Trapped in the Love of the Past

Trapped in the Love of the Past

Eps. 84

I rushed home in a hurry. Afraid that Rohman would look for me. Just yesterday we had a good holiday to Jogja, but Mas Rohman's day had a fever. Maybe he was exhausted. I sped up my way to get home.

I immediately went into the room to see the state of Mas Rohman. I hold his forehead, the temperature is still high just like it was this morning. I hurried to change the compress.

After that I went to the kitchen, to pour the porridge I bought earlier into the bowl. I immediately fed it while the porridge was still warm.

"Mas, get up first. You eat the porridge first, it's still warm. Then you take the medicine to let the heat go down."

Without further ado, Mr. Rohman immediately got up and sat leaning back. She smiled at me, then stroked my hair. At a time like this, I remember the biggest mistake I ever made behind Mas Rohman. I deeply regret everything, and don't want to repeat it again.

I began to feed the porridge little by little into the mouth of Mas Rohman. He eats so well. Although I know if sick people eat anything it feels very bad.

"Mas, you must be soaked."

"I'm okay, baby. I'm sorry I made you panic like this."

"Yes, Mas. It's my duty to take care of you if you're sick."

"I'm sorry again, baby."

"Oh yes, don't talk about it anymore. You eat the porridge first, after that take the medicine so that the heat goes down immediately."

"Or we'll go to the doctor, Mas. I'll ask Andry for help if he's not busy."

"Already, darling. I'm okay, I'll take this medicine."

"Here, let the porridge eat by yourself. You eat first too, baby. Later the porridge will be cold to be less tasty."

Mr. Rohman snatched the bowl of porridge I was carrying. Then I hurried to get my porridge. And we both ate together.

When I finished eating, I took the medicine and drank it to Mas Rohman. Then I told him to rest to quickly get the heat down. After that I rushed to the kitchen for a few minutes.

When I was in the middle of a few days, I suddenly remembered something in my mind. It was a message from Mas Rendy yesterday. When he asked me to come to his house to visit his sick mother.

I immediately took my phone in the room. Looking at the sleeping Mas Rohman, I immediately sent a message to Mas Rendy. I want to cancel my intention to visit Ms. Rita. Seeing my own husband has a fever.

[Mas, sorry. I can't go there. This is my husband arriving to fever.] Not long ago the message I sent was answered. Very quick response from Rendy.

[Lis, you promised me yesterday. I told you too, Mom, if you're going here.]

[But why did you just cancel.]

[Sorry, Mr. Rohman is my husband. And now he's sick too. He needs me so much right now, Mom. Please understand my current position.]

[Can't you spare some time for my mom, Lisa?]

[I'm disappointed in you, Lis.]

No more messages from Mas Rendy. If I continue to respond, then there will be even longer and he will definitely use his weapon. That's bringing up the baby I'm carrying right now.

Why should it be like this in the end. Why Rohman should be barren. And why this child in my stomach is Mas Rendy's son. I hate all this. I am a stupid woman.

I don't feel my tears falling on their own. I want to regret this life. But it's useless, because it's already happened. And time is also impossible to be played back. One way is to live the life that exists.

I put my phone back on, and I continued. Sweeping, washing dishes, then washing clothes. After everything was done, I cleaned myself up. It feels so fresh. My mind went back clear and cold.

As I was about to pick up the clothes in the closet, there was a ringing of cell phones. It belonged to Mas Rohman. A call came in, I don't understand from who I am either. Rohman did not wake up. I immediately dropped the call, fearing that something would matter.

"Hallo, good morning Mr. Rohman." A woman's voice calls my husband's name sir.

"Yes, good morning. Sorry my wife. Mr. Rohman is resting, because he is sick."

"Maybe there's a message to be delivered, ma'am? Let it be later if my husband wakes up soon I tell him."

"Oh like that. My intention is to call Mr. Rohman, just want to ask about the fairy why Mr. Rohman today did not enter the office.

"Yes, mom. As I said earlier. My husband arrived with a fever, now he is resting."

"Yes, thank you for the information. Then I hang up the phone."

"Yes, mom. Thanks again."

The phone call was unilaterally cut off. It turns out from Mas Rohman's office friend. But he could have been Mas Rohman's superior. I don't really care about any of that. I immediately checked on Mas Rohman.

Thank God, the heat has started to fall. And they started sweating. I'm a little relieved to see how Mas Rohman is. What was once a high fever has now improved.

I sat next to Mas Rohman who was lying with a slightly pale face. Looking at his face, again I remembered my previous sins. When I had sex several times with Mas Rendy. Handing over my virgin to someone who's not my husband.

Regrets must be there. But regretfully, no matter what, nothing will change. My situation remains like this. I have to be patient and live my life to be better.

'Forgive me, my husband. I played with fire behind you. But I swear, I'm not the one who wants it. But I was forced and afraid of physical violence.'

'I don't want it all to happen again. I promise, I'll try to get rid of my feelings for Mas Rendy.'

'I just want you in my heart. I don't want anything else.'

I don't feel these tears dripping on their own. A tear of regret lives for betraying a husband. I can't imagine if he knew everything. I can't imagine how broken his heart is.

I hope this secret will remain in a tight hold. And don't let Rohman know everything. And hopefully Mas Rendy stops wishing for me. Hopefully, she can realize that I'm already someone's wife. And I hope, too, that I can take this taste away from her.

I just want to live a quiet life and just be happy with my husband. I do not want to waste someone who is genuinely sincere and treats me well. I don't want to lose it.