorry, I was on the road. No incoming calls.]

[You want to go back to the village, heart on the road, good luck to the destination.]

[Oh yes, you asked me for my opinion about your situation right.]

[If you think I do, you just tell me what happened to Rendy. But don't tell me if you're pregnant.]

[What's not, I'm confused to explain. I'm just afraid it'll be a problem.]

[You just told me about Rendy and Jimmy. I'm sorry I didn't mean to remind you of Jimmy.]

[And you also tell me if Rohman will propose to you. But please don't tell me once if you're pregnant.]

[That's my opinion, say, thank God. You don't like it, it's okay either. That's my opinion.]

I thought for a moment, maybe what Rere said has a point as well. I have to keep this pregnancy hidden. I'm afraid if I tell you everything the problem will get longer. Rushing I immediately replied to Rere's message and thanked him.

[Sorry Re, I was in the shower. So just reply to your message.]

[I have previously said thank you for your opinion. There might be a point if I don't tell you about my pregnancy.]

[Once again, make it. I'll be taking the bus soon.] It didn't take long, Rere replied to a message from me.

[It's okay, Re. I also send greetings to Andry.]

[Ready, I'll tell you later.]

[Yes it's Re, I go first huh. Yea.]

[Bye.]

I ended the conversation with Rere. Given that it was almost noon, I immediately ordered an ojek online. The journey to the terminal is very far.

Ten minutes later, the online object I ordered was already in front. I rushed out and locked the door. Then we approached ojek. And finally the vehicle is traveling at medium speed.

It didn't take me long to finally get to the terminal. I paid the fare and then I immediately boarded the Solo coach bus. The passengers were also almost full. So I didn't wait too long.

All the way I was busy playing with my phone. I opened my Facebook account and saw the homepage. Netraku saw a photo. My heart skipped a beat and my hands trembled.

Seeing a picture of Rendy wrapping her hand around Dilla's body. He is none other than his ex-girlfriend. And who's now Rendy's boyfriend again.

That friendly photo made me shed tears. I didn't expect it to be like this. I should have been the woman in the picture.

I admit that Dilla is beautiful. Her hair is short and blonde. If the body doesn't seem far from me. It's just that she wins style and face with thick makeup.

As for me, always appear as it is. With thin makeup and where to always wear hijab. I could've changed myself like Dilla. But I still have shame and shame. And I just want to be myself.

I was confused by my own feeling. When I was with Rendy, I always thought of Arman. And now the opposite. Right now I'm going to step forward with Arman. But Rendy's shadow always popped up and bothered me.

I was so confused, actually whose heart this is for. Suddenly my head felt very dizzy. Maybe I think too much about Rendy.

When I met Rita, she said Rendy had mentioned my name. And the doctor also said that if Rendy can be cured.

One thing I'm afraid of tomorrow is not when. I was afraid that I would live with Arman, and Rendy would recover and admit that this was her son. What I should do.

Although I myself do not know for sure whose child I bear. Rendy's son or Jimmy's son. Because I've been in contact with them before.

My head is getting dizzy. I will close my Facebook account soon. And I put the phone in my pants pocket. I apply eucalyptus oil and I sip mineral water. I wish this sense of urination could be gone.

But I was actually very sleepy. While the journey was not far away, I decided to take a break. I set the alarm an hour ahead. So that later not be missed. The journey can be estimated at one and a half hours.

Alaram already rang and I immediately turned it off. I noticed the journey was almost there. Maybe about ten minutes I reached the alley to my house which was connected directly to the highway.

I immediately prepared to be ready to move forward. So that later it is not missed. I told the kernet, if I'm going down at the Kurniawan Restaurant. Next to it is an alley to my house.

The bus I was on was pulled over. And I came down with a very careful heart. Because I remember being pregnant.